welcome the year of the fire dog
with a bang!
the whole family of 103.7 lyceum campus radio says
hello to the year of the fire dog
with warm smiles,
higher hopes
and better broadcasting ideals!
watch out for the
2006 enduro-survivor hunt:summer series
starting this february!
if you're interested, you can start sending in your demo tapes and biodata by february!
WHAT TO PUT IN THE DEMO TAPE:
1. tell us something about yourself, and why you want to be a dj;
2. introduce and extroduce a song like a dj;
3. read an english or filipino news article.
IT'S THAT SIMPLE!
attach a copy of your registration form for 2nd semester, 2005-2006 to make sure you're a certified lycean, aight? hehe
the culminating welcome party
will be held in PUERTO GALERA
(or boracay. we're still thinking about it)!
have a great year ahead of you!
make sure to stay tuned in to batangas city's
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103.7 lyceum campus radio
Dec 30, 2005
be careful with how you live;
you may be the only bible some people live.
where do i begin?
christmas day had got to be the most gluttonous day of my entire life. brunch, we had caldereta, afritada, relyenong bangus, morcon, fish fillet with tartar sauce, cucumber salad drizzled with nata, and lotsa rice.
merienda, we had sotanghon, a big pan of five-layered lasagna, lundres bread from bauan, puto, kutsinta and more salad.
dinner, we had more of the caldereta and afritada, sotanghon, the return of the relyeno, fried tilapia, and more of the puto and kutsinta (which eventually became the pulutan for the emperados brandy that my cousins drank).
the following morning (after a brief checking of blood sugar), we had reruns of the sotanghon, what was left of the lasagna (i ate a third of the pan), some omelette, more of the cucumber salad, puto and kutsinta, more relyeno and lotsa fried rice drizzled with hotdog bits.
needless to say, i gained weight. grr.
i don't think my wallclimbing would help lessen the flabs.
grr.
happy new year.
welcome the year of the fire dog!
you may be the only bible some people live.
where do i begin?
christmas day had got to be the most gluttonous day of my entire life. brunch, we had caldereta, afritada, relyenong bangus, morcon, fish fillet with tartar sauce, cucumber salad drizzled with nata, and lotsa rice.
merienda, we had sotanghon, a big pan of five-layered lasagna, lundres bread from bauan, puto, kutsinta and more salad.
dinner, we had more of the caldereta and afritada, sotanghon, the return of the relyeno, fried tilapia, and more of the puto and kutsinta (which eventually became the pulutan for the emperados brandy that my cousins drank).
the following morning (after a brief checking of blood sugar), we had reruns of the sotanghon, what was left of the lasagna (i ate a third of the pan), some omelette, more of the cucumber salad, puto and kutsinta, more relyeno and lotsa fried rice drizzled with hotdog bits.
needless to say, i gained weight. grr.
i don't think my wallclimbing would help lessen the flabs.
grr.
happy new year.
welcome the year of the fire dog!
Dec 21, 2005
after much contemplation over pounds of beef gyudon,
i decided to go through with it. bring it on.
it took me an afternoon of gorging into beef gyudon at tokyo tokyo to finally realize that i had to go through with my masters thesis final defense.
WHY NOT?
last saturday, i submitted my drafts to the graduate school office for final instructions before the original scheduled defense of december 19. to my dismay, dr. vera took one look at my thesis and then rammed me with a myriad of questions regarding her previous corrections to my manuscript.
shock overcame me; i was put under the assumption that i might have had to tear up my manu and re-do it again - this time, ti her suiting.
EA: ano po bang gusto ninyong mangyari mam?
VP: mali ito! asan na yung papel ng mga corrections ko? mali ito!
EA: mam, di ba kaya nga po may final defense pa is for the comments?
VP: you did not answer question number 2...
EA: uung interventions po? ito po... (flips pages)
VP: hindi yan yun. mali.
EA: mam, wala naman po comments yung ibang panel sa interventions...
VP: sila wala, ako meron.
EA: mam, kung ipapagawa ninyo po uli sakin yan ngayon, hindi ko na lang itutuloy. wala na po akong pera.
i left the grad school almost in tears. suddenly the girth i felt for the thesis waned, and i found myself in a writing slump once again.
when i got back to lybat, i had the longest face i've ever put on. i was ranting, jumping all around - much to the surprise and amusement of everyone. the only consolations i had for the rotten saturday? the kids winning P500 (which we will raffle off tomorrow at the reunion party) and a gas stove. yes, i won a gas stove. stop laughing.
THE DAYS BEFORE
sunday went as usual. i went to see grace at around 2.30pm at lodlod church. a friend of hers was getting married, and she was the maid of honor (much to her, and my surprise). she was stunning in the apple green and orange gown, although people couldn't see well 'cause there was no electricity LOL when the SERAPHIM CHOIR sang "kordero, maawa ka" lights went on. or at least until the end of the wedding ceremony. during the pictorials on the altar, lights went off again hehe
i wore a red shirt with vertical white stripes, a khaki pair of pants, and my new brown leather shoes. grabe, before the party was over, i realized i over-dressed for the ocassion LOL i was under the assumption that the crowd was class A-B, because the venue of the reception (which i hosted) was the posh El Grande Haciendas hotel. i was dead wrong LOL
after the party, grace and i went back home - to our respective houses LOL i returned to my writing slump, and decided to not think about the thesis. that same night, my sister and i went to the mall to buy stuff. took us three hours to buy her exchange gift. a measly bottle of strawberry-scented perfume. grr.
monday, i had to go back to school. the PC of the radio station crashed. darn it. three capacitors blew up from the motherboard, and the thing wasn't even turning on. i took the CPU to the property office for a standard check-up. they decided to have all our files backed up - all 12Gbs of it, though i lost my mp3 player software. anyway, i had to leave the kids to air using manual techniques, i.e. the use of two vcds interchangably for airing. i had to go home early to meet a friend.
***
i met wally at the CAP auditorium at around noon. i wasn't sure at first if he was really hosting the kliddy party, but when i overheard his voice, i was calmed LOL
he went out of the auditorium after a few minutes, downing a clown's costume and a santa hat. he did not have any make-up on. he was furious at his brother for not taking his other bag of party paraphernalia. i was surprised that he had a gift for me as well. we were like the kids at the exchange party. i gave him a toy monkey and a paper weight. he gave me candles and candle holders.
(ON THE SIDELIGHT: Wally is a friend of mine who teaches part-time at the lyceum of the philippines. he hosts kiddie and corporate parties. he's well-versed in the arts, languages, and is a graduate of broadcasting performance from UP Baguio. he worked for several advertising firms before, and has taught at UP Manila as well. he is currently taking up his masters in theatre arts at UP Diliman. he earns tons of money from his hostings and recently planned buying a condo unit and a 40" flat TV.)
i went to the mall after seeing him. he had to go back to manila by three. i was still pooped.
this is where the gyudon saga started.
THE NIGHT BEFORE
i went home after eating tons of gyudon - to grace's dismay - realizing that i had to go through it. my adviser texted me that night:
no bone, no boner hehe
u got me anxious too... i talked with
the GS pipolkanina, worid abt havng 2cancel
kng tlgang d m tlga kya
they dnt bliv n d m kya.
my adviser is probably one of the coolest professors i've ever met. we go out for yosi break after class LOL she invites us students hahah B.I. LOL
THAT DAY
clad in the same red shirt i wore the previous sunday (since i wore the shirt for less than 3 hours, sayang ang damit. mahirap maglaba.), i went on to the defense with fiona, ryah and lil john.
the kids couldn't believe how passive i was during the defense. i started off with a prayer. then presented my findungs. the knitty-gritty part came after. what happened?
as an output, i have to construct: two visual presentations - one for city planners, the other for rural residents; a comics magazine on community participation; and a brochure on why people whould participate in development initiatives. grrr. that and tons of graphs and tables i have to add.
all in all the comments were minor. syntax mainly. and a few grammar points i overlooked. i was actually touched that before the four-hour session was over, the panel almost edited the whole thesis.
i have to submit the new manu by 1st week february, get their comments, consolidate them, then submit a final hard-bound copy by 1st week march. yes, dar it, i freakin' passed my oral defense.
WHAT'S NEXT?
i need to gather all my additional materials first.
then i'd have to consolidate.
but enough about that. i have to prepare for the reunion party of the radio tomorrow, get the software i need, and plan that trip with the boys to galera after christmas. my sched ain't hectic, noh? hehe
thanks for reading. i appreciate it.
happy christmas to all, and to all, a good night/day/afternoon (as the case may be)
i decided to go through with it. bring it on.
it took me an afternoon of gorging into beef gyudon at tokyo tokyo to finally realize that i had to go through with my masters thesis final defense.
WHY NOT?
last saturday, i submitted my drafts to the graduate school office for final instructions before the original scheduled defense of december 19. to my dismay, dr. vera took one look at my thesis and then rammed me with a myriad of questions regarding her previous corrections to my manuscript.
shock overcame me; i was put under the assumption that i might have had to tear up my manu and re-do it again - this time, ti her suiting.
EA: ano po bang gusto ninyong mangyari mam?
VP: mali ito! asan na yung papel ng mga corrections ko? mali ito!
EA: mam, di ba kaya nga po may final defense pa is for the comments?
VP: you did not answer question number 2...
EA: uung interventions po? ito po... (flips pages)
VP: hindi yan yun. mali.
EA: mam, wala naman po comments yung ibang panel sa interventions...
VP: sila wala, ako meron.
EA: mam, kung ipapagawa ninyo po uli sakin yan ngayon, hindi ko na lang itutuloy. wala na po akong pera.
i left the grad school almost in tears. suddenly the girth i felt for the thesis waned, and i found myself in a writing slump once again.
when i got back to lybat, i had the longest face i've ever put on. i was ranting, jumping all around - much to the surprise and amusement of everyone. the only consolations i had for the rotten saturday? the kids winning P500 (which we will raffle off tomorrow at the reunion party) and a gas stove. yes, i won a gas stove. stop laughing.
THE DAYS BEFORE
sunday went as usual. i went to see grace at around 2.30pm at lodlod church. a friend of hers was getting married, and she was the maid of honor (much to her, and my surprise). she was stunning in the apple green and orange gown, although people couldn't see well 'cause there was no electricity LOL when the SERAPHIM CHOIR sang "kordero, maawa ka" lights went on. or at least until the end of the wedding ceremony. during the pictorials on the altar, lights went off again hehe
i wore a red shirt with vertical white stripes, a khaki pair of pants, and my new brown leather shoes. grabe, before the party was over, i realized i over-dressed for the ocassion LOL i was under the assumption that the crowd was class A-B, because the venue of the reception (which i hosted) was the posh El Grande Haciendas hotel. i was dead wrong LOL
after the party, grace and i went back home - to our respective houses LOL i returned to my writing slump, and decided to not think about the thesis. that same night, my sister and i went to the mall to buy stuff. took us three hours to buy her exchange gift. a measly bottle of strawberry-scented perfume. grr.
monday, i had to go back to school. the PC of the radio station crashed. darn it. three capacitors blew up from the motherboard, and the thing wasn't even turning on. i took the CPU to the property office for a standard check-up. they decided to have all our files backed up - all 12Gbs of it, though i lost my mp3 player software. anyway, i had to leave the kids to air using manual techniques, i.e. the use of two vcds interchangably for airing. i had to go home early to meet a friend.
***
i met wally at the CAP auditorium at around noon. i wasn't sure at first if he was really hosting the kliddy party, but when i overheard his voice, i was calmed LOL
he went out of the auditorium after a few minutes, downing a clown's costume and a santa hat. he did not have any make-up on. he was furious at his brother for not taking his other bag of party paraphernalia. i was surprised that he had a gift for me as well. we were like the kids at the exchange party. i gave him a toy monkey and a paper weight. he gave me candles and candle holders.
(ON THE SIDELIGHT: Wally is a friend of mine who teaches part-time at the lyceum of the philippines. he hosts kiddie and corporate parties. he's well-versed in the arts, languages, and is a graduate of broadcasting performance from UP Baguio. he worked for several advertising firms before, and has taught at UP Manila as well. he is currently taking up his masters in theatre arts at UP Diliman. he earns tons of money from his hostings and recently planned buying a condo unit and a 40" flat TV.)
i went to the mall after seeing him. he had to go back to manila by three. i was still pooped.
this is where the gyudon saga started.
THE NIGHT BEFORE
i went home after eating tons of gyudon - to grace's dismay - realizing that i had to go through it. my adviser texted me that night:
no bone, no boner hehe
u got me anxious too... i talked with
the GS pipolkanina, worid abt havng 2cancel
kng tlgang d m tlga kya
they dnt bliv n d m kya.
my adviser is probably one of the coolest professors i've ever met. we go out for yosi break after class LOL she invites us students hahah B.I. LOL
THAT DAY
clad in the same red shirt i wore the previous sunday (since i wore the shirt for less than 3 hours, sayang ang damit. mahirap maglaba.), i went on to the defense with fiona, ryah and lil john.
the kids couldn't believe how passive i was during the defense. i started off with a prayer. then presented my findungs. the knitty-gritty part came after. what happened?
as an output, i have to construct: two visual presentations - one for city planners, the other for rural residents; a comics magazine on community participation; and a brochure on why people whould participate in development initiatives. grrr. that and tons of graphs and tables i have to add.
all in all the comments were minor. syntax mainly. and a few grammar points i overlooked. i was actually touched that before the four-hour session was over, the panel almost edited the whole thesis.
i have to submit the new manu by 1st week february, get their comments, consolidate them, then submit a final hard-bound copy by 1st week march. yes, dar it, i freakin' passed my oral defense.
WHAT'S NEXT?
i need to gather all my additional materials first.
then i'd have to consolidate.
but enough about that. i have to prepare for the reunion party of the radio tomorrow, get the software i need, and plan that trip with the boys to galera after christmas. my sched ain't hectic, noh? hehe
thanks for reading. i appreciate it.
happy christmas to all, and to all, a good night/day/afternoon (as the case may be)
Dec 11, 2005
ei man
the language pack i cannot download. grr.
today i spent time with her, and realized how lucky i was
to have her in my life.
kitsune was right all along.
we should be glad with what/who we have;
and be more glad that there were things/people we don't have
in our lives, now.
'will try to redecorate this blog. Jesus help me.
logging out. mwah.
the language pack i cannot download. grr.
today i spent time with her, and realized how lucky i was
to have her in my life.
kitsune was right all along.
we should be glad with what/who we have;
and be more glad that there were things/people we don't have
in our lives, now.
'will try to redecorate this blog. Jesus help me.
logging out. mwah.
Nov 15, 2005
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
BECAUSE OF YOU
Kelly Clarkson
sa totoo lang, masyado akong naiinis sa kanya ngayon. hindi ko alam kung ano'ng ipinuputok ng butchi nya. dahil lang sa nagpa-print ako ng litrato namin habang humahalik ako, nagalit na sya.
ano'ng nararamdaman ko ngayon? parang kinakahiya niya ako bilang kasintahan.
ansakit. sobra.
bago umuwi, pinabalik pa nya ako sa tindahan ng kapatid nya - pinatambay, pagkatapos pinulaan ang nakapuyod kong buhok.
AG: hindi na ko hihiling ng kahit na ano ulit, ito na lang... sige na tanggalin mo na...
EA: ano bang pinagkaiba ng puyod sa hikaw sa tenga ng mga pinsan mo? di ba ganun din lang yun?
AG: (simangot) sya sige.
EA: ngayon nagagalit ka kasi ayaw kong tanggalin? so mas okey sa 'yong may hikaw ako basta wag nakapuyod?
AG: halika ako magbutas... kahit dalawa pa... eksperto ako dyan.
EA: ganyan ka naman lagi.
bago ako umuwi, dumaan ako dito. naglalabas ng sama ng loob.
an offer to teach at lyphil just came through SMS. dunno if i'll accept it, since the schedule conflicts with my schedule here.
bahala na. kakainis.
sana paggising ko bukas, wala na yung sakit na nararamdaman ko.
puta'ng ina talaga.
pasensya na sa mura.
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
BECAUSE OF YOU
Kelly Clarkson
sa totoo lang, masyado akong naiinis sa kanya ngayon. hindi ko alam kung ano'ng ipinuputok ng butchi nya. dahil lang sa nagpa-print ako ng litrato namin habang humahalik ako, nagalit na sya.
ano'ng nararamdaman ko ngayon? parang kinakahiya niya ako bilang kasintahan.
ansakit. sobra.
bago umuwi, pinabalik pa nya ako sa tindahan ng kapatid nya - pinatambay, pagkatapos pinulaan ang nakapuyod kong buhok.
AG: hindi na ko hihiling ng kahit na ano ulit, ito na lang... sige na tanggalin mo na...
EA: ano bang pinagkaiba ng puyod sa hikaw sa tenga ng mga pinsan mo? di ba ganun din lang yun?
AG: (simangot) sya sige.
EA: ngayon nagagalit ka kasi ayaw kong tanggalin? so mas okey sa 'yong may hikaw ako basta wag nakapuyod?
AG: halika ako magbutas... kahit dalawa pa... eksperto ako dyan.
EA: ganyan ka naman lagi.
bago ako umuwi, dumaan ako dito. naglalabas ng sama ng loob.
an offer to teach at lyphil just came through SMS. dunno if i'll accept it, since the schedule conflicts with my schedule here.
bahala na. kakainis.
sana paggising ko bukas, wala na yung sakit na nararamdaman ko.
puta'ng ina talaga.
pasensya na sa mura.
