kapirasong langit sa piling ng ariang sawit

ilang sambit na impit,
ilang kaluluwang sawit?
ilang awiting nakakahilakbot
ilang pusong nagmamaramot.

anong liwanag mayroon ka
buwan na puno ng diyablong sawi?
kaninong biyaya daratal
kung hindi mananalangin?

ilang pirasong ulap ang kailangan
upang maibsan ang sakit
na dulot ng sinag ng araw?
paanong mabubuhay kung

ang iilang ariyang sawit
ay impit and sambit?
kikilalanin pa b ng maramot na puso
ang dati nitong hibik?

ei there.
it's been a while since i've posted anything here.
got no time. plus, i don't have access to the net now that
i can't go out at night to surf.
pamilyado na eh. well, sorta.

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a couple of weeks ago, i thought my wife was pregnant.
so i hastened her from eating this, drinking that,
stopped her from drinking beer at the company party; stuff like that.
a day before the date we were supposed to check
whether or not she was pregnant,
she had her menstruation.
i broke into tears.
honestly, i was expecting.

***
she told me that she'd have her last set of hepa B shots
by feb 1. that meant no contact (as if) till then.
i told her i could wait.
"why wait?", she told me last night.
needless to say more bout that.

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i'm getting the feel that i might not be a great father
after all. do i have the guts?
my dad went to our apartment the other day, helpign me put up the antenna
for the tv i bought a couple of months ago.
after installing the antenna he told me to never dare
climb up and fix it.
at first, he told me i was too fat for the job.
i dismissed his comment. then he said,
i wasn't fit for jobs like that.
then what jobs am i fit for?
that made me start thinking: what am i good at?
i know i'm not the handyman-type of person,
but am i that unadept to housework?

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ei there.
email me, sms me, keep in touch.
sometimes i get bored...
and too challenged.
be safe ...