ER: ano panoorin natin? because of you?
GG: ngek, eh antagal mo na kayang hinintay 'tong incredibles.
ER: okay. miss dalawang incredibles nga.

i had a blast watching the incredibles today. i know what you're thinking: yup, i just saw it today. lame, i know. but hey. cut me some slack. with all the work 'am doing right now, i'm actually glad i got out to watch a flick.
it was one of those times when i enjoy flicks with the gf. i was almost gonna roll down the floor, but she kept me from doing it. i was catching too much attention, i guess. she told me after the movie that everyone was looking at me while the movie was on. i told her, they could all sue my fat ass 'cause that's how we're suppose to watch flicks - getting really into it. aight, sorry. i guess i WAS laughing too loudly.

i just got back from a seminar series i did with 'tales last friday. not quite what i expected from this bunch but it was aight. most of the kids opened up, especially angel. he was so rawdy - always grabbing the opportunity to be seen on cam. yup, it was on cam.
night fell, and we started doing the group dynamics. we eventually got the pace right, and everything snowballed from there. there were quiet moments though. i started panicing. but 'tales said he had everything under control. i guess he did.

thanks for helping me out, man. i owe you big time. i'll remember the red car when i make my christmas list by next week LOL. i'm, serious.

i have nothing else to write. funny. i think my lack of sleep affected my brain. gotta sleep.
i'm still alive, thank Jesus. hey.

EA: is he there?
FT: yah, he just arrived. i specifically asked for coffee, and he bought me snickers.
EA: ain't that sweet?
FT: it was sweet of him, literally... he's closing the door. he's changing.
EA: so he's staying for the night?
FT: yup. he insisted to fetch me. he was there in fifteen minutes. i guess he was on his way while we texted. that's why i couldn't meet you.
EA: ah, okay. (sigh: he's staying over, and i'm feeling queezy about it. dammit) you sound like you're swooning.
FT: i am not swooning. when i swoon i keep silent, i blush, and do those not-so-cute puppy dog eyes.
EA: but you are cute. i should know.


i had a very disapponting day today. diet came to work drunk yesterday. the guards got a sniff at him. good thing harvey took the liberty of diverting the guards' attention so they wouldn't have nabbed the guy.
when he got to the station, he started his tantrums at the dressing room, ranting about why nio was texting the newbie dj robin. he was pissed off, according to witnesses.
as much as i wouldn't want to, i had to suspend diet after he admitted to all the accusations. i was teary-eyed while we talked over the phone - hearing him admit what he did was just too much for me. way too much.
i've already found replacements for his slots, to the hesitation of some, saying diet could have been given a chance to prove to us that he was sorry for what he did. i guess he'll have a whole month to think about what he did. when he comes back in december, he'll have to undergo a panel interview to gauge his effectiveness yet again. that and the reality that he may jeopardize the station's integrity yet again.

***

MY LIGHTER SIDE OF THE DAY. i was rolling on the floor while i read this bulletin from maddawwg early tonight. i find it funny, and yet thought-provoking as well.

Eight sure-fire ways to tell if you are gay...

1. If you are over thirty and you have a washboard
stomach, you are gay. It means you haven't
sucked back enough beer with the boys and have
spent the rest of your free time doing sit-ups,
aerobics, and doing the Oprah diet.

2. If you have a cat, you are a Flaaaaming homo.
A cat is like a dog, but gay - it grooms itself
constantly but never scratches itself, has a
delicate touch except when it uses its nails, and
whines to be fed. And just think about how you call
a dog... "Killer, come here! I said get your ass
over here, Killer!" Now think about how you call a
cat..."Bun-bun, come to daddy, snookums!"
Jeeezus, you're fit to be framed, you're so gay.

3. If you suck on lollipops, Ring-Pops, baby
pacifiers, or any such nonsense, rest assured, you
are a Gaylord. A straight man only sucks on bar-b-
que ribs, crab claws, raw oysters, crawfish
guts, pickled pigs feet, or tits. Anything else and
you are in training to suck El Dicko and
undeniably
a fag.

4. If you refuse to take a dump in a public
bathroom or piss in a parking lot, you crave a
deep homosexual relationship. A man's world is
his bathroom; he defecates and urinates where he
pleases.

5. If you drink decaf coffee with skim milk, you like
a high hard one in the poop chute. Coffee is to be
had strong, black, and full aroma. A straight man
will never be heard ordering a "Decaf Cafe Latte
with Skim" and he will never, ever know what
artificial sweetener tastes like. If you've had
NutraSweet in your mouth, you've had a man
there, too.

