i looked, but you weren't there. drawing the lines. again.

just when you think things can't get any worse, they do.
marineil decided to resign from the radio - thank God, she changed her mind.
i can't let the kids be left with some other teacher who was full of crap and stuff, bossing my kids around.

reading your blog, and realizing that you were shunning me yet again, i started to realize why you haven't been replying. i assumed you were busy with your work. i guess you were. but there was something more. and i was right. you were starting to hate me. yet again.
whatever happened between us that night was between two people who found themselves in the most awkward, yet homy position they've ever been to.
let me be honest: i didn't expect that to happen. really. i thought i could just dropby, say my piece, and leave early enough to not have spent another night in a nook that was so filled with fond memories it overwhelmed me. it overwhelmed me because i couldn't be in that nook anymore.
i guess i could have stopped right then and there. but i didn't want to be rude. i was surprised when you let me kiss you. i felt glad that for once, after everything, we were comfortable with the idea of kissing each other again.
i didn't mean to pry, storyweaver. i don't want want to point fingers either. i understand why you have to draw the lines again. but i hope we come out as friends after everything.
i don't remember anything i did that might have offended you, other than the handshake thing. it wasn't my call, i know. i rushed things. yet again.

i'm going out today. going to church i mean. it'd take some time before i GO out. but we'll see.

i'm here, man. count on it.
hey.

'have been very busy for the past few weeks. busy looking for work.
having been part of the academe for four years leaves a man jittery when he comes out of his scholastic shell, and dive into the work jungle. grabe. ansaya palang maghanap ng trabaho. and i mean that metaphorically. the competition is stiff; i nearly have no edge compared to the millions out there who do.
i have an interview on wednesday at libis; i might dropby the embassies along ayala before i go to QC. i hope things work out well for me.
i might see a few friends as well. para sabay-sabay na't iisang lakaran na. 'am particular excited about meeting gibb.

***
mwah!
don't get too mushy with me ok?
g'nyt
***

And I thought that what I felt was simple
And I thought that I don't belong
And now that I am leavin
Now I know that I did somethin wrong 'cause I missed you
Yeah yeah, I missed you

...You said that I was naive and I thought that I was strong oh
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave"
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you
Yeah, I missed you

...You said, "you called me 'cause you want me and one day you let me go"
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me
'Cause you know you're just so scared to lose
And you say, "Stay."
You say I only hear what I want to

Stay
by Lisa Loeb

'was talking with gibb for an hour and a half (mobile to mobile - he called. wow.) the other day. tallking about stuff. friendship. lovelives. work (talked about that a lot.), naughty stuff LOL just a lot of things. but something he said left me thinking after the call: he said i might not have been queer after all.

But you are in my head, swimming forever in my head
Tangled in my dreams, swimming forever

So, I listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
And all the songs we used to know (listen to the ...)
So I listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
Remember where we used to go

radio
the corrs

oh, by the way, i still don't know if i'm getting booted out. but better prepared than not, right? i hope i get the job this wednesday.
and not, the thoughts for the day!

can you get to the future if your past is present?
***
there are some things that people don't say because they don't sound right.
***
urgency overrules propriety.
***
silence is the absence of time in intended indifference.
***
don't let the fear of striking out hold you back.
***
perhaps all we need to know is to not know at all.

i'm still alive. for how long, who cares. as long as i have you to read who i am.
hey.

i am freakin out.
no kidding.

after that inicident with the evaluator and stuff, i could NOT be more freaked out that tonight. thinking of the possibility of getting booted out from work freaks me out to the next level, man. i'm shaking right now. (or probably i'm just cold from the bland pineapple juice i'm having.)

just got back from the city plaza. couldn't feel the vibe. too many people there. a
lot of youngin's frolicking, and i couldn't find myself peaceful. can i NOT be peaceful for just a freakin' moment?!

suddenly reality kicked in and i realized that hey, i might get booted out tomorrow. that i'd be losing all four years of my life spent in lyceum, just because some evaluator decided to suddenly go balistic. but hey, i'm not solely blaming her for this. it partly is my fault. i shouldn't have been very cordial with everyone. look where it got me now.

