Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
BECAUSE OF YOU
Kelly Clarkson
sa totoo lang, masyado akong naiinis sa kanya ngayon. hindi ko alam kung ano'ng ipinuputok ng butchi nya. dahil lang sa nagpa-print ako ng litrato namin habang humahalik ako, nagalit na sya.
ano'ng nararamdaman ko ngayon? parang kinakahiya niya ako bilang kasintahan.
ansakit. sobra.
bago umuwi, pinabalik pa nya ako sa tindahan ng kapatid nya - pinatambay, pagkatapos pinulaan ang nakapuyod kong buhok.
AG: hindi na ko hihiling ng kahit na ano ulit, ito na lang... sige na tanggalin mo na...
EA: ano bang pinagkaiba ng puyod sa hikaw sa tenga ng mga pinsan mo? di ba ganun din lang yun?
AG: (simangot) sya sige.
EA: ngayon nagagalit ka kasi ayaw kong tanggalin? so mas okey sa 'yong may hikaw ako basta wag nakapuyod?
AG: halika ako magbutas... kahit dalawa pa... eksperto ako dyan.
EA: ganyan ka naman lagi.
bago ako umuwi, dumaan ako dito. naglalabas ng sama ng loob.
an offer to teach at lyphil just came through SMS. dunno if i'll accept it, since the schedule conflicts with my schedule here.
bahala na. kakainis.
sana paggising ko bukas, wala na yung sakit na nararamdaman ko.
puta'ng ina talaga.
pasensya na sa mura.
My place. My nook. My home away from nowhere. Here where the sun thrives on my body's ink. Here is where evil is reborn. Eternally.
Nov 15, 2005
Nov 14, 2005
it's been three days after my thesis pre-orals, and i am B-O-R-E-D.
darn it. i don't have the energy just yet to work on the revisions that the panel has suggested (although i'm not running out on energy 'cause i've been eating a lot in the past few days... grr).
among the revisions include:
1. a reorganization of my thesis' structure based on the institution's prescribed format;
2. an inclusion of a "specific question" which the panel omitted before. i actually found it amusing to see the panel correct itself;
3. a more concise, more brief style of writing (the panel has suggested that i get a research grammarian; my adviser thought otherwise. i will just consult other graduate thesis for syntax);
4. an introduction of a development theory as springboard of the study (probably the keanesian theory of modernization); and,
5. a revision of certain statistic, and the simplification of my table presentation.
grr. i don't know when i'll get back the drive to start on it. i better get it back fast. my finals are set december 16 or 17. haay.
still here. i think.
darn it. i don't have the energy just yet to work on the revisions that the panel has suggested (although i'm not running out on energy 'cause i've been eating a lot in the past few days... grr).
among the revisions include:
1. a reorganization of my thesis' structure based on the institution's prescribed format;
2. an inclusion of a "specific question" which the panel omitted before. i actually found it amusing to see the panel correct itself;
3. a more concise, more brief style of writing (the panel has suggested that i get a research grammarian; my adviser thought otherwise. i will just consult other graduate thesis for syntax);
4. an introduction of a development theory as springboard of the study (probably the keanesian theory of modernization); and,
5. a revision of certain statistic, and the simplification of my table presentation.
grr. i don't know when i'll get back the drive to start on it. i better get it back fast. my finals are set december 16 or 17. haay.
still here. i think.
Nov 8, 2005
"if you can't dance, you can't make love;
no rhythm, no passion.