Nov 14, 2005
it's been three days after my thesis pre-orals, and i am B-O-R-E-D.
darn it. i don't have the energy just yet to work on the revisions that the panel has suggested (although i'm not running out on energy 'cause i've been eating a lot in the past few days... grr).
among the revisions include:
1. a reorganization of my thesis' structure based on the institution's prescribed format;
2. an inclusion of a "specific question" which the panel omitted before. i actually found it amusing to see the panel correct itself;
3. a more concise, more brief style of writing (the panel has suggested that i get a research grammarian; my adviser thought otherwise. i will just consult other graduate thesis for syntax);
4. an introduction of a development theory as springboard of the study (probably the keanesian theory of modernization); and,
5. a revision of certain statistic, and the simplification of my table presentation.
grr. i don't know when i'll get back the drive to start on it. i better get it back fast. my finals are set december 16 or 17. haay.
still here. i think.
darn it. i don't have the energy just yet to work on the revisions that the panel has suggested (although i'm not running out on energy 'cause i've been eating a lot in the past few days... grr).
among the revisions include:
1. a reorganization of my thesis' structure based on the institution's prescribed format;
2. an inclusion of a "specific question" which the panel omitted before. i actually found it amusing to see the panel correct itself;
3. a more concise, more brief style of writing (the panel has suggested that i get a research grammarian; my adviser thought otherwise. i will just consult other graduate thesis for syntax);
4. an introduction of a development theory as springboard of the study (probably the keanesian theory of modernization); and,
5. a revision of certain statistic, and the simplification of my table presentation.
grr. i don't know when i'll get back the drive to start on it. i better get it back fast. my finals are set december 16 or 17. haay.
still here. i think.
Nov 8, 2005
"if you can't dance, you can't make love;
no rhythm, no passion.
- born/romantic"
the start of the semester couldn't be any more hectic. today alone my teaching load changed three times - each with a two-hour interval. and at the end of the day, here is my schedule now:
TTH
7-8.30a COMMUNICATION SKILLS
11.30-1p WORLD LITERATURE
1-2.30p INTRO TO BROADCASTING
FS
7-8.30a PHILIPPINE LITERATURE
8.30-10a PHILIPPINE LITERATURE
1-2.30p BROADCAST JOURNALISM
2.30-4p STUDY AND THINKING SKILLS
4-5.30p WORLD LITERATURE
darn it. add to this the upcoming documentation of the Private Schools Athletic Association (PRISAA) opening this coming nov. 19-20 at de la salle lipa, and the continuing documentation on the 21st, plus my work at the control room of the new freedom hall this coming 22nd for the mutya ng prisaa competition.
haay :( as early in the semester as today, i already went to my first meeting. i wonder what's next. oh, i know pala.
i am defending my masters thesis this coming friday, and i am facing the biggest scare of my life.
why? my thesis defense panel is composed of people i know - ms. cqm, my chair, is my former mentor in journalism and in socio-political studies; prof. rachel, my adviser, is also a previous mentor for sociology and recently, for community development and organization; dr. bonot, panel member, is marineil's mother; ms. nani, panel member, was my professor in logic and is a friend; and prof. geron, panel member, was my thesis adviser for my thesis proposal.
how could i NOT be frightened?! i'm scared of making a mistake; i've learned so much from these people, i can't afford to freak out and make a mess of the defense. i am living proof of their work as facilitators of the development craft. hehe...
to relive myself of the stress, i am going to the CCP tomorrow to watch wally, my friend from lyphil, perform at the huseng batute theatre. he's part of the philippine playhouse's production of THE LEGEND OF KING MIDAS. i'm seeing the last show.
afterwards, we'll go to star city and ride the roller coaster. it's been a while LOL
i hope things work out okay. i'm really scared. and excited. i've finished the powerpoint presentation for the defense, and the thesis output that they've requested. as an icebreaker at the side, i also did a video presentation of photos i took using my camera phone.
still here. keep in touch :)
no rhythm, no passion.
- born/romantic"
the start of the semester couldn't be any more hectic. today alone my teaching load changed three times - each with a two-hour interval. and at the end of the day, here is my schedule now:
TTH
7-8.30a COMMUNICATION SKILLS
11.30-1p WORLD LITERATURE
1-2.30p INTRO TO BROADCASTING
FS
7-8.30a PHILIPPINE LITERATURE
8.30-10a PHILIPPINE LITERATURE
1-2.30p BROADCAST JOURNALISM
2.30-4p STUDY AND THINKING SKILLS
4-5.30p WORLD LITERATURE
darn it. add to this the upcoming documentation of the Private Schools Athletic Association (PRISAA) opening this coming nov. 19-20 at de la salle lipa, and the continuing documentation on the 21st, plus my work at the control room of the new freedom hall this coming 22nd for the mutya ng prisaa competition.
haay :( as early in the semester as today, i already went to my first meeting. i wonder what's next. oh, i know pala.
i am defending my masters thesis this coming friday, and i am facing the biggest scare of my life.
why? my thesis defense panel is composed of people i know - ms. cqm, my chair, is my former mentor in journalism and in socio-political studies; prof. rachel, my adviser, is also a previous mentor for sociology and recently, for community development and organization; dr. bonot, panel member, is marineil's mother; ms. nani, panel member, was my professor in logic and is a friend; and prof. geron, panel member, was my thesis adviser for my thesis proposal.
how could i NOT be frightened?! i'm scared of making a mistake; i've learned so much from these people, i can't afford to freak out and make a mess of the defense. i am living proof of their work as facilitators of the development craft. hehe...
to relive myself of the stress, i am going to the CCP tomorrow to watch wally, my friend from lyphil, perform at the huseng batute theatre. he's part of the philippine playhouse's production of THE LEGEND OF KING MIDAS. i'm seeing the last show.
afterwards, we'll go to star city and ride the roller coaster. it's been a while LOL
i hope things work out okay. i'm really scared. and excited. i've finished the powerpoint presentation for the defense, and the thesis output that they've requested. as an icebreaker at the side, i also did a video presentation of photos i took using my camera phone.
still here. keep in touch :)
Oct 22, 2005
ansaya-saya no?
after a tumultuous and riveting start to the day, the eight of us - scout, steel, mason, fiona, draco, apollo and viyola (since hunter was nowhere to be found; eiva had to go to the hospital for a check-up) - took a bus going to lipa to commit ourselves to a morning of wall climbing.
along the way, mason was obviously trying to get rid of his tension: he laughed it all out. apollo was busy finger-pointing the houses of people he knew along the way; scout's house was pink.
arriving at rocker park, the kids were welcomed by six-year-old noynoy, my climbing partner of several sessions. without a blink, vioyola stared at the kids - with ages ranging from six to around 11 - climbing the 20-foot wall without harnesses.
changed clothes. geared up. steel scaling an inclined wall without harnesses. i was startled by a big crash on the foam-covered flooring: steel jumped from the top of the incline. darn it. may sa-butiki pala ang batch na ito LOL
i took my gear, sat down with the kids and explained the task: traverse back and forth the whole four walls once, and go up and down the tallest wall thrice.
without breaking a sweat, viola was already at the top, shouting "TAY! TAY! What do I do?!" i was definitely impressed. draco was taking the excercise seriously, and even went though it with proper pose and techniques. mind you: none of them have wall-climbed before.
a few minutes after i started climbing up, hunter arrived, also mesmerized by the scale of the wall. mason, during the lunch after, was telling me that the wall did scare him at first. but when he saw the kids doing it, he went with it anyway.
scout was traversing quite manly - true to his "ginoong san jose" nature - while apollo was goofing around, traversing skillfully along the middle parts of the wall. steel, who wore a white sando and shorts, was starting to break a sweat but still trying to be gay despite the love-mishap he had earlier this day with his bestfriend-turned-girlfriend-turned-mishap.
i climbed up a few times, only to see fiona falling every now and then to the foam mats as she traversed the walls. she then tried climbing vertically with a harness. she was shaking. i laughed a bit, but was proud to see all these kids so enthusiastic about the task of the week.
after that, we had lunch. went our separate ways. found that the kids wanted to download their pictures at the new website (www.lyceumradio.net) and have them printed out. LOL mga haling! hahah
after a tumultuous and riveting start to the day, the eight of us - scout, steel, mason, fiona, draco, apollo and viyola (since hunter was nowhere to be found; eiva had to go to the hospital for a check-up) - took a bus going to lipa to commit ourselves to a morning of wall climbing.
along the way, mason was obviously trying to get rid of his tension: he laughed it all out. apollo was busy finger-pointing the houses of people he knew along the way; scout's house was pink.
arriving at rocker park, the kids were welcomed by six-year-old noynoy, my climbing partner of several sessions. without a blink, vioyola stared at the kids - with ages ranging from six to around 11 - climbing the 20-foot wall without harnesses.
changed clothes. geared up. steel scaling an inclined wall without harnesses. i was startled by a big crash on the foam-covered flooring: steel jumped from the top of the incline. darn it. may sa-butiki pala ang batch na ito LOL
i took my gear, sat down with the kids and explained the task: traverse back and forth the whole four walls once, and go up and down the tallest wall thrice.
without breaking a sweat, viola was already at the top, shouting "TAY! TAY! What do I do?!" i was definitely impressed. draco was taking the excercise seriously, and even went though it with proper pose and techniques. mind you: none of them have wall-climbed before.
a few minutes after i started climbing up, hunter arrived, also mesmerized by the scale of the wall. mason, during the lunch after, was telling me that the wall did scare him at first. but when he saw the kids doing it, he went with it anyway.
scout was traversing quite manly - true to his "ginoong san jose" nature - while apollo was goofing around, traversing skillfully along the middle parts of the wall. steel, who wore a white sando and shorts, was starting to break a sweat but still trying to be gay despite the love-mishap he had earlier this day with his bestfriend-turned-girlfriend-turned-mishap.
i climbed up a few times, only to see fiona falling every now and then to the foam mats as she traversed the walls. she then tried climbing vertically with a harness. she was shaking. i laughed a bit, but was proud to see all these kids so enthusiastic about the task of the week.
after that, we had lunch. went our separate ways. found that the kids wanted to download their pictures at the new website (www.lyceumradio.net) and have them printed out. LOL mga haling! hahah
Oct 20, 2005
laksang luha ang naibuhos
ko ngayong araw na ito
pero bawat patak, may dahilan
may pinatunguhan
today was the reuniting activity for the radio station's senior personnel under the helm of senior dj diet. one word: exhausting.
we started the day by grouping the senior djs into three groups, each with around ten members (sadly, not everyone came - memo ito): d' quickies; paul rangers (my group) and megaoke.
after that, we had a cheerleading competition; MEGAOKE won. grr. LOL. this was immediately followed by a calamansi race, and a straw-towqer building contest (which btw was achieved by buying straw from diet with our clothes. so much sharing kanina. yun nga lang nilamig ako heheh. my group won the straw-tower competition. LOL devilishly.
i was up to my neck with hyperactivity when diet announced the FOOD HUNT. we had to go around the campus in search of clues, tapos get food items along the way. the first stop, we had to make 30 hoola-hoop sways of the hips; second, stitch a torn piece of cloth; third, drink a bottle of milk in a baby bottle, complete with nipple; fourth, compute a math equation; fifth, eat bagkat; sixth, drink three glasses of tomato juice; seventh, slice up tomatoes and onions; and eighth, complete a puzzle. haay. grabe.
after that, we had a hearty lunch. as in. omelette, canned tuna, conrned beef, lotsa rice, candies.
a flower activity was also conducted after - a sharing of heartaches with and among ourselves. i cried a lot. - cry baby.
after a simple awarding ceremony, we ate the bounty of our labor - the special awards that turned out to be snacks. then, a pictorial. clean-up.
then we went home LOL
ko ngayong araw na ito
pero bawat patak, may dahilan
may pinatunguhan
today was the reuniting activity for the radio station's senior personnel under the helm of senior dj diet. one word: exhausting.
we started the day by grouping the senior djs into three groups, each with around ten members (sadly, not everyone came - memo ito): d' quickies; paul rangers (my group) and megaoke.
after that, we had a cheerleading competition; MEGAOKE won. grr. LOL. this was immediately followed by a calamansi race, and a straw-towqer building contest (which btw was achieved by buying straw from diet with our clothes. so much sharing kanina. yun nga lang nilamig ako heheh. my group won the straw-tower competition. LOL devilishly.
i was up to my neck with hyperactivity when diet announced the FOOD HUNT. we had to go around the campus in search of clues, tapos get food items along the way. the first stop, we had to make 30 hoola-hoop sways of the hips; second, stitch a torn piece of cloth; third, drink a bottle of milk in a baby bottle, complete with nipple; fourth, compute a math equation; fifth, eat bagkat; sixth, drink three glasses of tomato juice; seventh, slice up tomatoes and onions; and eighth, complete a puzzle. haay. grabe.
after that, we had a hearty lunch. as in. omelette, canned tuna, conrned beef, lotsa rice, candies.
a flower activity was also conducted after - a sharing of heartaches with and among ourselves. i cried a lot. - cry baby.
after a simple awarding ceremony, we ate the bounty of our labor - the special awards that turned out to be snacks. then, a pictorial. clean-up.
then we went home LOL
Oct 13, 2005
paalam, sintang langit -
kanlungan ng ligaya't pag-ibig.
habambuhay na tayong
hindi muling iindayog
sa saliw ng iisang awitin;
limuting walang habas
lahat ng pagsinta.
anong siphayo itong daratal
sa kinawawang pusong
tanging ikaw lamang ang hangad?
sintang langit, paalam.
paalam sa ngiti
na siyang tagapagdala ng liwanag
sa hapong kulimlim;
anong harot nitong tadhana
kung maglaro!
pagka't paglisan mo'y di na mapigilan.
Paalam, sintang langit.
sa iyong paglisan,
baon mo'y aking puso at kaluluwa;
lulan ng iyong bakol
yaong pita't luhang itinangis
sa iyong paanan;
maging ilang rosas na pilit nagpapaalala
na ako'y naghihintay
sa patyo ng simbahan
sa muli mong pagbabalik
dito sa aking pusong
minsa'y itinuring mong tanggulan.
kanlungan ng ligaya't pag-ibig.
habambuhay na tayong
hindi muling iindayog
sa saliw ng iisang awitin;
limuting walang habas
lahat ng pagsinta.
anong siphayo itong daratal
sa kinawawang pusong
tanging ikaw lamang ang hangad?
sintang langit, paalam.
paalam sa ngiti
na siyang tagapagdala ng liwanag
sa hapong kulimlim;
anong harot nitong tadhana
kung maglaro!
pagka't paglisan mo'y di na mapigilan.
Paalam, sintang langit.
sa iyong paglisan,
baon mo'y aking puso at kaluluwa;
lulan ng iyong bakol
yaong pita't luhang itinangis
sa iyong paanan;
maging ilang rosas na pilit nagpapaalala
na ako'y naghihintay
sa patyo ng simbahan
sa muli mong pagbabalik
dito sa aking pusong
minsa'y itinuring mong tanggulan.
Oct 9, 2005
the few have been chosen from the many
welcome the 2005 dj enduro-hunt survivors:
* Nova Sky - a burst of music; an explosion of sound
* Steel - creating alloys of good music
* Hunter - hitting great music right on target
* Scout - guiding you all the way through mellow music
* Mason - building foundations of awesome sound
* Draco - let him light your fire
* Fiona - entertainment with a twist of music
* Maximus - taking music to the highest level
* Viyola - great music, with a heart of gold
* Eiva - the apple of every Adam's eye
* Theo - batangas city's newest sweetheart
* Apollo - lighting your day with music and entertainment
watch out for these guys as they pave the way to the next level of music prowess!
how far can they go? who will survive? pick your bets!
catch them starting october 11
only at batangas city's best school for radio,
103.7 LYCEUM CAMPUS RADIO
astig ang tunog, ang radyo mo!
welcome the 2005 dj enduro-hunt survivors:
* Nova Sky - a burst of music; an explosion of sound
* Steel - creating alloys of good music
* Hunter - hitting great music right on target
* Scout - guiding you all the way through mellow music
* Mason - building foundations of awesome sound
* Draco - let him light your fire
* Fiona - entertainment with a twist of music
* Maximus - taking music to the highest level
* Viyola - great music, with a heart of gold
* Eiva - the apple of every Adam's eye
* Theo - batangas city's newest sweetheart
* Apollo - lighting your day with music and entertainment
watch out for these guys as they pave the way to the next level of music prowess!
how far can they go? who will survive? pick your bets!
catch them starting october 11
only at batangas city's best school for radio,
103.7 LYCEUM CAMPUS RADIO
astig ang tunog, ang radyo mo!
Oct 1, 2005
kakaibang kamatayan ang pumapaimbabaw sa akin.
ngayo'y palapit nang maubos buong mitsa ng kandilang
nagsisilbing liwanag ng pag-irog, timbulan ng pag-asa;
paanong aahon mula sa kinasasadlakan? hindi ko alam.
last thursday, i had wally come over for a lecture on tv documentaries. he arrivd at around 12 noon, and we started setting up. little did i know, i was going to get the ride of my life. the minute i handed him the mic, he went from 0 to 60 kph in three seconds - talking so witty, so fast i could barely catch up. that and he was riotously funny.
while he was busy blabbering downstairs, i, on the other hand, was busy operating the control booth of the new SHL Freedom Hall. at around 6.30p, wally came up to the control booth together with the other mass com kids.
we went home around 8pm after eating cocktails at the avr lounge.
i can speak no more. have no energy left.
four days of production have taken their toll.
i think i'm getting the flu.
that and overexhaustion.
ngayo'y palapit nang maubos buong mitsa ng kandilang
nagsisilbing liwanag ng pag-irog, timbulan ng pag-asa;
paanong aahon mula sa kinasasadlakan? hindi ko alam.
last thursday, i had wally come over for a lecture on tv documentaries. he arrivd at around 12 noon, and we started setting up. little did i know, i was going to get the ride of my life. the minute i handed him the mic, he went from 0 to 60 kph in three seconds - talking so witty, so fast i could barely catch up. that and he was riotously funny.
while he was busy blabbering downstairs, i, on the other hand, was busy operating the control booth of the new SHL Freedom Hall. at around 6.30p, wally came up to the control booth together with the other mass com kids.
we went home around 8pm after eating cocktails at the avr lounge.
i can speak no more. have no energy left.
four days of production have taken their toll.
i think i'm getting the flu.
that and overexhaustion.