happy
cheerful
blissful
atrociously jaunty
sunny
spritely
undaunted
smiling
sometimes officious
alive
breathing
joyful
elated
not remotely sad
what's missing?

adjectives and adverbs
5.20.04

something from my earlier blogs. can i be anymore messed up? that night we talked about what we felt for each other, and how our relationship was, i was more than glad that we did. and please tell angel i'm sorry.

but something stuck to me like glue, though - how long would i keep deceiving myself of the reality that i was queer. dammit. i am such a stupid git. that i didn't have the guts to face reality, and instead made believe that i was more than what i thought i was. thank you for setting me free, 'tales. briefly, i was myself that night. thanks for releasing me. (and might i say when you sat on that garden table all loose and homy, you looked beautiful.)

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

Angel
Sarah Mclachlan

you were my angel that night, 'tales. and i'm saddened to realize that you may not text back everytime i do. that right after that closure, we have not come out as friends. that i should start letting you go as a friend. i do not like to let you go. not as a friend, man. because i would like to gain your trust again.

I don't remember what day it was
I didn't notice what time it was
All I know is that I fell in love with you
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you

Every day's a new day in love with you
With each day comes a new way of loving you
Every time I kiss your lips my mind starts to wander
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you

Oh, I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But, darling, not as much as tomorrow

Tomorrow's date means springtime's just a day away
Cupid, we don't need ya now, be on your way
I thank the Lord for love like ours that grows ever stronger
And I always will be true
I know you feel the same way, too

Oh, I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But only half as much as tomorrow

Every day's a new day
Every time I love ya
Every way's a new way
Every time I love ya
Every day's a new day
Every time I kiss ya
Every day's a new day

I Love You More Today Than Yesterday
Staircase Spiral


i'm glad we had closure, 'tales. but i'm not happy about you not considering me as a friend just yet. this means i have to work doubly hard to get you back. i owe it to you. and owe it to myself to have you as a friend again.

i'm here. hey.

In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

closure. the long awaited coming of dots and crosses on t's and i's. i was hesitant to continue on last night. i was going to back out actually while i walked towards your place. but i continued walking. because i needed this. i knew we still had hang-ups on each other. we were just too afraid to accept them. not until we finally decided to move on. really move on. and start on the gritty work of patching things up between us. and finally accepting the fact that we have settled top becoming friends, however distant it may become for us.

i know that at one point we would go beyond being just shrinks. that i might eventually try my luck on applying as a quasi-friend to you for the time being. and i would be fine with that. quasi as it may become, soon i hope, we would still be friends.

I don't wanna wait in vain for your love;
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love;
I don't wanna wait in vain for your love,
'Cause if summer is here,
I'm still waiting there;
Winter is here,
And I'm still waiting there.

i got there at your place. i stood by the gate, anxious of what to do next. honestly, i was practicing what i'd say. i didn't want to say anything offensive to you. it wasn't called for. not now that we both wanted closure. closure for the past that was starting to become vague for us.

you let me in. we started talking. but lola woke up, and we had to take the talk outside. you had dinner. and you lent me a jacket. more talk. and i loved it. it's been a long time since i got to talk to you like that. then you dropped the bombs at me, one by one. boy, was i devastated. slightly. they were called for, i knew that night. thank you for opening my eyes.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

you made me realize that i never did size up to what i should have sized up for you. i promised you so much; i gave you so little. my apologies. but i would like to make it up to you somehow. when you start permitting me to.

For what it’s worth I think there’s
nobody like you
You’ve got grace got a heart beating and despite
you’re fun
As I grew up I was terrified of darkness
Now you’re around I’ve no reason
to be frightened
‘Cause even if the sun came tumbling down
You light the ground I walk on
Even if the moon fell out of the sky
You light the ground I walk on

you made me feel right at home. again. when we touched, i felt connected to you again, and yet there was that thing we wanted so much to gain from everything that happened early that night. every kiss, every touch. i felt each one lunge me in the heart, and help me realize that yes, i would like to get you back as a friend.

