the ermanahan was great.
it's just that it rained. hard.
of the supposed 100 kids we were expecting, only around 70 came.
but i guess everyone in the periphery realized that i was a control freak for real.

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i didn't get a contract this week.
but the school that called had their hr director talk to me about take-home pay.
i hope they do keep their promise about the salary.
daddy needs the money.

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i was talking to a fellow teacher yesterday.
looks like i'm not the only person leaving the school.
some have interviews and demo teaching starting tomorrow.
interesting. things are getting curiouser and curiouser LOL

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i got a little bit frustrated yesterday during the thesis defense for the nursing students. last week, i spent four hours in front of the laptop, editing the theses they sent me prior to the defense, only to find out that either none of them printed the edited versions of their theses or they printed it - with my comments.
i just got so annoyed by it.

and speaking of these kids, i declined editing one of the groups' theses, and the answer that i got back was "OK. THANKS NA LANG." what the f*ck is up with that? that really made my day. not.

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i got to spend some time with my kids a couple of nights ago as part of the ermanahan. monian ng konti. a lot of laughs and stories to share. made me even prouder that i was a teacher.

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still here.
hey

i actually did it. i submitted my resignation letter.
and did my exit interview last may 14.

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sad part about my resignation is that the accounting office wants me to pay off the money the school spent for my master's degree, as part of the faculty development program i was under. of the supposed four or five years of return service, i'm already done with two.

i wrote a letter to the president, requesting that the amount be deducted from the supposed separation benefits i am supposed to receive. no word yet, though.

if they don't allow my request, looks like the school will keep all the 60% of the 75% separation benefit that the school gives. the measly amount to represent 8years of hrdship and dedication will probably go up in smoke. why? i don't have the money to pay off the fac-dev money.

darn it.

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we're hosting an ermanahan on may23 for the kids here in the barangay. my batch10, and some alumni djs are coming to help out.

imagine, 90-100 kids will be in attendance. there goes my last pay LOL

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i just finished my medical requirements today.
yes, a company has called. hopefully i can sign a contract within the week.
and earn back what i lost.

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a former co-faculty from school texted me yesterday. she was talking with the new DCs of languages and of social science. she told me, their head, prof. b said daw that all i had to do was say the word, and (i shall be healed? heheh) i could be given teaching load this coming semester. i politely said thank you, but declined.

not now. i need to have cojones, and stand for what i believe is right for my family.

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people are asking why i left.
here's a bit from the resignation letter i submitted.
just a peek aight?

Proximity became a primary consideration for me when I began building my family early this year; losing the opportunity to have additional remuneration in the coming years has made me fearful of the welfare of my daughter, seeing the soaring prices of commodities. I must demonstrate due diligence and frugality in every which way I can. Couple this with the recent events in my department, which triggered a long-standing concern over security, not just of tenure or remuneration, but of peace of mind and health, these reoriented me to the reality that no one really is indispensable in this line of work. It is in this light that I would like to seek other avenues, and find my niche in the profession and field of study that I have chosen.

honestly, i was teary-eyed when i underwent the exit interview.
and i still haven't got the heart to tell my kids that i've resigned. too painful.

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if ever you got time, drop by aight?
gonna miss all you kids.
hey.

matalino ang anak natin.
alam ko maiintindihan nya tayo.

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i am at the verge of losing a wife.
we had a word-war late last night, resulting to her not eating dinner
and me, not having someoneto hug the whole night.
she wasn't feeling very well, then add the prospect of me getting hired in a university in manila, plus stress, and then it went- word war nth...

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this morning we had an even more difficult-to-understand-but-don't-know-where-it-started-from argument. that's where all the words came flinging.
till at some point, she decided that maybe it would be wise to just call it quits for a while.

of course, i said no.
she'll be coming home later. we'll see what happens.
she says she'll drop by to pick up her clothes.

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madaya ka. alam mong hindi ko kayang umalis ng wala si ineng.

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my mind's a mess.
hey.