Sep 25, 2005
thank you to everyone who bothered to drop by last night for my post-birthday bash: angel, keni, ryah, kobe, diet, robin, billy, marquis, gabrielle and her cousin, ansel, raven, mason, jona my cousin karen, joei who helped with the cooking, our guest entertainer renz of first peter band at siyempre sa mommy grace ko :)
thank you for making the event beyond words to describe.
thank you for making the event beyond words to describe.
Sep 21, 2005
Sep 19, 2005
it's my birthday on thursday
but i can't feel like it is.
i am up to my neck in work, led
by my thesis, followed by the production
and documentation for the upcoming foundation celebration,
the community outreach program this friday
and saturday, computation of final grades
and by the dj endurance hunt
preliminary interviews.
oh, i forgot about the pictorials this
september and october.
add a scoop of a bitchy emails, life can't be
any sweeter. ansaya, sabi ko nga.
i'm so tired, i feel like shit.
hmm, maybe 'cause i am.
hey.
but i can't feel like it is.
i am up to my neck in work, led
by my thesis, followed by the production
and documentation for the upcoming foundation celebration,
the community outreach program this friday
and saturday, computation of final grades
and by the dj endurance hunt
preliminary interviews.
oh, i forgot about the pictorials this
september and october.
add a scoop of a bitchy emails, life can't be
any sweeter. ansaya, sabi ko nga.
i'm so tired, i feel like shit.
hmm, maybe 'cause i am.
hey.
Sep 17, 2005
things are starting to look okay for the small get-together i'm planning this 24th. masaya ito. i think at least 20 people are coming. (andami, hindi ba?) but it's not the number of people who come that's important. it's the strengthening of friendships that even more valuable for me.
lemme see. here are the names of the peeps who said they'd come: nani, the licensed agriculturist; bjorn, the therapist; alvin, the power plant supervisor; sir nat (and his friend), who's the school's system administrator. hopefully coming are: juvy, the teacher from st. francis minor seminary; khalil (and a friend), a therapist from subic; jovan, the department chairman for mass com from naga; adante (and rene), my best friend; francis montesena, an accountant-friend from pinoypoets, among others.
i just hope it works out. i'm really excited.
+++
before going home, i got the budget for this upcoming 39th foundation of the school. on my way home, after i climbed for an hour, i bought: 11 vhs tapes, 13 kodak film cartridges, and 3 boxes of mineral water. all these i had to carry home, not mentioning the duffel bag i carried along with me.
grr. needless to say sobra sakit ng braso ko pagdating sa bahay. medyo hindi ko maigalaw ang mga kamay at braso ko. plus my back is a bit painful now.
haay. still here. keep in touch.
lemme see. here are the names of the peeps who said they'd come: nani, the licensed agriculturist; bjorn, the therapist; alvin, the power plant supervisor; sir nat (and his friend), who's the school's system administrator. hopefully coming are: juvy, the teacher from st. francis minor seminary; khalil (and a friend), a therapist from subic; jovan, the department chairman for mass com from naga; adante (and rene), my best friend; francis montesena, an accountant-friend from pinoypoets, among others.
i just hope it works out. i'm really excited.
+++
before going home, i got the budget for this upcoming 39th foundation of the school. on my way home, after i climbed for an hour, i bought: 11 vhs tapes, 13 kodak film cartridges, and 3 boxes of mineral water. all these i had to carry home, not mentioning the duffel bag i carried along with me.
grr. needless to say sobra sakit ng braso ko pagdating sa bahay. medyo hindi ko maigalaw ang mga kamay at braso ko. plus my back is a bit painful now.
haay. still here. keep in touch.
Sep 16, 2005
WHAT HAPPENED TODAY
* met my lola's new 21-year old housemaid who looks 40
* it's my mom's 51st birthday today.
* my dad and i had a word fight (what's new?)
* i'm accrediting the new ampitheatre equipment tomorrow morning.
* scolded a new dj hopeful
* finished half of the pictorials for my djs
* i'm freakin' stressed out.
* texted people to attend my get-together on the 24th; only five of fifty RSVPed
* decided i'm wall climbing tomorrow afternoon
hay,. still here. text aight?
* met my lola's new 21-year old housemaid who looks 40
* it's my mom's 51st birthday today.
* my dad and i had a word fight (what's new?)
* i'm accrediting the new ampitheatre equipment tomorrow morning.
* scolded a new dj hopeful
* finished half of the pictorials for my djs
* i'm freakin' stressed out.
* texted people to attend my get-together on the 24th; only five of fifty RSVPed
* decided i'm wall climbing tomorrow afternoon
hay,. still here. text aight?
Sep 11, 2005
a former student of mine posted this bulletin. here, i try to answer her questions.
1.Colour of most clothes you own:
black and red. i have some in yellow and blue as well.
2.Number of pillows you sleep with:
three. two for the head, and one for my arms. i love hugging. severe cuddling.
3.What room are you in right now:
the internet shop. the infamous stritnet.
4.What are you doing 12AM last night:
snoring like a pig. previous to that i was talking over the phone with a couple of peeps.
5.How old will u be in 10 years:
too old. need to get hitched. or else, kaong na ang lalabas. hehe
6. What do you think you'll be doing in
10 years:
hopefully still teaching. in the same college? i dunno. probably still training djs.
7. Do you have braces?
nope. never have. need my teeth examined though. i got an impacted tooth.
8. Are you paranoid?
i am the epitome of paranoid.
9.Describe your wallet?
i bought it at penshoppe. it's longer than the usual wallet. it's got around nine pockets. it's blue-black and light blue.
10. Your alarm clock?
my phone. gonna try to buy a new one this december, if and when i finish my thesis.
11. Your hair?
i just had it cut. i've returned to my former dweeb self.
12. Tooth brush?
black. and has outlived its use.
13. What colour are your eyes?
chocolate brown. chocolat d' noir.
14. enemy?
lots. some i don't even know.
15. First play/ musical/ performance?
high school. i acted as the chief prosecutor. we won 2nd place.
16. Last movie seen in cinema?
charlie and the chocolate factory. maganda sya.
17. Last person u met?
mr. george amurao - department chairman for mass communications at lyphil.
18. Last crush?
too many to mention? LOL
19. Last shoes worn?
my nikes
20. Last ice cream eaten?
haven't eaten ice cream for a while. vanilla.
21. Last thing written by hand?
the tally for my thesis' questionnaires from pinagkawitan, lipa city. a friend helped me out with the distribution and retrieval.
22. Last thing to do before wanting to die?
bunjee jump. or parasail. make love.
23. What were you doing last night?
i'd rather not tell. i try to keep my site as wholesome as possible. heheh
24. Why do you like yourself?
who said i did?
25. What don't you like about yourself?
a lot of things. but i keep it to myself most of the time.
26. What are your plans for tomorrow?
go on-board. air till 9am, and start teaching at around 11.30am.
27. What was the last thing u wore?
my undies. don't have anything on now bwahehe
28. When was the last time u got angry?
just a while ago. but i got over it after a couple of kisses.
29. What was the last song you heard?
these dreams. it's playing right now. here at the shop.
30. When was the last time u entered a club?
four months ago. been a while. i so pity myself. grr.
1.Colour of most clothes you own:
black and red. i have some in yellow and blue as well.
2.Number of pillows you sleep with:
three. two for the head, and one for my arms. i love hugging. severe cuddling.
3.What room are you in right now:
the internet shop. the infamous stritnet.
4.What are you doing 12AM last night:
snoring like a pig. previous to that i was talking over the phone with a couple of peeps.
5.How old will u be in 10 years:
too old. need to get hitched. or else, kaong na ang lalabas. hehe
6. What do you think you'll be doing in
10 years:
hopefully still teaching. in the same college? i dunno. probably still training djs.
7. Do you have braces?
nope. never have. need my teeth examined though. i got an impacted tooth.
8. Are you paranoid?
i am the epitome of paranoid.
9.Describe your wallet?
i bought it at penshoppe. it's longer than the usual wallet. it's got around nine pockets. it's blue-black and light blue.
10. Your alarm clock?
my phone. gonna try to buy a new one this december, if and when i finish my thesis.
11. Your hair?
i just had it cut. i've returned to my former dweeb self.
12. Tooth brush?
black. and has outlived its use.
13. What colour are your eyes?
chocolate brown. chocolat d' noir.
14. enemy?
lots. some i don't even know.
15. First play/ musical/ performance?
high school. i acted as the chief prosecutor. we won 2nd place.
16. Last movie seen in cinema?
charlie and the chocolate factory. maganda sya.
17. Last person u met?
mr. george amurao - department chairman for mass communications at lyphil.
18. Last crush?
too many to mention? LOL
19. Last shoes worn?
my nikes
20. Last ice cream eaten?
haven't eaten ice cream for a while. vanilla.
21. Last thing written by hand?
the tally for my thesis' questionnaires from pinagkawitan, lipa city. a friend helped me out with the distribution and retrieval.
22. Last thing to do before wanting to die?
bunjee jump. or parasail. make love.
23. What were you doing last night?
i'd rather not tell. i try to keep my site as wholesome as possible. heheh
24. Why do you like yourself?
who said i did?
25. What don't you like about yourself?
a lot of things. but i keep it to myself most of the time.
26. What are your plans for tomorrow?
go on-board. air till 9am, and start teaching at around 11.30am.
27. What was the last thing u wore?
my undies. don't have anything on now bwahehe
28. When was the last time u got angry?
just a while ago. but i got over it after a couple of kisses.
29. What was the last song you heard?
these dreams. it's playing right now. here at the shop.
30. When was the last time u entered a club?
four months ago. been a while. i so pity myself. grr.
Sep 8, 2005
a friend of mine posted this over at myspace.com. quirky
December 23rd - January 1st
Red
January 2nd - January 11th
Orange
January 12th - January 24th
Yellow
January 25th - February 3
Pink
February 4th - February 8th
Blue
February 9th - February 18th
Green
February 19th - February 28th
Brown
March1st - Match 10th
Aqua
March 11 - March 20th
Lime
March 21 st
Black
March 22 nd - March 31st
Purple
April 1st - April 10th
Navy
April 11th - April 20th
Silver
April 21st - April 30th
White
May 2nd - May 14th
Blue
May 15th - May 24th
Gold
May 25th - June 3rd
Cream
June 4th - June13th
Gray
June 14 - June 23rd
Maroon
June 24th
Gray
June 25 - July 4th
Red
July 5th - July 14th
Orange
July 15th - July 25 th
Yellow
July 26th - August 4 th
Pink
August 5th - August 13th
Blue
August 14th - August 23rd
Green
August 24 - September 2nd
Brown
September 3rd - September12th
Aqua
September 13th - September 22nd
Lime
September 23rd
Olive
September 24th - October 3rd
Purple
October 4th - October 13th
Nave
October 14th - October 23rd
Silver
October 24 - November 11th
White
November 12th - November 21st
Gold
November 22nd - December1st
Cream
December 2nd - December11th
Gray
December 12th - December 21st
Maroon
December 22nd
Teal
RED
Cute and lovable type, you are picky but always in love ...and liked to be loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people, nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you are. Likes people that are easy to talk to, and can make you feel comfortable.
CREAM
Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out-going. You choose love carefully, and don't fall in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don't let go for a long long time.
TEAL
You are mostly interested in your looks. And have high standards in picking love. You think and make a solution precisely, and hardly make stupid mistakes. You like to lead, and is easy for you to make new friends.
GREY
You are attractive, and active. You never hide your feelings, and express everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up people's day. You know what to say at the right time, and you have a good sense of humor.
GREEN
You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words... You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the right person.
GOLD
You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.
PINK
You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for romantic love like in a fairytale.
YELLOW
You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of romantic relationship.
MAROON
You are intelligent, and know what's right. You like to take things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble or not thinking about other people's feelings. But you are patient when it comes to love... Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.
ORANGE
You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals to reach, and are competitive. When it comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them for ever.
PURPLE
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for person that's trustworthy.
LIME
You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.
SILVER
You are imaginative and shy, but you like trying new things. You like to challenge yourself. You learn things easily, and like "Hard to get". Your love life is normally hard and confusing.
WHITE
You dream and have goals in your life. You get jealous easily and you don't react to things easily. You are different and sometimes thought highly by others.
OLIVE
You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow well with friends and family. You don't like violence and know what's right. You are kind and cheerful, but don't envy other people easily.
BROWN
You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to become close with you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't get something, you give up and let go easily as well.
BLUE
You have low self-esteem, and very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.
NAVY
You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything. And very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, it's hard for you to forgive them.
AQUA
Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonely, and like travelling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too easily. It's hard to find love for you, and you get lost in love easily. Sometimes you get hurt by love.
BLACK
You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you don't like changes in your life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time. Your love life is also challenging, and different.
ORANGE
You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals to reach, and are competitive. When it comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them for ever.
if people like me, why does this one guy
still hate me like shit?
Oh well. life goes on.
hey.
December 23rd - January 1st
Red
January 2nd - January 11th
Orange
January 12th - January 24th
Yellow
January 25th - February 3
Pink
February 4th - February 8th
Blue
February 9th - February 18th
Green
February 19th - February 28th
Brown
March1st - Match 10th
Aqua
March 11 - March 20th
Lime
March 21 st
Black
March 22 nd - March 31st
Purple
April 1st - April 10th
Navy
April 11th - April 20th
Silver
April 21st - April 30th
White
May 2nd - May 14th
Blue
May 15th - May 24th
Gold
May 25th - June 3rd
Cream
June 4th - June13th
Gray
June 14 - June 23rd
Maroon
June 24th
Gray
June 25 - July 4th
Red
July 5th - July 14th
Orange
July 15th - July 25 th
Yellow
July 26th - August 4 th
Pink
August 5th - August 13th
Blue
August 14th - August 23rd
Green
August 24 - September 2nd
Brown
September 3rd - September12th
Aqua
September 13th - September 22nd
Lime
September 23rd
Olive
September 24th - October 3rd
Purple
October 4th - October 13th
Nave
October 14th - October 23rd
Silver
October 24 - November 11th
White
November 12th - November 21st
Gold
November 22nd - December1st
Cream
December 2nd - December11th
Gray
December 12th - December 21st
Maroon
December 22nd
Teal
RED
Cute and lovable type, you are picky but always in love ...and liked to be loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people, nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you are. Likes people that are easy to talk to, and can make you feel comfortable.
CREAM
Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out-going. You choose love carefully, and don't fall in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don't let go for a long long time.
TEAL
You are mostly interested in your looks. And have high standards in picking love. You think and make a solution precisely, and hardly make stupid mistakes. You like to lead, and is easy for you to make new friends.
GREY
You are attractive, and active. You never hide your feelings, and express everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up people's day. You know what to say at the right time, and you have a good sense of humor.
GREEN
You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words... You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the right person.
GOLD
You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.
PINK
You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for romantic love like in a fairytale.
YELLOW
You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of romantic relationship.
MAROON
You are intelligent, and know what's right. You like to take things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble or not thinking about other people's feelings. But you are patient when it comes to love... Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.
ORANGE
You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals to reach, and are competitive. When it comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them for ever.
PURPLE
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for person that's trustworthy.
LIME
You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.
SILVER
You are imaginative and shy, but you like trying new things. You like to challenge yourself. You learn things easily, and like "Hard to get". Your love life is normally hard and confusing.
WHITE
You dream and have goals in your life. You get jealous easily and you don't react to things easily. You are different and sometimes thought highly by others.
OLIVE
You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow well with friends and family. You don't like violence and know what's right. You are kind and cheerful, but don't envy other people easily.
BROWN
You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to become close with you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't get something, you give up and let go easily as well.
BLUE
You have low self-esteem, and very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.
NAVY
You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything. And very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, it's hard for you to forgive them.
AQUA
Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonely, and like travelling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too easily. It's hard to find love for you, and you get lost in love easily. Sometimes you get hurt by love.
BLACK
You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you don't like changes in your life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time. Your love life is also challenging, and different.
ORANGE
You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals to reach, and are competitive. When it comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them for ever.
if people like me, why does this one guy
still hate me like shit?
Oh well. life goes on.
hey.
Sep 5, 2005
i was riding the bus home when these names popped into my mind - possible names for the next batch of dj enduro-hunters:
pandora, zeek, remus, fantasia, maximus, scout, mavis, samuel, fergus, theo, amara, freda, woody, zula, tantra, phillis, fiona, corkie, lawrence, erique, steph, hunter, maia, ma-len, nash, nova sky, okani, patrice, pascal, the jackal, sue, quintin, quasar,reese, romulus, trinity, tye, thalos, zinthos, uraen, efraim, viixen, viyola, xavier, zulu, draco/drake, steel, khalese, dorian, damian, black aura, zion, buster, bastian, kassy, euan, eiva, fiona, syke, greta, ganymede, guy sanders and luna.
who knows, you may become one of the owners of any of these names when you become a dj enduro-hunter hehe
pandora, zeek, remus, fantasia, maximus, scout, mavis, samuel, fergus, theo, amara, freda, woody, zula, tantra, phillis, fiona, corkie, lawrence, erique, steph, hunter, maia, ma-len, nash, nova sky, okani, patrice, pascal, the jackal, sue, quintin, quasar,reese, romulus, trinity, tye, thalos, zinthos, uraen, efraim, viixen, viyola, xavier, zulu, draco/drake, steel, khalese, dorian, damian, black aura, zion, buster, bastian, kassy, euan, eiva, fiona, syke, greta, ganymede, guy sanders and luna.
who knows, you may become one of the owners of any of these names when you become a dj enduro-hunter hehe
Sep 4, 2005
it's surreal, but nice.