And with all that's said and done
You've always been the one
To hold me on those rainy days
When I couldn't see the sun
And when all the clouds disappear
And my skies are clear

thanks for the great night. hope you had a great night too.
i'm back. hey.

i am sorta officially gonna get booted out of work by monday morning. definitely not a day i am looking forward to. although there has been no formal talks yet with the bosses, since i am getting my clearance signed (hopefully) on monday, i might just get some ass-whoopin' too.

***

this morning while i aired, i felt like i was performing my last boardwork. well, i felt i was good. great even. though i stuttered a bit, i guess i did fine. but it felt like it was my last airing kahit na may airing pa din ako bukas at 1pm. people were greeting me all over, calling me MR PEÑA, in a tone that almost meant like it was the last time they were going to see me on campus. either that or i'm uberparanoid.

to be honest, i will feel sad if i leave the school, the radio this coming semester. i've been with the school for four of my best years as a teacher. been with the radio for three years. and i AM going to miss going to work at 4am to do ads, and expecting the house ghosts to be there to welcome me. i'll miss the kids, so say the least. haven't told anybody except darryl. she says i should blurt it out only when the ultimatum is given. monday pa daw kasi. kung kelan naman ako madaming plano para sa radio - i got new programs coming up. i got a concert set february 12. i got a new set of trainee djs. geez.

***

speaking of new programs, here are the new programs i got in mind: SMALL DAWGS WITH BIG TOYS, a men's show talking about guy issues; GIRL TALK, the feminine counterpart of SDWBT; CAMPUS CHRISTI, a bi-weekly program on contemporary Christian music; BANDISTA, a show that features batangueño singers and bands; and CAMPUS ALMUSAL, the earliest campus-based morning show.

i hope everything turns out okay.

i'm trying to stay alive.
hey.

had a very interesting day with the gf. went to hear mass. went to the mall afterwards. ate a lot. i took home a few donuts and some other things we ate while in the trike.

***

I stand before you accused of many crimes
But I want to believe that love can still survive
You don't have to say it, I don't have to read your mind
To know that emptiness has finally arrived
How was I to know right from wrong
Words were hardly spoken, so where did I go wrong
Tell me honestly, if you're still loving me
Looking into my eyes honestly
Words have more meaning, if they're said at certain times
I need you now so I can feel alive
How would you know if you won't give me some time
To see if everything could work you'll be mine
I'll be lost forever or someday I may find
The words that I've been searching for or just some peace of
mind
All the nights I sit and wonder there must be more life
I'm sure that days and years go by while
I am living with, living with a lonely feeling

***

a lot of things are bothering me now. things that shouldn't have been bothering me for quite sometime, but they still do. i know i should have moved on. but the tales still linger. i don't know why. have i not moved on, as you have?

was wondering if you could go out for coffee tonight?
the usual hassle here. dammit.
- bad time. sorry, but i have to meet someone for dinner tonight. we've set it up a week.

i wanted to go out. really badly. and i did. i lounged at the ben for a couple of hours - sitting at the bench for a few hours, and puffing a few phillips to pass time. i so wanted to talk to someone. but i guess i didn't have any right to impose. not now.

***

[Nelly]
I used to pride myself on being the other man
But now it's flipped and I don't want you with no other man
Why can't you understand anything I'm offering
I gave you the world, but you just wanted arguing
From the time I picked you up, until the time I dropped you off again
Even if flipped out on at the mall again
"It's all his fault again" that's what you tellin all ya friends
I ain't pointing fingers ma, i just wanna call again
See how ya day going I know they stressin on ya
I know them times get hard that's why I'm checkin on ya
It's yours truly ma, I got little message for ya
Anything he can do, girl I can do better for ya
Cause

Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)