- born/romantic"
the start of the semester couldn't be any more hectic. today alone my teaching load changed three times - each with a two-hour interval. and at the end of the day, here is my schedule now:
TTH
7-8.30a COMMUNICATION SKILLS
11.30-1p WORLD LITERATURE
1-2.30p INTRO TO BROADCASTING
FS
7-8.30a PHILIPPINE LITERATURE
8.30-10a PHILIPPINE LITERATURE
1-2.30p BROADCAST JOURNALISM
2.30-4p STUDY AND THINKING SKILLS
4-5.30p WORLD LITERATURE
darn it. add to this the upcoming documentation of the Private Schools Athletic Association (PRISAA) opening this coming nov. 19-20 at de la salle lipa, and the continuing documentation on the 21st, plus my work at the control room of the new freedom hall this coming 22nd for the mutya ng prisaa competition.
haay :( as early in the semester as today, i already went to my first meeting. i wonder what's next. oh, i know pala.
i am defending my masters thesis this coming friday, and i am facing the biggest scare of my life.
why? my thesis defense panel is composed of people i know - ms. cqm, my chair, is my former mentor in journalism and in socio-political studies; prof. rachel, my adviser, is also a previous mentor for sociology and recently, for community development and organization; dr. bonot, panel member, is marineil's mother; ms. nani, panel member, was my professor in logic and is a friend; and prof. geron, panel member, was my thesis adviser for my thesis proposal.
how could i NOT be frightened?! i'm scared of making a mistake; i've learned so much from these people, i can't afford to freak out and make a mess of the defense. i am living proof of their work as facilitators of the development craft. hehe...
to relive myself of the stress, i am going to the CCP tomorrow to watch wally, my friend from lyphil, perform at the huseng batute theatre. he's part of the philippine playhouse's production of THE LEGEND OF KING MIDAS. i'm seeing the last show.
afterwards, we'll go to star city and ride the roller coaster. it's been a while LOL
i hope things work out okay. i'm really scared. and excited. i've finished the powerpoint presentation for the defense, and the thesis output that they've requested. as an icebreaker at the side, i also did a video presentation of photos i took using my camera phone.
still here. keep in touch :)
no rhythm, no passion.
- born/romantic"
the start of the semester couldn't be any more hectic. today alone my teaching load changed three times - each with a two-hour interval. and at the end of the day, here is my schedule now:
TTH
7-8.30a COMMUNICATION SKILLS
11.30-1p WORLD LITERATURE
1-2.30p INTRO TO BROADCASTING
FS
7-8.30a PHILIPPINE LITERATURE
8.30-10a PHILIPPINE LITERATURE
1-2.30p BROADCAST JOURNALISM
2.30-4p STUDY AND THINKING SKILLS
4-5.30p WORLD LITERATURE
darn it. add to this the upcoming documentation of the Private Schools Athletic Association (PRISAA) opening this coming nov. 19-20 at de la salle lipa, and the continuing documentation on the 21st, plus my work at the control room of the new freedom hall this coming 22nd for the mutya ng prisaa competition.
haay :( as early in the semester as today, i already went to my first meeting. i wonder what's next. oh, i know pala.
i am defending my masters thesis this coming friday, and i am facing the biggest scare of my life.
why? my thesis defense panel is composed of people i know - ms. cqm, my chair, is my former mentor in journalism and in socio-political studies; prof. rachel, my adviser, is also a previous mentor for sociology and recently, for community development and organization; dr. bonot, panel member, is marineil's mother; ms. nani, panel member, was my professor in logic and is a friend; and prof. geron, panel member, was my thesis adviser for my thesis proposal.
how could i NOT be frightened?! i'm scared of making a mistake; i've learned so much from these people, i can't afford to freak out and make a mess of the defense. i am living proof of their work as facilitators of the development craft. hehe...
to relive myself of the stress, i am going to the CCP tomorrow to watch wally, my friend from lyphil, perform at the huseng batute theatre. he's part of the philippine playhouse's production of THE LEGEND OF KING MIDAS. i'm seeing the last show.
afterwards, we'll go to star city and ride the roller coaster. it's been a while LOL
i hope things work out okay. i'm really scared. and excited. i've finished the powerpoint presentation for the defense, and the thesis output that they've requested. as an icebreaker at the side, i also did a video presentation of photos i took using my camera phone.
still here. keep in touch :)
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