- notting hill
yesterday i tried out the call reload promo of smart telecoms. i texted CALL and sent it to 258. a confirmation never came, since "the service was not available at that time". i was pretty sure the account didn't push through so i checked by remaining balance. boy, was i wrong.
P115 was deducted from my balance. true enough, i was more than ecstatic. i had myriads of people i could talk to because of the supposed "unlimited call" promo. so i called up grace, ecstatic and all. after six minutes of talking about our day's exploits, not to mention that same afternoon that we went out, my line got cut off. true to my nature, i dialled again - only to find that i could not connect anymore. fearful, i checked my balance again, only to find P3.89 remaining.
needless to say, i was devastated. I WAS UNDER THE ASSUMPTION THAT UNLIMITED CALLS MEANT UNLIMITED CALLS. i dialled *888 and called the customer care hotline. after several futile attempts to get connected, not to mention, being cut off the exact minute the prompter answers, this guy - MARCO i think - answered the line. i gave him my name and started asking him questions.
right in the middle of the questioning, he dropped my call. i have never been so pissed off with a CSR in my life. i went out, loaded up, and called again. this time, a girl - EVETTE i think - answered the call. i exlpained to her what happened, then she told me my procedure was wrong. you see, the unlimited calls were only available from 11pm-6am, which makes you wonder why they call it unlimited calls (why can't they just call it THE ALL-NIGHTER CALLS or something? talk about false advertising). tapos i wasn't supposed to directly dial the number. i had to type the number i was calling as SMS, then send it to 882. then i'd have to wait for 882 to call to get the line connected. darn it, don't these promos come with manuals?!
so i stayed up till 11pm, and started calling people, much to my dismay since the line got cut off ev'ry 10 minutes. again, why call it unlimited calls if they only last 10 minutes? grr.
so now i'm stuck with the promo for six more days. as if i could conjure up enough strength to stay up till 11pm onwards for the next week just to avail of the calls. i could try, yes, but i started outsmarting smart last night by spending a cumulative of 2 1/2 hours on the line - this is more than enough of the money i spent for the promo. top that, a-hole! grr.
keep me posted aight?
tell me if you want a call in the middle of the night.
hey.
- notting hill
yesterday i tried out the call reload promo of smart telecoms. i texted CALL and sent it to 258. a confirmation never came, since "the service was not available at that time". i was pretty sure the account didn't push through so i checked by remaining balance. boy, was i wrong.
P115 was deducted from my balance. true enough, i was more than ecstatic. i had myriads of people i could talk to because of the supposed "unlimited call" promo. so i called up grace, ecstatic and all. after six minutes of talking about our day's exploits, not to mention that same afternoon that we went out, my line got cut off. true to my nature, i dialled again - only to find that i could not connect anymore. fearful, i checked my balance again, only to find P3.89 remaining.
needless to say, i was devastated. I WAS UNDER THE ASSUMPTION THAT UNLIMITED CALLS MEANT UNLIMITED CALLS. i dialled *888 and called the customer care hotline. after several futile attempts to get connected, not to mention, being cut off the exact minute the prompter answers, this guy - MARCO i think - answered the line. i gave him my name and started asking him questions.
right in the middle of the questioning, he dropped my call. i have never been so pissed off with a CSR in my life. i went out, loaded up, and called again. this time, a girl - EVETTE i think - answered the call. i exlpained to her what happened, then she told me my procedure was wrong. you see, the unlimited calls were only available from 11pm-6am, which makes you wonder why they call it unlimited calls (why can't they just call it THE ALL-NIGHTER CALLS or something? talk about false advertising). tapos i wasn't supposed to directly dial the number. i had to type the number i was calling as SMS, then send it to 882. then i'd have to wait for 882 to call to get the line connected. darn it, don't these promos come with manuals?!
so i stayed up till 11pm, and started calling people, much to my dismay since the line got cut off ev'ry 10 minutes. again, why call it unlimited calls if they only last 10 minutes? grr.
so now i'm stuck with the promo for six more days. as if i could conjure up enough strength to stay up till 11pm onwards for the next week just to avail of the calls. i could try, yes, but i started outsmarting smart last night by spending a cumulative of 2 1/2 hours on the line - this is more than enough of the money i spent for the promo. top that, a-hole! grr.
keep me posted aight?
tell me if you want a call in the middle of the night.
hey.
Aug 31, 2005
what's worse that being raped by jack the ripper?
getting fingered by captain hook.
there's nothing really much to write about. this week is nothing but a lot of work, pressure and thinking.
yesterday was the first and final day for the athletics division of the school's intramurals. needless to say, the players from the maritime academy and the criminology academy topped and won most of the events. i got just one medal out of the whole day's events - a silver for shotput-women's division.
throwing to boot the amount of questionnaires i need to get answered by the end of the week so i could start writing chapter iv of my thesis, there's a film making seminar i need to organize for the juniors, a preparation for the foundation week two weeks from now, a play i need to organize and produce, and a possible trip to baguio.
it was the opening of the intramurals today (yup they finished all track and field events first before they officially opened the games). a cheer dance competition and the search for the miss intrams were the highlights. winners of the cheer dance competition are: maritime, 1st; business ad, 2nd; nursing, 3rd. business ad bagged the miss intrams. my college's bet was 2nd runner-up - she happens to be one of my DJs as well.
i went to the local mall, buying four bars of chocolate - although i have previously eaten two more bars early today - and a liter of hand lotion; i get calloused easily now after i've started wall climbing. got to a point my palms bled (stigmata?)
speaking of wall climbing, i feel like i've plateaued in performance. it's already my fifth climb, but i still haven't tried bouldering yet. maybe this coming saturday. there was this new guy who came in yesterday. he looked like he didn't know anything - the way i was five climbs ago. kaya lang, after traversing a couple of times at the wall, the guy tried the lower inclines and the higher boulders. grr. made me think if i was in the right sport. but you know? i've never been as addicted to wall climbing as to any other sort before. so maybe, i'll hang on to it for a while.
by the way, i got into a really bad word fight with my dad. as in realy bad. i'm leaving the house. hopefully within the month. God help me.
hey. text me often.
getting fingered by captain hook.
there's nothing really much to write about. this week is nothing but a lot of work, pressure and thinking.
yesterday was the first and final day for the athletics division of the school's intramurals. needless to say, the players from the maritime academy and the criminology academy topped and won most of the events. i got just one medal out of the whole day's events - a silver for shotput-women's division.
throwing to boot the amount of questionnaires i need to get answered by the end of the week so i could start writing chapter iv of my thesis, there's a film making seminar i need to organize for the juniors, a preparation for the foundation week two weeks from now, a play i need to organize and produce, and a possible trip to baguio.
it was the opening of the intramurals today (yup they finished all track and field events first before they officially opened the games). a cheer dance competition and the search for the miss intrams were the highlights. winners of the cheer dance competition are: maritime, 1st; business ad, 2nd; nursing, 3rd. business ad bagged the miss intrams. my college's bet was 2nd runner-up - she happens to be one of my DJs as well.
i went to the local mall, buying four bars of chocolate - although i have previously eaten two more bars early today - and a liter of hand lotion; i get calloused easily now after i've started wall climbing. got to a point my palms bled (stigmata?)
speaking of wall climbing, i feel like i've plateaued in performance. it's already my fifth climb, but i still haven't tried bouldering yet. maybe this coming saturday. there was this new guy who came in yesterday. he looked like he didn't know anything - the way i was five climbs ago. kaya lang, after traversing a couple of times at the wall, the guy tried the lower inclines and the higher boulders. grr. made me think if i was in the right sport. but you know? i've never been as addicted to wall climbing as to any other sort before. so maybe, i'll hang on to it for a while.
by the way, i got into a really bad word fight with my dad. as in realy bad. i'm leaving the house. hopefully within the month. God help me.
hey. text me often.
Aug 22, 2005
friends sent this to me. makes you think of how efficient you really are.
ANO ANG DAPAT GAWIN KUNG TINATAMAD KANG MAGTRABAHO?
1. Huwag aabsent.
2. Huwag male-late.
3. Pagkaupo mo sa iyong lamesa, buksan isa-isa ang drawer at
magkalkal. Kunwari ay may hinahanap.
4. Pagkatapos mong magkalkal, tumayo ka at tunguhin ang mga
filing cabinet. Maghanap ka ng ipis. Kung wala kang mahanap, tingnan mo
ang iyong incoming & outgoing tray. Kalkalin at maghanap ng mga natira sa
iyong mga kinutkot kahapon. Huwag kakainin muli. Labag sa kagandahang asal.
Kung naglalaway ka sa mga iyon ay kunin mo ang nagamit mong tissue
paper na nailagay mo sa iyong front drawer at ipunas sa laway mo.
Pagkatapos ay ilagay muli sa drawer. Maaari mo pang magamit iyon bukas. Malaking katipiran sa iyo.
5. Kung biglang dumating ang iyong boss, hawakan kaagad ang
telepono at magsalita. Kunwari ay tinatanong ka ng iyong kausap tungkol sa mga dokumento. Sumagot ka ng "Oh! I am sorry but I will bring that to your office immediately." Kumuha kaagad ng kahit anong folder at magpaalam ng maayos at buong giliw sa iyong boss. Lumabas ng nagmamadali.
6. Pumunta ka sa CR. Magsuklay. Tingnan mabuti ang sarili. Mag-retouch kung babae. Tingnan kung baligtad ang underwear na naisuot at kung lalaki,maghilamos at basain ng konti ang buhok. Magtiris ng mga taghiyawat. Magtagal ng mga limang minuto.
7. Pagkabalik mo sa iyong opisina, buksan ang computer. Hintaying matapos ang Auto Scan. Marami ring minuto ang magugugol dito. Magbukas ng isang file... Isa pa... at isa pa uli...!!! Pumunta sa ccmail, tingnan ang inbox kung may hindi pa nababasa. Magbasa. Kunwari ay bagong pasok ka lamang sa Grade One.
8. Pagkatapos ay kunin ang mga dapat gawing report. Titigang mabuti. Pag-aralan ang klase ng papel na ginamit. Bilangin kung ilang words ang nagamit.
9. Kung may tumawag sa telepono, kaagad sagutin. Huwag mong hayaang ibaba kaagad ng kausap. Kumustahin. Tanungin tungkol sa mga National Issues katulad ng tungkol sa mga jokes kay Gloria o ng pagtaas ng langis. Kumustahin din ang latest style ng kanyang damit pati na kung saan nagpapa-manicure at pedicure. Huwag lalagpas ng isang oras ang pakikipag-usap. Magagalit ang iyong boss.
10. Kung may report na tatapusin, tapusin ng eksakto sa deadline hour. Kung may ita-type, magtype ng 10 wpm.
11. Tunguhin ang mga file na inipon sa loob ng ilang araw. Ayusin isa-isa habang ini-imagine ang sarili na sumasahod ng 15,000 pesos isang buwan. Huwag tatapusin. Magtira ng para sa ilang araw na gawain.
12. Palaging magtungo sa CR. Kunwari ay may LBM. Palagi ring bumisita sa ibang department, makipagchikahan.
13. Huwag mong titingnan ang iyong relo habang ginagawa mo ang lahat ng nasa itaas. Kapag ginawa mo iyon ay lalo kang maiinip. Hayaang mag-enjoy ang sarili sa iyong katamaran. Magugulat ka na lamang na "time" na pala para umuwi.
14. Ayusin ang lamesa na para bang napakarami ng iyong trinabaho. At bago umuwi, dumaan ng CR. Tingnan at hipuin ang mukha kung gaano kakapal. Huwag pansinin ang mga kasamahan na mula umaga ay tingin ng tingin sa iyo. Hindi naman sila ang nagpapasuweldo sa 'yo.
ANO ANG DAPAT GAWIN KUNG TINATAMAD KANG MAGTRABAHO?
1. Huwag aabsent.
2. Huwag male-late.
3. Pagkaupo mo sa iyong lamesa, buksan isa-isa ang drawer at
magkalkal. Kunwari ay may hinahanap.
4. Pagkatapos mong magkalkal, tumayo ka at tunguhin ang mga
filing cabinet. Maghanap ka ng ipis. Kung wala kang mahanap, tingnan mo
ang iyong incoming & outgoing tray. Kalkalin at maghanap ng mga natira sa
iyong mga kinutkot kahapon. Huwag kakainin muli. Labag sa kagandahang asal.
Kung naglalaway ka sa mga iyon ay kunin mo ang nagamit mong tissue
paper na nailagay mo sa iyong front drawer at ipunas sa laway mo.
Pagkatapos ay ilagay muli sa drawer. Maaari mo pang magamit iyon bukas. Malaking katipiran sa iyo.
5. Kung biglang dumating ang iyong boss, hawakan kaagad ang
telepono at magsalita. Kunwari ay tinatanong ka ng iyong kausap tungkol sa mga dokumento. Sumagot ka ng "Oh! I am sorry but I will bring that to your office immediately." Kumuha kaagad ng kahit anong folder at magpaalam ng maayos at buong giliw sa iyong boss. Lumabas ng nagmamadali.
6. Pumunta ka sa CR. Magsuklay. Tingnan mabuti ang sarili. Mag-retouch kung babae. Tingnan kung baligtad ang underwear na naisuot at kung lalaki,maghilamos at basain ng konti ang buhok. Magtiris ng mga taghiyawat. Magtagal ng mga limang minuto.
7. Pagkabalik mo sa iyong opisina, buksan ang computer. Hintaying matapos ang Auto Scan. Marami ring minuto ang magugugol dito. Magbukas ng isang file... Isa pa... at isa pa uli...!!! Pumunta sa ccmail, tingnan ang inbox kung may hindi pa nababasa. Magbasa. Kunwari ay bagong pasok ka lamang sa Grade One.
8. Pagkatapos ay kunin ang mga dapat gawing report. Titigang mabuti. Pag-aralan ang klase ng papel na ginamit. Bilangin kung ilang words ang nagamit.
9. Kung may tumawag sa telepono, kaagad sagutin. Huwag mong hayaang ibaba kaagad ng kausap. Kumustahin. Tanungin tungkol sa mga National Issues katulad ng tungkol sa mga jokes kay Gloria o ng pagtaas ng langis. Kumustahin din ang latest style ng kanyang damit pati na kung saan nagpapa-manicure at pedicure. Huwag lalagpas ng isang oras ang pakikipag-usap. Magagalit ang iyong boss.
10. Kung may report na tatapusin, tapusin ng eksakto sa deadline hour. Kung may ita-type, magtype ng 10 wpm.
11. Tunguhin ang mga file na inipon sa loob ng ilang araw. Ayusin isa-isa habang ini-imagine ang sarili na sumasahod ng 15,000 pesos isang buwan. Huwag tatapusin. Magtira ng para sa ilang araw na gawain.
12. Palaging magtungo sa CR. Kunwari ay may LBM. Palagi ring bumisita sa ibang department, makipagchikahan.
13. Huwag mong titingnan ang iyong relo habang ginagawa mo ang lahat ng nasa itaas. Kapag ginawa mo iyon ay lalo kang maiinip. Hayaang mag-enjoy ang sarili sa iyong katamaran. Magugulat ka na lamang na "time" na pala para umuwi.
14. Ayusin ang lamesa na para bang napakarami ng iyong trinabaho. At bago umuwi, dumaan ng CR. Tingnan at hipuin ang mukha kung gaano kakapal. Huwag pansinin ang mga kasamahan na mula umaga ay tingin ng tingin sa iyo. Hindi naman sila ang nagpapasuweldo sa 'yo.
Aug 20, 2005
my hands are all calloused and my toes are sore, but i don't give a s***. i actually did it. i went wall climbing today.
after sleeping for a little over three hours since this dawn after a tumultuous but pleasurable gimik with the tropa last night at buddies over here in lipa, i collected what little strength i had, taught, facilitated an exhibit proposal defense, and decided to go wall climbing.
i sucked at first, but i learned the ropes - had to - really quick. footwork followed. i can't blog that much right now 'cause i'm really pooped, but lemme tell you, after an hour of traversing the walls (i haven't tried the bouldering yet), i was convinced i'd do better climbing. and i did. went up three or four times.
wow. i'm going back there next week. this is going to be my new saturday thing. now i have something to say when people ask what sport i do - i wall climb hehe
after sleeping for a little over three hours since this dawn after a tumultuous but pleasurable gimik with the tropa last night at buddies over here in lipa, i collected what little strength i had, taught, facilitated an exhibit proposal defense, and decided to go wall climbing.
i sucked at first, but i learned the ropes - had to - really quick. footwork followed. i can't blog that much right now 'cause i'm really pooped, but lemme tell you, after an hour of traversing the walls (i haven't tried the bouldering yet), i was convinced i'd do better climbing. and i did. went up three or four times.
wow. i'm going back there next week. this is going to be my new saturday thing. now i have something to say when people ask what sport i do - i wall climb hehe
Aug 16, 2005
tonight was supposed to be the first time i'd be deleting someone from my e-community list; and i was not proud of it. but much to my surprise, he saved me the effort and did it for me.
here is a list of things that i have to do for the next few months:
AUGUST:
i will head the documentation for the mission statement awareness week. this year, the theme is Lyceans: Stewards of Mother Earth. on top of that, i have to train the CAS choir for the school march competition, and train a handful of athletes for the upcoming intramurals.
these i will be doing while distributing my questionnaires for my graduate thesis. last week, i led a dozen students to an exposure trip to the Lyceum of the Philippines for their mass comm's celebration of MEDIA WEEK.
i also have a set of exhibits that would commence on the last week of this month. companies that have nodded are verde island resort inc. and abs-cbn batangas.
on the other hand, the mass comm seniors are finishing the proposal defenses for their community project.