[Nelly]
I heard your friend tell a friend that told a friend of mine
That you was thinking that we should do it one more time
If this ain't the truth then hopefully it's not a lie
Cause I ain't got no issue with hitting that another time
We never had a problem with gettin it done
Disagreed upon a lot ma, but sex wouldn't one
Now check it I know you get excited when I come around and bite it
Quit frownin up and quit actin like you don't like it

I like it (I know you like), I like it (You really like it), I really, really like it,
I want it (You really want it), adore it (adore it), so come with me enjoy it

Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)

Bridge: [Nelly]
Shawty where you been
Feels like a long time, long long time since I seen ya
Yes it has girl, and I know I said some dumb things to you before
But girl you know I didn't mean it
I didn't mean one single word
I never meant one single word
If I could take back every word I would and more fa sho
If I thought that you believe it
Cause you make my life so convinient for me

Hook: [Nelly]
When we laugh or we cry it's together
Through the rain and the stormiest weather
We gon still be as one it's forever, it's forever

Chorus: [Jaheim]
Won't you come on and go with me (oh girl)
Come on over to my place
Won't you sit ya self down and take a seat
and let me ease ya mind girl
We gon do it our way (our way)

my place
nelly feat. jaheim

***

i felt like i was rhandy last night. remember that? you were running away from him. i texted. you went out with me. and not him. i felt like now, I am rhandy. that you were running away from me. or maybe i'm just being uberparanoid, and reactive about it. sorry. damn me.

i'm still here.
hey.

i was kinda intrigued with kelly clarkson's newest single, BREAKAWAY.

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of a could-be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around wild indoors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

HOW MANY TIMES DO WE BREAKAWAY FROM OUR LIFE AS MERE MORTALS AND EVOLVE INTO MORE THAN JUST SHRINKS, BITCHES, FRIENDS, LOVERS AND FOES? TOO MANY TIMES, I GUESS. IF THINGS WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE AS THEY ARE, WHY DO WE STILL SUFFER THE ATROCITY? BUSY STREETS HIDE NOT WHAT I FEEL. LONELINESS. DISTRAUGHT. ANGST. LOVE. LOSS.

***

i might not be at the school i teach at by this coming semester. a lot of people are making ways to make sure of that. that or i might just be uberparanoid.
an evaluator unwittingly told students that i was her cousin - while the students were evaluating me! the evaluator got "pissed off" with the students' side comments about me. she told me that's what pushed her to proclaim i was a relative. (i don't even know her first name.) that's strike number one.

number two, my department chairman, i found out, was not logging all the exams and exercises, syllabi and diskettes i submitted to her. the dean was questioning why i had no record of any of these in his book. i told him i already submitted all that they asked of me. he approached one SA and bluntly asked that the records be updated. wow. shouldn't my DC have done that the minute i submitted all my academic requirements. a non-submission of requirements is a display of inefficiency. this i cannot accept.

strike three would have to be the feeling i got this morning while i sat on the DJ's chair, and spun songs (highlighted by Clarkson's BREAKAWAY). it was like a capping off of things. like i felt that everything would be ending soon. geez. i love my work. sometimes more than my gf. (that's why we fight sometimes; she couldn't understand why i have to dedicate so much of my time for the station. i mean, find anyone else at my school who's willing to come at four in the morning to produce ads that the school asks me to do.) but instead of hating the feeling, i felt relieved, almost calm about it. i had a blast this morning.

i might just have to look for another job this second semester, but my hopes are still up high. i'm testing the waters now. i hope things go smoothly for me and my plans.

ei you. email me. thanks!
i'm still here.
oink oink

took me a while, but i guess i did. but i'd be a hypocrite if i said i don't get the goosebumps (the good kind) when i see you. when i talk to you. you excite me. too much, i end up frantic.

I hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time with all your time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now
And I'm alone and free
I know that I should get on with my life
But a life lived without you could never be right

As long as the stars shine down
From the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me

I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
Loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay
I know that I ought to find someone new
But all I find is myself always thinking of you

As long as the stars shine down
From the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me

No matter what I do
Each night's a lifetime to live through
I can't go on like this
I need your touch
You're the only one I've ever love

And as long as the stars shine down
From the heavens
Long as the rivers run to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me
I'll never get over you getting over
Never get over you getting over
Never get over you getting over me

I'll never get over you getting over me
bellefire/expose

'hope you don't mind.

my themesong last summer. how i miss missing that fateful summer.

I feel it's changing, I stay the same
I'm... a solo cello outside a chor-us
I've got a secret,
It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm

Just sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?

You tell me you have to go...

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Now that you've left me, there's no retur-ning
I keep comparing, you're always win-ning
I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted
Will you make me at home?

Don't tell me you have to go...

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Ya da... ya da... ya da

To sweet beginnings and bitter en-dings
In coffee city, we borrowed hea-ven
Don't give it back
Winter is coming and I need to stay warm

The heat.....

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody knows

[chorus]
In the heat of summer sunshine
I miss you like nobody else
In the heat of summer sunshine
I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

summer sunshine
corrs

i wonder how next summer would be like?

From the very first time I rest my eyes on you,boy
My heart said follow through but I know now
That I'm way down on your line
But the waiting feeling's fine

So don't treat me like a puppet on a string
Because I know how to do my thing
Don't talk to me as if you think I'm dumb
I wanna know when you're gotta come,you see

*I don't wanna wait in a vain for your love
I don't wanna wait in a vain for your love
I don't wanna wait in a vain for your love
'Cause sommer is here
And I'm still waiting there
Winter is here
I'm still waiting there

Like I said
It's been three years since I'm knocking on your door
And still I can knock some more
Ooh boy,ooh boy,is it crazy look,I wanna know now
For I to knock some more,you see

In life I know
That there is lots of grief
But your love is my relief
Tears in my eyes burn
Tears in my eyes burn
While I'm waitin'
While I'm waitin' for my turn,you see

(*Repeat)

Like I said-
I don't wanna,I don't wanna
I don't wanna,I don't wanna
I don't wanna wait in vain
I don't wanna,I don't wanna
I don't wanna,I don't wanna
I don't wanna wait in vain

It's been three years since I'm knocking on your door
And still I can knock some more
Ooh boy,ooh boy,is it crazy look,I wanna know now
Like I said,the tears in my eyes burn
Tears in my eyes burn
While I'm waiting
While I'm waiting for my turn,you see
Ooh boy,ooh boy,is it crazy look,I wanna know now
For I to knock some more
In life I know there is lots of grief
But your love is my relief

waiting in vain
marley

honesty is such a lonely word
everyone is so untrue.
honesty is hardly ever heard
and mostly what i need from you.

on the way to my girlfriend's house i started singing HONESTLY by harem scarem. i didn't know why i started singing it, but i just did. my gf was giving me the face, 'cause i was singing so loudly in the trike, but i didn't care.

honesty. probably the last value that i'd ever learn to achieve, but ever so desperate to have. have i been honest? well, not to most people. sometimes not even to myself. there are only a few people i'm actually honest with. you could count them with my fingers.

ansaya ng buhay ko. really.

i'm laying down the cards today. though not totally honest, at least i'm trying:

1. i hate my dad. nothing new about that. it's my dad's birthday today, and what did we do today? we fought. in front of my gf. pinahiya pa niya ako. dammit.
2. i have an insatiable love for pornography. this is the reason, among others, why me and the terrestrial visionary split up.
3. i don't like being humiliated.
4. i don't like being left out in the rain. i'm sick and tired of that.
5. i don't like people who think i'm puddy in their hands. they get into my nerves. sorry celest. i don't like your guts.
6. i am sincere with how i deal with people. those who think that i'm not, hope the Lord give you longer lives.
7. i'm more than the person you think i am. sorry if i don't disclose that much.

whatever life has become for me, though i may not be happy about a lot of things, i'm just glad there are people out there who still like me. however small that number of people is.

hey. i'm still here.

i miss missing you.
in all honesty.
i miss those nights i cried
because i couldn't hold you in my arms;
those days that i daydreamed about you.
dammit.
i miss missing you.

***

yeah, i'll get better.
barfiness probably came with the day.
hahaha
oh, by the way
happy birthday.

***

once i missed you.
ev'ry moment and fleeting sigh;
when suns die and lovers fail,
dammit, i used to miss you.
i hope you did me, too.

***

even more fearless is the reality that the once terrestrial visionary was my dearest. we shared coffee, tea, bread, hotdogs and roasted chicken with home-made gravy. we'd talk all night. have coffee breaks; then talk again. that whole, precious month.
i miss missing you.

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regardless of what happened between us, i'm glad that we've evolved into more than just the bitches, the friends, the shrinks, the foes, the lovers, the untouchables that we became.

i may miss missing you sometimes, but hey. we've all moved on. i just hope you're happy with where you are, and who you're with now.

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i miss missing you.
in all honesty.

hey.

i was at TIP yesterday afternoon. walking six flights of stairs per building, was a bit taxing, man. but the TIP experience was interesting though. no tiles on the upper floors, but really clean surroundings. plus the whole school was routed into one network. teachers could access all their files frm anywhere in the building. and they could download their lessons from the main server at any point in the school.

i also met the 26 year old associate vice president of TIP. he was newly married. a graduate of MIS from ateneo. he was planning to take an MBA at Harvard.

cool.

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i also got lost in the quiapo area. i was going to morato, running an errand for my mom when i figured that i didn't know what jeepney to take. LOL i was lost, and was starting to panic when the sun set faster than i thought it would (winter solstice nearing, duh). anyway, i eventually found the jeepney i was supposed to take, got off at morato and did the errand. i also got a chance to eat at this chinese fast food house - was a bit expensive (i mean chicken for 120?) - so i just ate lomi.

but noone told me it was seafood lomi. geez, my allergies started acting up. nanghinayang kasi ako sa lomi. andami kasi heheh... you know me, i don't waste food.

but it was all good. i caught a ride going to kamuning, and got on the bus. tought luck, though. the bus didn't decide to move for the next two and a half hours. i got home at around 2am.

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i only got two hours of sleep today. geez, am i tired. i hope foxtales can read this. some help on the blog, man. i got my ideas organized na.

hey.

it's been a while since i posted anything. wow. a week i guess. i had a really toxic one.
SATURDAY (technically not the start of my week - so sue me)
i had a humble birthday bash at my place. just a few people, oh say around 50 whom i knew personally, loved and were acquainted to. several non-radio people came. thanks for the cake by the way. it was weird finding you there at my door, holding the cake up and saying there was no brazo de mercedes. felt awkward, but it was all good, friend.
at least three people puked, thank zeus not on the floor or on my couch - ryah, frances and JV. wow.
everybody went home by 8am the following day. man, was i pooped. but i had to go to school to put up the sound system and the lights.

SUNDAY
i had to help set-up the sound system from YUPANGCO YAMAHA, and the lights from X'OR MANILA. i did that right after hearing mass with mah girl. i got home around 10pm. alas! second day of no sleep. least not the recommended dose.

MONDAY
i was forced to take a bath at the backstage of the gym. i didn't have time to prepare for the FAMILY NIGHT, so i packed whatever i could get my hands on late last night, and stashed away.
turned out, all i took was a polo shirt and some slacks. i did NOT fit in. dammit.

TUESDAY
Miss Lyceum night, and i had to take charge of production. the night was worth it though. my student won. i was shouting loudly i forgot i was supposed to sing the following night. turned out i couldn't anymore.
i got home at 2.30pm - and my dad was furious. i was annoyed. what am i? a 15 year old schoolgirl?

WEDNESDAY
BANDISTA NIGHT. we had a full house. a lot of speculators in the crowd. but no old people. least none that i could see. it was all good. i got home at 3.30am, and slept for just an hour and a half. damn.

have to go. will say more next time.
oink.