SEPTEMBER:
on top of my least, surprisingly, is not my thesis defense. rather, the foundation week celebration is top priority. four days of grueling production from masses to family night to tuklas tinig, and culminating with the search for the new Miss Lyceum.
all this i need to do while hopefully finishing the validation and chapters 4&5 of my thesis, and preparing for my pre-orals.
i also have a community project for the mass comm seniors set somewhere hopefully within reach of a mobile network.
OCTOBER:
finals. that and two one-act plays that my students are producing. hopefully, i've graduated from my masterate by the end of the month. or else.
i'm not a very busy person. hah.
darn it.
here is a list of things that i have to do for the next few months:
AUGUST:
i will head the documentation for the mission statement awareness week. this year, the theme is Lyceans: Stewards of Mother Earth. on top of that, i have to train the CAS choir for the school march competition, and train a handful of athletes for the upcoming intramurals.
these i will be doing while distributing my questionnaires for my graduate thesis. last week, i led a dozen students to an exposure trip to the Lyceum of the Philippines for their mass comm's celebration of MEDIA WEEK.
i also have a set of exhibits that would commence on the last week of this month. companies that have nodded are verde island resort inc. and abs-cbn batangas.
on the other hand, the mass comm seniors are finishing the proposal defenses for their community project.
SEPTEMBER:
on top of my least, surprisingly, is not my thesis defense. rather, the foundation week celebration is top priority. four days of grueling production from masses to family night to tuklas tinig, and culminating with the search for the new Miss Lyceum.
all this i need to do while hopefully finishing the validation and chapters 4&5 of my thesis, and preparing for my pre-orals.
i also have a community project for the mass comm seniors set somewhere hopefully within reach of a mobile network.
OCTOBER:
finals. that and two one-act plays that my students are producing. hopefully, i've graduated from my masterate by the end of the month. or else.
i'm not a very busy person. hah.
darn it.
Aug 8, 2005
needless to say, the only reason i blogged tonight is because i got really mad. my dad was festering me again for money, and used my little sister to do it. after giving them a third of my salary for this 15th (the remaining third i'm using as lunch money; the other's in the bank as savings), they have yet found a reason to squeeze money out of me: my sister's monthly tuition.
it's not that i don't want to help, but knowing that i only have a mere P400 left in my pocket, they had the nerve to ask for more. what has my dad been doing all day? lounging at the cockpits, i've heard.
kakainis po. grr. imagine my embarassment when i asked grace to lend me money. darn it.
worst of all, after i gave the money, no one bothered to say thank you. pakshet po.
it's not that i don't want to help, but knowing that i only have a mere P400 left in my pocket, they had the nerve to ask for more. what has my dad been doing all day? lounging at the cockpits, i've heard.
kakainis po. grr. imagine my embarassment when i asked grace to lend me money. darn it.
worst of all, after i gave the money, no one bothered to say thank you. pakshet po.
Jul 30, 2005
Dadalhin kita sa aming bahay,
di tayo magaaway,
aalis tayo sa tunay na mundo.
JOPAY
Mayonnaise
i just had to get down here at the computer shop and blog! putcha, it's actually over! after months of painstaking preparation, BANDISTA is finally over! and man, am i pooped or what.
last night was the finals night of BANDISTA: Ikal'wang Yugto 2005. how was it? imagine a 3000+ crowd jampacked in a school gym, queues running from the main gate to the main gym entrance, ten rockin' bands performing BROKEN SONNET by Hale and a song of their choice, thirty radio personnel busy doing their technical chores for the night, another ten production assistants helping out with registration and backstage work, seven school guards and six policemen with M16s all stirred into a band frenzy.
this was BANDISTA last night.
our supreme bandista is MAMENCHUZ, a band from BSU that sang Jopay and the contest piece. they were the second band to perform. they were the band that picked up the audience. in the immortal words of my kids, "hala, nag-concert na! hehehe"
masaya po kagabi. masaya na nakakapagod, na nakakainis. the production wasn't that perfect, i know - there were several gaps, a few spill-ups in technicals, sobrang daming pasaway sa gate, and a lot of other stuff, but it was da bomb!
i guess it helped that i love band music. i hadn't eaten anything since lunchtime till around midnight last night, hadn't slept well because i was worrying, but we pulled it off.
BANDISTA Ikal'wang Yugto 2005: THE CHRONOLOGY
April 2005: the initial bid for a party concert in June was shelved by the management committee
May 2005: the bandista concept was drafted in lieu of the party concert theme. apprehension rose since it seemed too early for a battle of bands. a letter was drafted and was delivered to the CAS dean, the VPAA and the School President.
June 2005: middle of the month, the letter was still under scrutiny. the special projects officer and the sudit department were questioning the financial statement of the first bandista. a feasibility study was requested by the audit department on the validity of staging such an event. all papers were settled. last week of june, after much anticipation, the special projects officer announces that the battle of bands had been approved, alongside the selling of the P5 ticket. djs react to the ticket price - too outrageously cheap.
first week, july 2005: thirty five bands get audition forms. marketing strategies for bandista were conceptualized. schools are informed of the battle. the eliminations are set july 16. lsc offers sponsorship.
second week, july 2005: eliminations preparation. only 15 of the 30 confirmed applications arrive on time for the eliminations. this is aired live over the station, after much ado about technicals.
third week, july 2005: sponsorships were sought and tickets were cut. almost 4000+ tickets were indiviually cut by hand (darn it). tickets were distributed by bundles of twenty pieces to the djs. lsc backs out of sponsorship. the radio is left with only 1500+ money at hand. tickets are sold during the trinity photo exhibit.
29 july 2005:
8am, tickets were sold to students at the JPL canopy. several students asked if many were going to watch. i was starting to become anxious. putcha, bakit parang sobrang dami ng manonood?!
1pm, stage was set up. sound system arrives.
3.30pm, technical check. sounds and lights were finally tested. video cam and lcd projector are set up. crowd control lines put up.
4.20pm, bands started to arrive. sound check per band was made.
6.15pm, audiences were let in. gymnasium barely occupied.
6.30pm, all bands are completed. opening act unavailable.
6.45pm, opening act arrives, and rushes to the stage. bandista starts.
9.45pm, some dolt causes a commotion in the gym. he punches some other guy in the face 'cause of a fight over a girl. school guards arrive.
10pm, policemen from camp malvar arrive with m16s at hand (wow).
12.45am, bandista ends. mamenchuz reigns supreme.
i'm having second thoughts about having a third BANDISTA.
we'll see. i'll try to post pictures here soon.
hey.
di tayo magaaway,
aalis tayo sa tunay na mundo.
JOPAY
Mayonnaise
i just had to get down here at the computer shop and blog! putcha, it's actually over! after months of painstaking preparation, BANDISTA is finally over! and man, am i pooped or what.
last night was the finals night of BANDISTA: Ikal'wang Yugto 2005. how was it? imagine a 3000+ crowd jampacked in a school gym, queues running from the main gate to the main gym entrance, ten rockin' bands performing BROKEN SONNET by Hale and a song of their choice, thirty radio personnel busy doing their technical chores for the night, another ten production assistants helping out with registration and backstage work, seven school guards and six policemen with M16s all stirred into a band frenzy.
this was BANDISTA last night.
our supreme bandista is MAMENCHUZ, a band from BSU that sang Jopay and the contest piece. they were the second band to perform. they were the band that picked up the audience. in the immortal words of my kids, "hala, nag-concert na! hehehe"
masaya po kagabi. masaya na nakakapagod, na nakakainis. the production wasn't that perfect, i know - there were several gaps, a few spill-ups in technicals, sobrang daming pasaway sa gate, and a lot of other stuff, but it was da bomb!
i guess it helped that i love band music. i hadn't eaten anything since lunchtime till around midnight last night, hadn't slept well because i was worrying, but we pulled it off.
BANDISTA Ikal'wang Yugto 2005: THE CHRONOLOGY
April 2005: the initial bid for a party concert in June was shelved by the management committee
May 2005: the bandista concept was drafted in lieu of the party concert theme. apprehension rose since it seemed too early for a battle of bands. a letter was drafted and was delivered to the CAS dean, the VPAA and the School President.
June 2005: middle of the month, the letter was still under scrutiny. the special projects officer and the sudit department were questioning the financial statement of the first bandista. a feasibility study was requested by the audit department on the validity of staging such an event. all papers were settled. last week of june, after much anticipation, the special projects officer announces that the battle of bands had been approved, alongside the selling of the P5 ticket. djs react to the ticket price - too outrageously cheap.
first week, july 2005: thirty five bands get audition forms. marketing strategies for bandista were conceptualized. schools are informed of the battle. the eliminations are set july 16. lsc offers sponsorship.
second week, july 2005: eliminations preparation. only 15 of the 30 confirmed applications arrive on time for the eliminations. this is aired live over the station, after much ado about technicals.
third week, july 2005: sponsorships were sought and tickets were cut. almost 4000+ tickets were indiviually cut by hand (darn it). tickets were distributed by bundles of twenty pieces to the djs. lsc backs out of sponsorship. the radio is left with only 1500+ money at hand. tickets are sold during the trinity photo exhibit.
29 july 2005:
8am, tickets were sold to students at the JPL canopy. several students asked if many were going to watch. i was starting to become anxious. putcha, bakit parang sobrang dami ng manonood?!
1pm, stage was set up. sound system arrives.
3.30pm, technical check. sounds and lights were finally tested. video cam and lcd projector are set up. crowd control lines put up.
4.20pm, bands started to arrive. sound check per band was made.
6.15pm, audiences were let in. gymnasium barely occupied.
6.30pm, all bands are completed. opening act unavailable.
6.45pm, opening act arrives, and rushes to the stage. bandista starts.
9.45pm, some dolt causes a commotion in the gym. he punches some other guy in the face 'cause of a fight over a girl. school guards arrive.
10pm, policemen from camp malvar arrive with m16s at hand (wow).
12.45am, bandista ends. mamenchuz reigns supreme.
i'm having second thoughts about having a third BANDISTA.
we'll see. i'll try to post pictures here soon.
hey.
Jul 19, 2005
the bandista eliminations turned out okay. i got ten bands competing for the title. but that ain't my problem. THIS is my problem: a major sponsor - the student government - backed out from its original deal with us to sponsor the event. pakshet. now i don't know where the heck i am going to get an additional 9000 to fill the deficit.
i found myself
wearing it
again;
darn it. after a year
of not having you in my midst
i took it out of the box
and wore it again;
without hesitation, i took your memories
back into my life -
but not the feeling that
i used to have for you.
i admit
before i thought i was still
in love with you;
i guess
i was. but you moved on;
i had to since you left me no choice.
someone from one of my online communities wrote the poem below. 'hope he doesn't mind i posted it here.
luma na kung sasabihin ko ulit,
life is a constant change.
wala kang panlaban sa pag-ikot ng earth
kahit pigilan mo, wala kang magagawa.
masarap balikan ang lahat,
magkasama kayo, sobrang saya.
hindi mo maiisip isipin ang bukas,
ang importante ay ang ngayon.
wala sa inyo ang padating na oras,
minuto na maaari kayong maghiwalay.
ganon talaga ang buhay,
hindi lahat ng laban ay patas.
kung susugod ka,
tiyak may aatras.
pero ano ang magagawa mo,
kapag nasaktan ka sa pagsugod?
babalik muli sa dating mundo,
nag-iisa, malungkot, umiiyak.
habang hindi pa natatapos ang panahon,
baunin mo na ang lahat....
sabi nga, "'wag mong bilangin ang oras, bilangin mo ang masasayang alaala."
bago matapos ang bawat pangungusap kong ito,
ipikit mo ang iyong mata.
isipin mo lahat ng pinagsamahan natin.
bago ko isulat ang huling tuldok...
here's one of mine.
you are my touch of morning dew,
my honesty at dawn.
you sprinkle me endlessly
with jaunt and revelry;
you blind me with relief.
my mornings are forever
in awe.
thank you for being so beautiful.
hopfully, things'll be better. mwah.
hey.
Jul 15, 2005
you...
are my eye-candy
my strong-willed friend
my gatepass to L.E.G.
you...
are my new reason to smile
a spritely nymph
who drinks lotsa camomile
you...
are a new smell
that i'd fantasize nightly
until we meet anew
and cuddle again.
i went to manila yesterday to meet a friend and join him watch a few films who were competing in this year's indies stint CINEMALAYA. i saw two films, and got reviews for two more.
the d/w films were KULTADO and PAGDADALAGA NI MAXIMO OLIVARES.
the former was about a guy who sold stale meat at a local market, and eventually died 'cause of that - that and he was chopped to pieces by a palengke boy he coerced a few days before he got food poisoned. i got squimish watching the film portray pork and its by-products as they were cooked and prepared, eaten and discarded as damog (pig food).
the latter was about a twelve year old boy who was raised and accepted as gay by his macho family, all of which were mobile phone snatchers. i almost rolled on the floor watching the film. some parts were nostalgic even LOL
we finished watching at around 1am, and got to my friend's place at around 2am. we were pooped. after taking a bath (not together aight? LOL) we hit the hay and dozed off at around 3am. i had to wake up at 5.30am, took a quick shower and left for buendia. but he had to take me to the kanto where i could get a ride.
while in the bus, i couldn't get any more shut-eye. was thinking about a lot of things: bandista, the trinity exhibit, the mass comm exposure trip, my thesis, my relationship, my new acquaintances, my follies. how could i get any rest?
tomorrow's the elimination for bandista 2005. i am more than frantic about it.
i hope things turn out well.
are my eye-candy
my strong-willed friend
my gatepass to L.E.G.
you...
are my new reason to smile
a spritely nymph
who drinks lotsa camomile
you...
are a new smell
that i'd fantasize nightly
until we meet anew
and cuddle again.
i went to manila yesterday to meet a friend and join him watch a few films who were competing in this year's indies stint CINEMALAYA. i saw two films, and got reviews for two more.
the d/w films were KULTADO and PAGDADALAGA NI MAXIMO OLIVARES.
the former was about a guy who sold stale meat at a local market, and eventually died 'cause of that - that and he was chopped to pieces by a palengke boy he coerced a few days before he got food poisoned. i got squimish watching the film portray pork and its by-products as they were cooked and prepared, eaten and discarded as damog (pig food).
the latter was about a twelve year old boy who was raised and accepted as gay by his macho family, all of which were mobile phone snatchers. i almost rolled on the floor watching the film. some parts were nostalgic even LOL
we finished watching at around 1am, and got to my friend's place at around 2am. we were pooped. after taking a bath (not together aight? LOL) we hit the hay and dozed off at around 3am. i had to wake up at 5.30am, took a quick shower and left for buendia. but he had to take me to the kanto where i could get a ride.
while in the bus, i couldn't get any more shut-eye. was thinking about a lot of things: bandista, the trinity exhibit, the mass comm exposure trip, my thesis, my relationship, my new acquaintances, my follies. how could i get any rest?
tomorrow's the elimination for bandista 2005. i am more than frantic about it.
i hope things turn out well.
Jun 22, 2005
the issue about the gloria-gate case is getting way out of hand.
the idea that people are going to the streets this coming friday (yet again) is turning to be a wild goose chase.
pahkshet, ano ba talaga ang gusto ng Pinoy?
are we pro-anarchy? ask me if i believe if the person in the tapes is gloria, and i'd say who cares?! if gloria admits, we get an uprise. if gloria denies, the opposition claims a whitewash. so what choices are we left with?
and don't give me the snap elections crap. from whose hand would we get the money to spend fo snap elections, seeing we have less than sufficient for social needs?
and even if we do conjure up enough money for a snap elections, what next? who sits as president? would s/he be any better? how sure are we? and please, don't even start with the military government thing.
today my blog is more enraged by the all the shenanigans that both sides are doing. who is left dumbfounded in the middle? the common Pinoy. poor us, caught in ornate webs of deceit, treachery and trapo.
tanong lang. kung talagang makabayan ang mga itong nagsasabing sila'y makabayan at makapagdadala ng pagbabago sa bansa, silang mga galit sa imperyalismo at supresyong dulot daw ng maka-kanluraning pag-iisip, ano'ng yosi mo? nasubukan mo na ba ang KABABAYAN?
the idea that people are going to the streets this coming friday (yet again) is turning to be a wild goose chase.
pahkshet, ano ba talaga ang gusto ng Pinoy?
are we pro-anarchy? ask me if i believe if the person in the tapes is gloria, and i'd say who cares?! if gloria admits, we get an uprise. if gloria denies, the opposition claims a whitewash. so what choices are we left with?
and don't give me the snap elections crap. from whose hand would we get the money to spend fo snap elections, seeing we have less than sufficient for social needs?
and even if we do conjure up enough money for a snap elections, what next? who sits as president? would s/he be any better? how sure are we? and please, don't even start with the military government thing.
today my blog is more enraged by the all the shenanigans that both sides are doing. who is left dumbfounded in the middle? the common Pinoy. poor us, caught in ornate webs of deceit, treachery and trapo.
tanong lang. kung talagang makabayan ang mga itong nagsasabing sila'y makabayan at makapagdadala ng pagbabago sa bansa, silang mga galit sa imperyalismo at supresyong dulot daw ng maka-kanluraning pag-iisip, ano'ng yosi mo? nasubukan mo na ba ang KABABAYAN?
Jun 21, 2005
i guess i had it coming.
when i opened your blog
i found that you've removed me
from you links. thanks.
i guess.
you've released yourself of the horror
that taunted you;
and you have made me long even more
for that day when we'd sit down
by your house's front porch
and talk.
although i doubt that
that day would come,
since you've erased my name
from your links.
i was a bit taken aback
i admit.
i did not expect that
you'd have enough disgust
to take me out of the list.
i think the least
that you could have done was
say hello before you did.
but i had it coming
and this was your style;
taking people to the ground -
face down - and letting go
just like that.
i had it coming. darn it.
shocked? not really.
i figured i had it coming.
you still hate me, i know.
but i don't you.
let's face it: i still feel how
your touch felt on my sun-drenched skin;
how your kiss made me all tingly.
how we fell asleep in each's arms
and woke up kissing.
who am i kidding?
you've forgotten me.
'cause i had it coming.
and it came from you.
Jun 13, 2005
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
YOU AND ME
lifehouse
i'm sitting inside s***net right now, and this girl comes out from nowhere and starts blabbering about boys that she has the hots for. pardon the rudeness, but can you be any more desperate? LOL
i'm such a bad ass bitch.
***
classes start tomorrow. dammit. i don't know if i'm up for it. i hope so. i haven't really prepared myself for it. it's raining outside. darn it. how am i gonna go to lord's place. it's fiesta; i intend to pig out.
***
lotsa things happened this summer. met new people. remisnisced the others i met last time it was sunny this side of the planet. i dunno of things turned out great for me or not. i'm just riding the waves, i guess.
***
still pretty messed up. but i hope i get over it.
soon, i hope.
wrote these a few weeks ago.
TAKIPSILIM
sa kalaliman ng gabing naparam
na ang anumang pag-asang sumibol,
ipikit mo ang iyong mga mata't hagkan
ang liwanag ng iyong puso.
pagka't iya'y liwanag din
ng sa akin.
alisin mo ang agam-agam
sa iyong puso; pakinggan mo
ang tunay nitong tibok.
ano'ng tunay na nais mo?
kung saan liligaya ito'ng pusong puno
ng pita't hilahil, duon ituon
ang iyong mga titig. duon
iyong langit. huwag mong itampal
lagian sa iyong sarili -
dusa't luha; bagkus, iwasang manisi.
hindi mo kasalanang umibig
asa hangal na ako.
MIDNIGHT BLISS
MORNING MADNESS
at night the stars rise
to shout you name in twilight bliss;
in the mon, they bow down
to greet you hello.
what happy sight the sun exclaims
when your face he sees
in morning glory.
i'm still here. call me.
hey.
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
YOU AND ME
lifehouse
i'm sitting inside s***net right now, and this girl comes out from nowhere and starts blabbering about boys that she has the hots for. pardon the rudeness, but can you be any more desperate? LOL
i'm such a bad ass bitch.
***
classes start tomorrow. dammit. i don't know if i'm up for it. i hope so. i haven't really prepared myself for it. it's raining outside. darn it. how am i gonna go to lord's place. it's fiesta; i intend to pig out.
***
lotsa things happened this summer. met new people. remisnisced the others i met last time it was sunny this side of the planet. i dunno of things turned out great for me or not. i'm just riding the waves, i guess.
***
still pretty messed up. but i hope i get over it.
soon, i hope.
wrote these a few weeks ago.
TAKIPSILIM
sa kalaliman ng gabing naparam
na ang anumang pag-asang sumibol,
ipikit mo ang iyong mga mata't hagkan
ang liwanag ng iyong puso.
pagka't iya'y liwanag din
ng sa akin.
alisin mo ang agam-agam
sa iyong puso; pakinggan mo
ang tunay nitong tibok.
ano'ng tunay na nais mo?
kung saan liligaya ito'ng pusong puno
ng pita't hilahil, duon ituon
ang iyong mga titig. duon
iyong langit. huwag mong itampal
lagian sa iyong sarili -
dusa't luha; bagkus, iwasang manisi.
hindi mo kasalanang umibig
asa hangal na ako.
MIDNIGHT BLISS
MORNING MADNESS
at night the stars rise
to shout you name in twilight bliss;
in the mon, they bow down
to greet you hello.
what happy sight the sun exclaims
when your face he sees
in morning glory.
i'm still here. call me.
hey.
Jun 11, 2005
honestly, i owe this guy more
than just an apology
but i guess we're still too tangled up
in the darn emotions we haven't -
at least i haven't - really gotten over the fact
that were indeed more than the usual friends.
blumentritt and rizal were among the lucky ones.
classes are starting this coming tuesday
and my schedule is full to the brim.
i barely have anytime for myself
let alone the people i love.
let's hope the coming semester has
positive prospects for yours truly.
that, and i have a pending plan.
june 27 will judge how things'll be for me
this year.
i hope i finish my thesis by august.
welcome back, dawg.
i hope you brought me back
something from thailand.
i'm here. gums hurting. darn it.
than just an apology
but i guess we're still too tangled up
in the darn emotions we haven't -
at least i haven't - really gotten over the fact
that were indeed more than the usual friends.
blumentritt and rizal were among the lucky ones.
classes are starting this coming tuesday
and my schedule is full to the brim.
i barely have anytime for myself
let alone the people i love.
let's hope the coming semester has
positive prospects for yours truly.
that, and i have a pending plan.
june 27 will judge how things'll be for me
this year.
i hope i finish my thesis by august.
welcome back, dawg.
i hope you brought me back
something from thailand.
i'm here. gums hurting. darn it.
May 29, 2005
i am wasted today.
dammit, last night i was invited by a former student of mine to judge at a local battle of bands. i obliged because the kid needed help. it was his first to handle such an event, and so i offered my help.
when i got there at around 7.30p, we found out that out of the 12 bands who confirmed, only four actually arrived and registered: three were from san pablo, and one was from lipa. the cemite-de-fetijos decided to wait out two more bands who confirmed attendance to the event. and that's what we did. a stake out.
and just when we thought things couldn't get any worse, dammit, it rained.
the show was hosted/produced/directed by this obnoxious guy who kept mentioning his roadshow foundation that was featured daw on ABS-CBN and GMA, emphasizing that his guest peroformers for the night "brought honor and prestige to the country." needless to say, i doubted everything the man said.
the rains stopped at around 10.30p. by that time, the performers of the "director" finally appeared after being announced to perform three hours earlier. they were a bunch of transvestites clad in everything else but clothes: one guy wore a thin sheet of chiffon fabric over dark blue, sequin-sparkling panties and bra; another guy wore something out of nora aunor's closet (with matching blonde hair wig to boot); one guy went all the way and wore a one-piece sequined and beaded swimsuit; and the last one, the supposed star, wore a brown shawled piece with feathers emanating from every possible hole on the shirt (a moment of silence for the slaughtered roosters).
you betcha, the whole shenanigan turned into a gay pride parade in late may.
not that i had anything against the guys - believe me, i'm not being prejudicial - but i was shocked to see kids on the surrounding grounds of the make-shift stage (courtesy of the "director's" team - all starry-eyed and marvelling at the loosely-clad men in tight underpants. i was appalled, to say the least.
a little after "their show" of lip-syncing, the bands - all four of them - started to play, and these were pretty good performances. during the announcement of winners, i actually suggested that they joined MUSIKLABAN this year.
anywho, after all remaining ear cartilage was blasted off by ear-numbing bass sounds (not to mention the thubbing sounds in my chest cavity), the battle ended. three of the bands won - and the judges found out that three of the bands were "invited" by the infamous, yup you guessed it, "mr. director."
who knows what other monstrocity this man might bring to this poor community tonight, when he directs the "JAM-boree," as he called it, tonight.
i got back to mader's place at around 2am. i was pooped. but i barely had any sleep because the bed bugs, among other critters, kept me up all dawn. i went hear mass, but didn't finish it because of all the sleep deprivation. when i got home, i bathed, jacked off, then slept.
i woke up an hour later. dammit. 'have spent the rest of the day in the shower. and here in the shop.
i'm chokin', dammit. hey.
(PS: i'm off to puerto galera this coming june 7th with a couple of friends. sana hindi maalon ang dagat. LOL)
dammit, last night i was invited by a former student of mine to judge at a local battle of bands. i obliged because the kid needed help. it was his first to handle such an event, and so i offered my help.
when i got there at around 7.30p, we found out that out of the 12 bands who confirmed, only four actually arrived and registered: three were from san pablo, and one was from lipa. the cemite-de-fetijos decided to wait out two more bands who confirmed attendance to the event. and that's what we did. a stake out.
and just when we thought things couldn't get any worse, dammit, it rained.
the show was hosted/produced/directed by this obnoxious guy who kept mentioning his roadshow foundation that was featured daw on ABS-CBN and GMA, emphasizing that his guest peroformers for the night "brought honor and prestige to the country." needless to say, i doubted everything the man said.
the rains stopped at around 10.30p. by that time, the performers of the "director" finally appeared after being announced to perform three hours earlier. they were a bunch of transvestites clad in everything else but clothes: one guy wore a thin sheet of chiffon fabric over dark blue, sequin-sparkling panties and bra; another guy wore something out of nora aunor's closet (with matching blonde hair wig to boot); one guy went all the way and wore a one-piece sequined and beaded swimsuit; and the last one, the supposed star, wore a brown shawled piece with feathers emanating from every possible hole on the shirt (a moment of silence for the slaughtered roosters).
you betcha, the whole shenanigan turned into a gay pride parade in late may.
not that i had anything against the guys - believe me, i'm not being prejudicial - but i was shocked to see kids on the surrounding grounds of the make-shift stage (courtesy of the "director's" team - all starry-eyed and marvelling at the loosely-clad men in tight underpants. i was appalled, to say the least.
a little after "their show" of lip-syncing, the bands - all four of them - started to play, and these were pretty good performances. during the announcement of winners, i actually suggested that they joined MUSIKLABAN this year.
anywho, after all remaining ear cartilage was blasted off by ear-numbing bass sounds (not to mention the thubbing sounds in my chest cavity), the battle ended. three of the bands won - and the judges found out that three of the bands were "invited" by the infamous, yup you guessed it, "mr. director."
who knows what other monstrocity this man might bring to this poor community tonight, when he directs the "JAM-boree," as he called it, tonight.
i got back to mader's place at around 2am. i was pooped. but i barely had any sleep because the bed bugs, among other critters, kept me up all dawn. i went hear mass, but didn't finish it because of all the sleep deprivation. when i got home, i bathed, jacked off, then slept.
i woke up an hour later. dammit. 'have spent the rest of the day in the shower. and here in the shop.
i'm chokin', dammit. hey.
(PS: i'm off to puerto galera this coming june 7th with a couple of friends. sana hindi maalon ang dagat. LOL)
May 27, 2005
a few thoughts for the day:
1
to conquer fear
you have to
become fear
batman begins
2
like broken glass,
that's how pain feels;
like broken shards
of glass.
3
only people
who suffer can grow
into beauty.
i'm actually writing this little blog under the influence of several shots of whisky. yup. i'm tipsy. so sue me.
the first thing that popped into my mind was the fact that i was a bit drunk, my head is spinning, and dammit i needed to write. write till i fall flat on the floor 'cause of this blasted headache i'm having right now. damn you, walker.
last night, a student-friend of mine texted. he was being tormented by the memories of an older woman whom he loved, but did not love him back. dammit, the kid was enraged by the thought of her, but he was enjoying, i could tell. he said he couldn't take it anymore - her face everywhere he looked, her smell in the air, her red lips pulsating in his dreams. hell the kid was going bonkers!
you know what i told him? to hell with the painless life! dammit, embrace life's hurt. that's where you learn. that's where you find peace - in the midst of the hurt that haunts us day and night. sometimes we just hate how the world seems imperfect for us, and perfect for everyone else; but hey, that's how it goes. cookies crumble that way, i guess. but we have to get up and pick up scraps - the good scraps - if we wanna continue eating the cookie.
i'm also planning a galera trip with the guys. who knows what'll happen.
i'm here. hey.
1
to conquer fear
you have to
become fear
batman begins
2
like broken glass,
that's how pain feels;
like broken shards
of glass.
3
only people
who suffer can grow
into beauty.
i'm actually writing this little blog under the influence of several shots of whisky. yup. i'm tipsy. so sue me.
the first thing that popped into my mind was the fact that i was a bit drunk, my head is spinning, and dammit i needed to write. write till i fall flat on the floor 'cause of this blasted headache i'm having right now. damn you, walker.
last night, a student-friend of mine texted. he was being tormented by the memories of an older woman whom he loved, but did not love him back. dammit, the kid was enraged by the thought of her, but he was enjoying, i could tell. he said he couldn't take it anymore - her face everywhere he looked, her smell in the air, her red lips pulsating in his dreams. hell the kid was going bonkers!
you know what i told him? to hell with the painless life! dammit, embrace life's hurt. that's where you learn. that's where you find peace - in the midst of the hurt that haunts us day and night. sometimes we just hate how the world seems imperfect for us, and perfect for everyone else; but hey, that's how it goes. cookies crumble that way, i guess. but we have to get up and pick up scraps - the good scraps - if we wanna continue eating the cookie.
i'm also planning a galera trip with the guys. who knows what'll happen.
i'm here. hey.
May 25, 2005
i AM still pissed off now.
two text messages woke me up.
not that i was furious about the content or anything
but it was the way things went after a few more messages
that pissed me off.
phones come and go, right?
but after a while they reach a point of sentimentality
for the owners. particularly if it were a gift from
someone dear to you.
i gave you the phone, right? it's yours already. no more
question about that. it's going to be a bit sad to let go
of the phone on my part, 'cause i gave the phone.
but i'll get over it eventually.
i just couldn't understand why you have to
go balistic and rave about things that need not
be talked about. now you're making me feel
like i'm making a big fuzz of things
and that it's perfectly okay for you
to not have me in your life anymore.
wow. that's all that i can say to you. wow.
i found a new computer shop right here in my barangay that asks just for P15 per hour for internet. you gotta be kidding me. i'm trying out the service right now, and it's quite good actually. i think they're on dsl. great news for me. now i have a new place to hang out. pinch me, i must be dreaming. LOL
honestly, i love hanging out in the internet shop. i feel more free when i'm online. i guess with all the things that're raging inside of me, it's nice that i can find a place where i could be myself, and be happy once in a while.
i was walking along the forbidden streets
when i saw you passing by - driving the car that
used to be a welcome sign to my eyes whenever i
dropped by your pad before. bt come to think of it now
i'm not quite sure if that was you. if it was
you behind the wheel. steering your family towards
home - there where i sought refuge for quite
some time. and found myself lying in bed with you
till the early morn. sometimes, i miss embracing you
but i don't think i'm allowed to still do.
i think i saw you. your eyes pegged on the road,
stern and not mindful of the stranger that passed by
your left window. i would like to think it was you
although it's a wednesday, and you have work.
thought i'd drop by. hey.
two text messages woke me up.
not that i was furious about the content or anything
but it was the way things went after a few more messages
that pissed me off.
phones come and go, right?
but after a while they reach a point of sentimentality
for the owners. particularly if it were a gift from
someone dear to you.
i gave you the phone, right? it's yours already. no more
question about that. it's going to be a bit sad to let go
of the phone on my part, 'cause i gave the phone.
but i'll get over it eventually.
i just couldn't understand why you have to
go balistic and rave about things that need not
be talked about. now you're making me feel
like i'm making a big fuzz of things
and that it's perfectly okay for you
to not have me in your life anymore.
wow. that's all that i can say to you. wow.
i found a new computer shop right here in my barangay that asks just for P15 per hour for internet. you gotta be kidding me. i'm trying out the service right now, and it's quite good actually. i think they're on dsl. great news for me. now i have a new place to hang out. pinch me, i must be dreaming. LOL
honestly, i love hanging out in the internet shop. i feel more free when i'm online. i guess with all the things that're raging inside of me, it's nice that i can find a place where i could be myself, and be happy once in a while.
i was walking along the forbidden streets
when i saw you passing by - driving the car that
used to be a welcome sign to my eyes whenever i
dropped by your pad before. bt come to think of it now
i'm not quite sure if that was you. if it was
you behind the wheel. steering your family towards
home - there where i sought refuge for quite
some time. and found myself lying in bed with you
till the early morn. sometimes, i miss embracing you
but i don't think i'm allowed to still do.
i think i saw you. your eyes pegged on the road,
stern and not mindful of the stranger that passed by
your left window. i would like to think it was you
although it's a wednesday, and you have work.
thought i'd drop by. hey.
May 23, 2005
only a sith deals
in absolute.
- master obi
train yourself
to let go of the things
you fear to lose.
- master yoda
quite obviously, i've gone out and watched STAR WARS EPISODE III: Revenge of the Sith. i got out of the house at 8.30 in the evening, and went to robinson's place lipa to wait for a friend who promised to treat me out for a movie. what better movie to watch free than star wars, right? LOL
anyway, i was there waiting for him for thirty minutes, puffing a few phillips, and he arrives two minutes before the ticket booth closed! talk about a close call.
we went into the theatre house, sat, and he took out two small packets of junk food. we started eating while we periodically glanced at the screen that showed trailers of upcoming movies (by the way, the FANTASTIC FOUR trailer looked okay; it's something to look forward to as well. the BATMAN BEGINS trailer was okay; felt like it's been ages since i've been seeing it. when would they actually show the flick? LOL).
anyway, the film starts and i was really attentive (as i have for the PHANTOM MENACE, and ATTACK OF THE CLONES), but then my dawg started acting all sleepy. i asked him what was the matter, and he said he suddenly got a headache.
(great movie + bored friend/companion = unsatisfactory viewing)
visually, i enjoyed all the CGIs. they were eye candy for me. like the time i saw EPISODE I (which i saw by sneaking out of research class way back in college) and EPISODE II (which i saw by sneaking out from a class i taught LOL). sadly though, although i had the same gusto to see the movie this time around, in all honesty, i was kinda distracted by the fact that my companion was fidgeting around his chair, and at one point, fell asleep. although i clapped at the end of the movie, i would have enjoyed it even more if my friend shared the same enthusiasm that i had while i saw the film.
Don't you wanna go for a ride
Just keep your hands inside
And make the most out of life
Now don't you take it for granted
Life is like a mean machine
It made a mess outta me
It left me caught between
Like an angry dream I was stranded
And I'm steady but I'm starting to shake
And I don't know how much more I can take
This is it now
Everybody get down
This is all I can take
This is how a heart breaks
You take a hit now you feel it break down
Make you stay wide awake
This is how a heart breaks
Don't you wanna go for a ride
Down to the other side
Feels so good you could cry
Now won't you do what I told you
I remember when you used to be shy
Yeah, once we were so fine
You and I why you gotta make it so hard on me
And I'm sorry but it's not a mistake
And I'm running but you're getting away
You're not the best thing that I knew
Never was never cared too much
For all this hanging around
It's just the same thing all the time
Never get what I want
Never get too close to the end of the line
You're just the same thing that I knew back before the time
When I was only for you
THIS IS HOW A HEART BREAKS
rob thomas
the film explained a lot of things to me.
it also reminded me a lot of things about the previous episodes that i've seen: NEW HOPE, EMPIRE STRIKES BACK, and RETURN OF THE JEDI - the old episodes i saw as a kid growing up under the tutelage of the force.
it was, at a point, nostalgic of a lot of things to me.
the movie was okay. the opportunity to watch it wasn't that great.
but don't get me wrong. it's not like i'm ungrateful.
i'm here. hey.
(PS: my unlimited text expires tonight. i might lay low for a while. kinda out of work until classes kick in by june. till i load up again, bye.)
in absolute.
- master obi
train yourself
to let go of the things
you fear to lose.
- master yoda
quite obviously, i've gone out and watched STAR WARS EPISODE III: Revenge of the Sith. i got out of the house at 8.30 in the evening, and went to robinson's place lipa to wait for a friend who promised to treat me out for a movie. what better movie to watch free than star wars, right? LOL
anyway, i was there waiting for him for thirty minutes, puffing a few phillips, and he arrives two minutes before the ticket booth closed! talk about a close call.
we went into the theatre house, sat, and he took out two small packets of junk food. we started eating while we periodically glanced at the screen that showed trailers of upcoming movies (by the way, the FANTASTIC FOUR trailer looked okay; it's something to look forward to as well. the BATMAN BEGINS trailer was okay; felt like it's been ages since i've been seeing it. when would they actually show the flick? LOL).
anyway, the film starts and i was really attentive (as i have for the PHANTOM MENACE, and ATTACK OF THE CLONES), but then my dawg started acting all sleepy. i asked him what was the matter, and he said he suddenly got a headache.
(great movie + bored friend/companion = unsatisfactory viewing)
visually, i enjoyed all the CGIs. they were eye candy for me. like the time i saw EPISODE I (which i saw by sneaking out of research class way back in college) and EPISODE II (which i saw by sneaking out from a class i taught LOL). sadly though, although i had the same gusto to see the movie this time around, in all honesty, i was kinda distracted by the fact that my companion was fidgeting around his chair, and at one point, fell asleep. although i clapped at the end of the movie, i would have enjoyed it even more if my friend shared the same enthusiasm that i had while i saw the film.
Don't you wanna go for a ride
Just keep your hands inside
And make the most out of life
Now don't you take it for granted
Life is like a mean machine
It made a mess outta me
It left me caught between
Like an angry dream I was stranded
And I'm steady but I'm starting to shake
And I don't know how much more I can take
This is it now
Everybody get down
This is all I can take
This is how a heart breaks
You take a hit now you feel it break down
Make you stay wide awake
This is how a heart breaks
Don't you wanna go for a ride
Down to the other side
Feels so good you could cry
Now won't you do what I told you
I remember when you used to be shy
Yeah, once we were so fine
You and I why you gotta make it so hard on me
And I'm sorry but it's not a mistake
And I'm running but you're getting away
You're not the best thing that I knew
Never was never cared too much
For all this hanging around
It's just the same thing all the time
Never get what I want
Never get too close to the end of the line
You're just the same thing that I knew back before the time
When I was only for you
rob thomas
the film explained a lot of things to me.
it also reminded me a lot of things about the previous episodes that i've seen: NEW HOPE, EMPIRE STRIKES BACK, and RETURN OF THE JEDI - the old episodes i saw as a kid growing up under the tutelage of the force.
it was, at a point, nostalgic of a lot of things to me.
the movie was okay. the opportunity to watch it wasn't that great.
but don't get me wrong. it's not like i'm ungrateful.
i'm here. hey.
(PS: my unlimited text expires tonight. i might lay low for a while. kinda out of work until classes kick in by june. till i load up again, bye.)
May 12, 2005
here are a couple of pictures i recently took, using my camera phone.
hope you like them.
the grand new sotero h. laurel building, towering the batangas skyline with fascinating aluminum luminiscence. i took this picture on my way to the filming exercises of the recent TRINITY workshop on film. what do you think?
clouds that hover above batangas city last week when the temperature soared to all-time highs. geez. there's a kind of calming effect to it, don't you think?
our two dogs. they were perched on the yard, and so i took pictures of them. tell me what do you think they're thinking about?
please tell me what you think
about my pictures.
leave me a tag aight?
i'm here. hey.
hope you like them.
the grand new sotero h. laurel building, towering the batangas skyline with fascinating aluminum luminiscence. i took this picture on my way to the filming exercises of the recent TRINITY workshop on film. what do you think?
clouds that hover above batangas city last week when the temperature soared to all-time highs. geez. there's a kind of calming effect to it, don't you think?
our two dogs. they were perched on the yard, and so i took pictures of them. tell me what do you think they're thinking about?
please tell me what you think
about my pictures.
leave me a tag aight?
i'm here. hey.
May 10, 2005
you don't need to worry
i can do that for both of us.
today i celebrate
the year that was
without you in my arms
without your eyes in my heart.
that night i first
saw you in the sanctuary,
sparks flew the minute
you smiled; i was mesmerized
but took a while before i
actually realized that
i loved you, at first sight.
tonight i remember the jeers
that we had, from that fateful night
of talks and coffee; i understand
the hesitation when we started talking.
you didn't want me to know
that our paths were destined
to cross, and separate; and yet,
we ventured into the night
and embraced whatever magic
befell us. did i not smile back
when you asked where to?
this month i bid adieu
once more to the life that i left
behind the closed blue door
now filled with nothing but the
memories of moans, and the foresight
of longing. you long not
for me anymore; your house is now filled
with a different scent. mine
is not your parfum no more; but it used
to be your favorite. darn mornings
that hurried me home. i shouldn't have
answered that call.
can i wait another year
to say goodbye to you? please
don't ask me that question ever
again; since you've chosen and i
have not. what answer do you seek
from me? i know
that you are happy in his arms
and i am saddened still by
the gloating remnants of what
used to be our day
our night
our month
but not our year.
i can do that for both of us.
today i celebrate
the year that was
without you in my arms
without your eyes in my heart.
that night i first
saw you in the sanctuary,
sparks flew the minute
you smiled; i was mesmerized
but took a while before i
actually realized that
i loved you, at first sight.
tonight i remember the jeers
that we had, from that fateful night
of talks and coffee; i understand
the hesitation when we started talking.
you didn't want me to know
that our paths were destined
to cross, and separate; and yet,
we ventured into the night
and embraced whatever magic
befell us. did i not smile back
when you asked where to?
this month i bid adieu
once more to the life that i left
behind the closed blue door
now filled with nothing but the
memories of moans, and the foresight
of longing. you long not
for me anymore; your house is now filled
with a different scent. mine
is not your parfum no more; but it used
to be your favorite. darn mornings
that hurried me home. i shouldn't have
answered that call.
can i wait another year
to say goodbye to you? please
don't ask me that question ever
again; since you've chosen and i
have not. what answer do you seek
from me? i know
that you are happy in his arms
and i am saddened still by
the gloating remnants of what
used to be our day
our night
our month
but not our year.
May 9, 2005
May 3, 2005
Apr 26, 2005
faith cannot be broken,
only abandoned.
it rose - blistered
my dreams into unfathomable jolts
of mismatched orientations.
i stood up and wandered
relentlessly through the corridors;
dammit. i hate mornings.
i stepped out into the yard
and found no one there;
funny, i thought 'twas a wednesday.
seethingly unethical, i
foraged through the kitchen.
found nothing but pizza scraps,
last week's sour kraut.
my dead fish in a salad bowl.
i flinched.
darn mornings.
things i realized the past week was more than just enlightening. they were embarassing, humiliating and down-right nasty. take last night for example. i was a tad horny so i started texting people. these are a few of the reactions i got:
1: i am at the seminary trying to find inner peace. thanks for ruining my night.
2: talaga? are you sure? si... ito?
3: seryoso ka?
4: sino ka? i'm tracing people kasi.
5: sana anjan ako LOL
6: (tons of quotations)
oh, and one friend from highschool kept badgering me about a giving him a textmate. he was literally shouting at me for being tardy in answering back. let's just say we're not friends anymore.
then i got to thinking when i woke up this morning. what the hell was i texting these people for? just 'cause i had an itch in the crotch doesn't give me the privilege to invade their lives. dammit. conscience kicking in.
this morning, i started deleting numbers. lots and lots of numbers. even those people i've grown fond of. i mean, what's the point?
only abandoned.
it rose - blistered
my dreams into unfathomable jolts
of mismatched orientations.
i stood up and wandered
relentlessly through the corridors;
dammit. i hate mornings.
i stepped out into the yard
and found no one there;
funny, i thought 'twas a wednesday.
seethingly unethical, i
foraged through the kitchen.
found nothing but pizza scraps,
last week's sour kraut.
my dead fish in a salad bowl.
i flinched.
darn mornings.
things i realized the past week was more than just enlightening. they were embarassing, humiliating and down-right nasty. take last night for example. i was a tad horny so i started texting people. these are a few of the reactions i got:
1: i am at the seminary trying to find inner peace. thanks for ruining my night.
2: talaga? are you sure? si... ito?
3: seryoso ka?
4: sino ka? i'm tracing people kasi.
5: sana anjan ako LOL
6: (tons of quotations)
oh, and one friend from highschool kept badgering me about a giving him a textmate. he was literally shouting at me for being tardy in answering back. let's just say we're not friends anymore.
then i got to thinking when i woke up this morning. what the hell was i texting these people for? just 'cause i had an itch in the crotch doesn't give me the privilege to invade their lives. dammit. conscience kicking in.
this morning, i started deleting numbers. lots and lots of numbers. even those people i've grown fond of. i mean, what's the point?
Apr 21, 2005
sa kamatayan lamang tayo
tunay na nakahahanap
ng ligaya't pagkakakligtas.
sa pagkakaluwal mula sa sinapupunan,
buhay na maramot ang unang sumasalubong sa atin;
ang kanlungang tahimik, basa at masikip
na siyang magbigay-katiyakan ng lahat
ay pilit inaagaw ng liwanag na nagmumula
sa siwang ng kapusukan at pagniniig ng puso.
tanging sa pag-agos ng nakalalasong tubig
ang siyang nakapagliligtas.
'pag ako'y namatay
ito ang gusto ko:
ayoko ng umiiyak;
gusto ko yung masaya.
gusto ko ng kamatayang nirapido;
ayoko iyong matagal at masalimuot.
gusto ko'y may musiko, mabagal na paghahatid;
ayoko ng mga de-kotse tsaka minabilis.
mas masarap siguro kung madaming nakikiramay
tsaka baha ang kape't biskwit.
tapos mas okey kung lahat
nakaitim, naghihinagpis.
okey di ba? pero, namputsa
sinong niloko ko?
gusto ko yung madaming umiiyak
para alam kong minahal ako ng iba;
gusto ko yung mabilis lang
(takot kasi ako sa dilim).
mas okey yung minadaling libing
para di nila ako ma-miss;
mas maganda din sa akin
kung wala nang burol;
baka mamaho pa ang bahay.
kapag ako'y namatay,
ito ang gusto ko:
gusto ko nandito ka sa tabi ko
para hindi ako matakot
pumikit at hagkan ka
sa huling pagkakataon.
tunay na nakahahanap
ng ligaya't pagkakakligtas.
sa pagkakaluwal mula sa sinapupunan,
buhay na maramot ang unang sumasalubong sa atin;
ang kanlungang tahimik, basa at masikip
na siyang magbigay-katiyakan ng lahat
ay pilit inaagaw ng liwanag na nagmumula
sa siwang ng kapusukan at pagniniig ng puso.
tanging sa pag-agos ng nakalalasong tubig
ang siyang nakapagliligtas.
'pag ako'y namatay
ito ang gusto ko:
ayoko ng umiiyak;
gusto ko yung masaya.
gusto ko ng kamatayang nirapido;
ayoko iyong matagal at masalimuot.
gusto ko'y may musiko, mabagal na paghahatid;
ayoko ng mga de-kotse tsaka minabilis.
mas masarap siguro kung madaming nakikiramay
tsaka baha ang kape't biskwit.
tapos mas okey kung lahat
nakaitim, naghihinagpis.
okey di ba? pero, namputsa
sinong niloko ko?
gusto ko yung madaming umiiyak
para alam kong minahal ako ng iba;
gusto ko yung mabilis lang
(takot kasi ako sa dilim).
mas okey yung minadaling libing
para di nila ako ma-miss;
mas maganda din sa akin
kung wala nang burol;
baka mamaho pa ang bahay.
kapag ako'y namatay,
ito ang gusto ko:
gusto ko nandito ka sa tabi ko
para hindi ako matakot
pumikit at hagkan ka
sa huling pagkakataon.
Apr 12, 2005
in all honesty,
i am freakin' bored.
i was logging into YM just a few minutes ago. right after i did, i noticed my ex was also logged in. guess what i did - i logged off. dimwit. dammit.
i dunno why, but i had this impulse of logging off right after i saw the smiley lit up. was i still in denial? still in love? i guess not. hell no. not anymore. please, Lord. not anymore.
i spent the last few months/year hoping that i'd get over the ghost. can i talk to the person now? no. 'cause i chose not too. because the ex chooses not to as well.
with wedding plans lurking around the corner, i guess i need to get rid of any fantasies of wooing people who have no intentions of being wooed back.
i'm happy that we've all moved on - in our own ways.
i just don't like the fact that i can't talk with my ex's anymore. sayang ang friendship. but that's a decision we made, in light of the circumstances.
BTW, to you, thanks for deleting me from your online communities' friends list. i was briefly hurt, but realized it was for the better. it's for the common good, i guess.
Who'd have thought
This is how the pieces fit?
You and I
Shouldn't even try making sense of it
I forgot
How we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons
but I don't know what they are
So blame it on my heart, oh
Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Heaven knows
Love is just a chance we take
We make plans
But then love demands a leap of faith
So hold me close
And never let me go
'Cause even though we think we know
which way the river flows
That's not the way love goes, no
Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Like the ticking of the clock
two hearts beat as one
But I'll never understand
the ways it's done
Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Love moves in mysterious ways
LOVE MOVES IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS
nina
hey. i'm still breathing.
keep close peeps. :)
i am freakin' bored.
i was logging into YM just a few minutes ago. right after i did, i noticed my ex was also logged in. guess what i did - i logged off. dimwit. dammit.
i dunno why, but i had this impulse of logging off right after i saw the smiley lit up. was i still in denial? still in love? i guess not. hell no. not anymore. please, Lord. not anymore.
i spent the last few months/year hoping that i'd get over the ghost. can i talk to the person now? no. 'cause i chose not too. because the ex chooses not to as well.
with wedding plans lurking around the corner, i guess i need to get rid of any fantasies of wooing people who have no intentions of being wooed back.
i'm happy that we've all moved on - in our own ways.
i just don't like the fact that i can't talk with my ex's anymore. sayang ang friendship. but that's a decision we made, in light of the circumstances.
BTW, to you, thanks for deleting me from your online communities' friends list. i was briefly hurt, but realized it was for the better. it's for the common good, i guess.
Who'd have thought
This is how the pieces fit?
You and I
Shouldn't even try making sense of it
I forgot
How we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons
but I don't know what they are
So blame it on my heart, oh
Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Heaven knows
Love is just a chance we take
We make plans
But then love demands a leap of faith
So hold me close
And never let me go
'Cause even though we think we know
which way the river flows
That's not the way love goes, no
Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Like the ticking of the clock
two hearts beat as one
But I'll never understand
the ways it's done
Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Love moves in mysterious ways
LOVE MOVES IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS
nina
hey. i'm still breathing.
keep close peeps. :)
Apr 9, 2005
i had to blog today.
it was a day after the deluge that struck me, and guess what? i'm not over it.
my life sucks, and i can'r get over the fact that i can't get over it. dammit.
Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside
Sometimes I'm sad about everything
Sometimes I'm mad and break some things
Sorry times 10 but you just got in the way
EMOTIONAL
diana degarmo
yesterday, i realized i puffed more phillip morris than i had to. dammit, i was down in the dumps. 'tang ina talaga yung kalbong yun. thank you, inspector for making my life miserable again. 'found this poem by mel on pinoypoets.
Ang sakim na nasang sa puno'y dumampi,
Naglakbay sa dawag ng inip, lunggati
At noong ang dulo'y payapang narating
Naabong panahon, sa bagang maningning.
Ang bagot, nilunok, usok nang niluwa
Lungkot ang kapiling, pangarap ay tuwa.
Ang lakad ng oras sa pusong nilisan
Bilangin sa upos na nagtatangisan.
Ang dagdag na upos sa abong talaksan
Dagdag sa panahong pinaglilipasan.
Ang putol sa habang ipinagmamayabang
Bawas din sa buhay na ayaw ingatan.
Sa dilim na aking kinasasadlakan
Sigarilyong tangi ang pinanggagalingan
Ng maliwanag na apoy kong pananglaw,
Ng init sa gabing sa puso'y bumahaw.
Batid kong sa bawat hayok kong paghithit
Minamadali kong hininga'y mapatid.
Ang demonyong sanib nitong sigarilyo
Anghel sa tingin kong ang diwa'y tuliro.
SIGARILYO
Mel
Abril 8, 2005
i mean, i do some stupid things sometimes, but that doesn't justify him making me feel so small. thank you sa 'yo ha? just when i thought i've gotten over my inferiority complex, you barge in and splash me with a big pailful of inferiority slush. grabe.
people might react, and say i'm OVER-REACTING to the situation. try being in that same position as i was yesterday, and how'd you feel? okay lang sana kung kami lang ang nagkarinigan. e hindi. a few graduates glanced at us, a few teachers were looking, and some parents who sat beside where i stood were startled. talk abour humiliation 101. do they teach that in law school, inspector? dammit. i thought lawyers were low, but not rock bottom. but you, you take the cake. bah!
The sadness within these walls is the quiet
sadness of space itself; invisible, inescapable.
And hollow, like a forgotten well I'd like to fill up
with flood waters, lava, or quick-drying cement.
Departures are never as swift as the flick of a light
switch, or as definitive as the collapse into dust
cloud and rubble of a tall building under engineered
blasts of planted dynamite. You walk out in particles,
leaving granulated good-byes like very fine sand. I'm
sure some remnant of your reflection is still around,
bouncing off yet another conniving surface. Like once,
stepping out of the shower towel-drying my hair,
I caught the elongated image of your tanned body
mirrored by the metal door frame's shiny handle. So
you're still within these walls, zipping in perpetual
motion, an amorphous mass of energized atoms in some
theoretical physics equation where the effect of
friction is suspended. You're still here, though
not as I would have it: seated on the bed, your back
against last night's pillows, your arm outstretched,
pointing the remote control at a flickering screen.
You're here in fragments. I gather your presence
with each sweeping of the floor, the way a poem
remembers its former drafts, collecting dead skin
cells of former selves.
IN ABSENTIA
Sid Gomez Hildawa
inasmuch as i would like to write poems, i couldn't. it's like i've been drained of who i was. dammit.
it was a day after the deluge that struck me, and guess what? i'm not over it.
my life sucks, and i can'r get over the fact that i can't get over it. dammit.
Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside
Sometimes I'm sad about everything
Sometimes I'm mad and break some things
Sorry times 10 but you just got in the way
EMOTIONAL
diana degarmo
yesterday, i realized i puffed more phillip morris than i had to. dammit, i was down in the dumps. 'tang ina talaga yung kalbong yun. thank you, inspector for making my life miserable again. 'found this poem by mel on pinoypoets.
Ang sakim na nasang sa puno'y dumampi,
Naglakbay sa dawag ng inip, lunggati
At noong ang dulo'y payapang narating
Naabong panahon, sa bagang maningning.
Ang bagot, nilunok, usok nang niluwa
Lungkot ang kapiling, pangarap ay tuwa.
Ang lakad ng oras sa pusong nilisan
Bilangin sa upos na nagtatangisan.
Ang dagdag na upos sa abong talaksan
Dagdag sa panahong pinaglilipasan.
Ang putol sa habang ipinagmamayabang
Bawas din sa buhay na ayaw ingatan.
Sa dilim na aking kinasasadlakan
Sigarilyong tangi ang pinanggagalingan
Ng maliwanag na apoy kong pananglaw,
Ng init sa gabing sa puso'y bumahaw.
Batid kong sa bawat hayok kong paghithit
Minamadali kong hininga'y mapatid.
Ang demonyong sanib nitong sigarilyo
Anghel sa tingin kong ang diwa'y tuliro.
SIGARILYO
Mel
Abril 8, 2005
i mean, i do some stupid things sometimes, but that doesn't justify him making me feel so small. thank you sa 'yo ha? just when i thought i've gotten over my inferiority complex, you barge in and splash me with a big pailful of inferiority slush. grabe.
people might react, and say i'm OVER-REACTING to the situation. try being in that same position as i was yesterday, and how'd you feel? okay lang sana kung kami lang ang nagkarinigan. e hindi. a few graduates glanced at us, a few teachers were looking, and some parents who sat beside where i stood were startled. talk abour humiliation 101. do they teach that in law school, inspector? dammit. i thought lawyers were low, but not rock bottom. but you, you take the cake. bah!
The sadness within these walls is the quiet
sadness of space itself; invisible, inescapable.
And hollow, like a forgotten well I'd like to fill up
with flood waters, lava, or quick-drying cement.
Departures are never as swift as the flick of a light
switch, or as definitive as the collapse into dust
cloud and rubble of a tall building under engineered
blasts of planted dynamite. You walk out in particles,
leaving granulated good-byes like very fine sand. I'm
sure some remnant of your reflection is still around,
bouncing off yet another conniving surface. Like once,
stepping out of the shower towel-drying my hair,
I caught the elongated image of your tanned body
mirrored by the metal door frame's shiny handle. So
you're still within these walls, zipping in perpetual
motion, an amorphous mass of energized atoms in some
theoretical physics equation where the effect of
friction is suspended. You're still here, though
not as I would have it: seated on the bed, your back
against last night's pillows, your arm outstretched,
pointing the remote control at a flickering screen.
You're here in fragments. I gather your presence
with each sweeping of the floor, the way a poem
remembers its former drafts, collecting dead skin
cells of former selves.
IN ABSENTIA
Sid Gomez Hildawa
inasmuch as i would like to write poems, i couldn't. it's like i've been drained of who i was. dammit.
Apr 8, 2005
NG: (taps on the shoulder) anong papel mo dito? anong committee mo?
EA: documentation po.
NG: documentation ng ano?
EA: ng graduation po.
NG: sinong nag-appoint sa iyo?
EA: sila po...
NG: umalis ka dyan; you're disrupting the graduation rites.
three words. puta'ng ina mo. whoever made you god? aba! gago ka din ano?! i was sweating my head off for the whole day, holding that darn camera, taking YOUR pictures, and you had the nerve to say that. damn you dawg!
i did not volunteer to become your slave for the day. the administration assigned me to do it. i was OBLIGATED to do it. you know what, inspector gadget, i didn't mind being under the sun; didn't mind looking like the rest of the photographers who were hunched around the front end of the stage; didn't mind being bossed around by most of you - but this, this takes the cake!
puta'ng ina. the least that you dimwits could have done was say thank you to us. instead, you continued mocking us by pointing, and laughing and making us feel even more unworthy to be called colleagues.
for the first time in my stay here in this school, today had got to be one of the worst i've ever had. those eyes, your rage. dammit, i was scared in all honesty.
i think the only consolation i got today was the fact that most of you didn't know the meaning of "engender" - a term used by this afternoon's guest speaker. bah! i hate you.
people who know me know that i take anger to the death. and i'm pretty angry at you, inspector, right now.
I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
F**ked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk away!
BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS
green day
EA: documentation po.
NG: documentation ng ano?
EA: ng graduation po.
NG: sinong nag-appoint sa iyo?
EA: sila po...
NG: umalis ka dyan; you're disrupting the graduation rites.
three words. puta'ng ina mo. whoever made you god? aba! gago ka din ano?! i was sweating my head off for the whole day, holding that darn camera, taking YOUR pictures, and you had the nerve to say that. damn you dawg!
i did not volunteer to become your slave for the day. the administration assigned me to do it. i was OBLIGATED to do it. you know what, inspector gadget, i didn't mind being under the sun; didn't mind looking like the rest of the photographers who were hunched around the front end of the stage; didn't mind being bossed around by most of you - but this, this takes the cake!
puta'ng ina. the least that you dimwits could have done was say thank you to us. instead, you continued mocking us by pointing, and laughing and making us feel even more unworthy to be called colleagues.
for the first time in my stay here in this school, today had got to be one of the worst i've ever had. those eyes, your rage. dammit, i was scared in all honesty.
i think the only consolation i got today was the fact that most of you didn't know the meaning of "engender" - a term used by this afternoon's guest speaker. bah! i hate you.
people who know me know that i take anger to the death. and i'm pretty angry at you, inspector, right now.
I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
F**ked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk away!
BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS
green day
Apr 7, 2005
i'm reposting this poem in response to a comment i received from pinoypoets. they said i didn't use enough imagery. i guess i didn't want to.
have no fear of the unknown;
step out into the open,
fearless of the perils ahead.
move towards that place, where
your heart rests in silence;
there where tears run dry, and saints
fall to the ground like dead leaves,
and yet smile still, as you
conquer that place.
quiver not of the ghastly sights
that stop you from pushing forward;
they distract, but can do nothing
against what your spirit can deliver.
look forward to the impending silence
that haunts ev'ry evening
ev'ry dawn; accept fear as
it accepts you. make it
your own, as it owns you;
own your fears.
GOD BLESS MY FEARS
have no fear of the unknown;
step out into the open,
fearless of the perils ahead.
move towards that place, where
your heart rests in silence;
there where tears run dry, and saints
fall to the ground like dead leaves,
and yet smile still, as you
conquer that place.
quiver not of the ghastly sights
that stop you from pushing forward;
they distract, but can do nothing
against what your spirit can deliver.
look forward to the impending silence
that haunts ev'ry evening
ev'ry dawn; accept fear as
it accepts you. make it
your own, as it owns you;
own your fears.
GOD BLESS MY FEARS
Apr 6, 2005
'was browsing through my email of pinoypoets, and found this one from de Ungria, among others. interesting how he plays with words, but actually means my favorite pastime (or at least that's how i interpret it. baka manyak lang talaga ako).
Spirits of Their Glass
Ricardo M. de Ungria
1.
Into the fork
Of her emotions
he thrust
His starmost song—
that in the milk
of her silences
his piercings
may lose their whiteness
and her pores lap
his nameless soul
and ease him down
her aeries wakefully.
2.
Spirit of light
in the aeries
of her east
his starmost song.
The kissed heart
lifts, exposed.
And into his breath
she sinks her wideness
until
to his tongue
she comes—
the word waited for.
luring all
he could not understand
After EDSA 3
Gemino Abad
And we are nowhere still, hostile to process
And living mostly on the surface of things,
Captive to our Imp’s “metaphysics” of happiness—
A spate of all the world’s amber mornings.
For we blink the sad, dark faces of things,
The razz and dazzle of our Imp’s humor—
Flux of all the world’s electric mornings—
Blank time’s malice to rouse our spirit’s ichor.
O razz and sparkle of our Imp’s humor,
Such gristle as shatters the tyrant’s laws,
Voids history’s ills, and fires our spirit’s liquor
Where coups vaporize in politics without clews!
What Imp’s grit to scatter the despot’s laws!
And because our fathers loved us, their sins fade
Where ventures choke in scams without clews.
Brief triumph! hubbub and rabble of barricade.
And because our kin are loved, their follies fade
Where shanties barnacle our suffocated creeks.
Fleet glory! and baffle and babble retrograde,
Our Imp still rules, and our laughter leaks.
Where our shacks totter over poisoned creeks,
The thief’s our saint who had faith and was saved.
The Imp enthralls yet where our carnival leaks;
But here is no country still, our honchos depraved.
The thief goes scot-free, by a helicopter saved,
The Imp outwits our writ of habeas loot.
No logic avails, no country where lawyers rave,
Everything is soon forgot, all heroics for naught.
Yet our wit is wound with wounds that wail,
Captive to our Imp’s “metaphysics” of happiness.
We bear our father’s sins ever without bail,
And we are nowhere still, hostile to process.
A Kind of Burning
Ophelia Dimalanta
it is perhaps because
one way or the other
we keep this distance
closeness will tug as apart
in many directions
in absolute din
how we love the same
trivial pursuits and
insignificant gewgaws
spoken or inert
claw at the same straws
pore over the same jigsaws
trying to make heads or tails
you take the edges
i take the center
keeping fancy guard
loving beyond what is there
you sling at the stars
i bedeck the weeds
straining in song or
profanities towards some
fabled meeting apart
from what dreams read
and suns dismantle
we have been all the hapless
lovers in this wayward world
in almost all kinds of ways
except we never really meet
but for this kind of burning.
***
have no fear of the unknonwn;
step out, fearless, into the open.
- the late Pope John Paul II
funny. for the last few days since the death of the pope, i could not stop crying everytime a special about him flashed on TV. it's like i have this connection with the pope that i don't even know we had, but do.
seedy and surreal as it may sound, i feel really bad that this pope died in my time. and why shouldn't i be. he's the only pope i've ever known.
***
1995. i was in my senior year in high school when the pope visited the philippines. i was chosen to be part of the celebration of the 1995 world youth day celebrations here in lipa. i was third youth city councilor.
i've never seen the pope upclose. but everytime i see his pictures on the tube now, i cry. it's like i've always believed he'd still be alive until i die. he was my patriarch - a father i never saw in mine, since mine was too stupid to act as one.
he was my replacement father.
have no fear of the unknown;
step out into the open,
fearless of the perils ahead.
look forward to the impending silence
that haunts ev'ry evening
ev'ry dawn; accept fear as
it accepts you. make it
your own, as it owns you;
own your fears.
Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star
GOODBYE TO YOU
michelle branch
goodbye my pope. goodbye pops.
hey.
Spirits of Their Glass
Ricardo M. de Ungria
1.
Into the fork
Of her emotions
he thrust
His starmost song—
that in the milk
of her silences
his piercings
may lose their whiteness
and her pores lap
his nameless soul
and ease him down
her aeries wakefully.
2.
Spirit of light
in the aeries
of her east
his starmost song.
The kissed heart
lifts, exposed.
And into his breath
she sinks her wideness
until
to his tongue
she comes—
the word waited for.
luring all
he could not understand
After EDSA 3
Gemino Abad
And we are nowhere still, hostile to process
And living mostly on the surface of things,
Captive to our Imp’s “metaphysics” of happiness—
A spate of all the world’s amber mornings.
For we blink the sad, dark faces of things,
The razz and dazzle of our Imp’s humor—
Flux of all the world’s electric mornings—
Blank time’s malice to rouse our spirit’s ichor.
O razz and sparkle of our Imp’s humor,
Such gristle as shatters the tyrant’s laws,
Voids history’s ills, and fires our spirit’s liquor
Where coups vaporize in politics without clews!
What Imp’s grit to scatter the despot’s laws!
And because our fathers loved us, their sins fade
Where ventures choke in scams without clews.
Brief triumph! hubbub and rabble of barricade.
And because our kin are loved, their follies fade
Where shanties barnacle our suffocated creeks.
Fleet glory! and baffle and babble retrograde,
Our Imp still rules, and our laughter leaks.
Where our shacks totter over poisoned creeks,
The thief’s our saint who had faith and was saved.
The Imp enthralls yet where our carnival leaks;
But here is no country still, our honchos depraved.
The thief goes scot-free, by a helicopter saved,
The Imp outwits our writ of habeas loot.
No logic avails, no country where lawyers rave,
Everything is soon forgot, all heroics for naught.
Yet our wit is wound with wounds that wail,
Captive to our Imp’s “metaphysics” of happiness.
We bear our father’s sins ever without bail,
And we are nowhere still, hostile to process.
A Kind of Burning
Ophelia Dimalanta
it is perhaps because
one way or the other
we keep this distance
closeness will tug as apart
in many directions
in absolute din
how we love the same
trivial pursuits and
insignificant gewgaws
spoken or inert
claw at the same straws
pore over the same jigsaws
trying to make heads or tails
you take the edges
i take the center
keeping fancy guard
loving beyond what is there
you sling at the stars
i bedeck the weeds
straining in song or
profanities towards some
fabled meeting apart
from what dreams read
and suns dismantle
we have been all the hapless
lovers in this wayward world
in almost all kinds of ways
except we never really meet
but for this kind of burning.
***
have no fear of the unknonwn;
step out, fearless, into the open.
- the late Pope John Paul II
funny. for the last few days since the death of the pope, i could not stop crying everytime a special about him flashed on TV. it's like i have this connection with the pope that i don't even know we had, but do.
seedy and surreal as it may sound, i feel really bad that this pope died in my time. and why shouldn't i be. he's the only pope i've ever known.
***
1995. i was in my senior year in high school when the pope visited the philippines. i was chosen to be part of the celebration of the 1995 world youth day celebrations here in lipa. i was third youth city councilor.
i've never seen the pope upclose. but everytime i see his pictures on the tube now, i cry. it's like i've always believed he'd still be alive until i die. he was my patriarch - a father i never saw in mine, since mine was too stupid to act as one.
he was my replacement father.
have no fear of the unknown;
step out into the open,
fearless of the perils ahead.
look forward to the impending silence
that haunts ev'ry evening
ev'ry dawn; accept fear as
it accepts you. make it
your own, as it owns you;
own your fears.
Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star
GOODBYE TO YOU
michelle branch
goodbye my pope. goodbye pops.
hey.
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