6. If you know more than six names of colors or
four different types of dessert, you might as well
be handing out free passes to your ass. A real
man doesn't have memory space in his brain
to remember all of that crap as well as all the
names of all the players in the Major league, NFL,
NBA, college ball, PGA and NASCAR. If you can
pick out chartreuse or you know what a "fressier"
is you're gay. And if you can name ANY type of
textile other than denim, you are faggadocious.

7. If you drive with both hands on the wheel, forget
it, you're dying to tune a meat whistle. A man only
puts both hands on the wheel to honk at a slow-
ass driver or to cut the punk off. The rest of the
time he needs that hand to change the radio
station, eat a hamburger, hold his beer, or play
with his bitch in the passenger seat.

8. If you enjoy romantic comedies or French films,
mon-frere, vous le Gay, oui? The only time it is
acceptable to watch one of those is with a woman
who knows how to reward her man. Watching
any of the above films by yourself or with another
man is likely to result in SHC (spontaneous
homosexual combustion), which is what happens
to fags when they flame out too quickly.

***

Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bunk alone with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day

Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
beer through the nose on an inside joke
And I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's black leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last

It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses

My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake

Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses

And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses
In white houses
In white houses

WHITE HOUSES
v. carlton

i haven't bound my book yet. 'might tomorrow. or the day after that.
whenever i fancy to not feel the hurt. yup, i was hurt yet again, after that call. knowing he was there beside FT, and not me - they who would chat, smirk and fall madly in love with each other even more when the night is through. i am happy for FT. really. but i'm still a bit jealous. this'll pass. i know it will. (i see someone in denial again LOL)

i'm here for you. hey.

- you have no right
to sshh me anymore.
- that was hurtful. but i guess
it's true.

i just finished writing my tenth book on poetry entitled KAWALAN. if you like, i can lend it to you. will just have to have it bound.

was talking to 'tales the other night about a seminar-workshop on leadership and values formation that i was organizing for the new dj hopefuls this semester. it was not very pleasant for both of us - he was having a shitty day, and i was feeling the negative vibes all over mcdonald's.
i understand that he woke at the wrong side of the bed (his bed has only side to roll out from. i should know. i've slept over his place a couple of times), but i couldn't get over the feeling that it was my persistence to see him as the reason why he was having a shitty day.
i guess i'm being paranoid again. and blaming everything on me. you know me. when things go wrong, i blame it on me. i wouldn't want to admit it, but i am. messiahnic. dammit. he confirmed it din.
we did have light moments. but not that much. i am glad he's having a great time with jay. i'm actually excited he's gonna pounce, err bounce, after the three months of no-sex is up. and that jay was anticipating every passing day till christmas comes. he's in for a handful this yuletide.
but i felt he was reluctant to help us out this time, after what happened. (or maybe it's just me thinking he was) and to think i forgot about what DID happen, dismissing it a part of the closure. i guess things like that don't become parts of closure. they become parts of lines drawn.
he's becoming very busy again, and so have i. i guess me inviting him over for the seminar is too much to ask for. i'm sorry if i'm being an inconsiderate jackass again, but i'd like the new kids to experience having him as a friend as well.
it's hard thinking that things like another misunderstanding that arose from a closure could affect who and what we are as friends. i hope we have become friends after everything. 'least quasi ones.

Any moment, everything can change,
Feel the wind on your shoulder,
For a minute, all the world can wait,
Let go of your yesterday.

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing?
And take control,

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you cant in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly.

All your worries, leave them somewhere else,
Find a dream you can follow,
Reach for something, when there's nothing left,
And the world's feeling hollow.

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing?
And take control,

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you cant in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly.

And we're you're down and feel alone,
And want to run away,
Trust yourself and don't give up,
You know you better than anyone else,

Any moment, everything can change,
Feel the wind on your shoulder,
For a minute, all the world can wait,
Let go of your yesterday,

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine,
Forget about the reasons why you cant in life,
And start to try,
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life,
And start to try, cause it's your time,
Time to fly.

Any moment, everything can change.

FLY
hilary duff

i'm trying to stay awake.
hey.

the sweet is never the sweet
without the sour.

i had a very interesting day today. not.
i went to batangas city today, really early because i had a class - at 11.30am. geez. just one class. the other one was dissolved and merge with another class. dammit.
on my way to the department, a few kids approached me, and asked if i could fill in for their teacher in literature. i said i'll see what i can do. load. LOL. that and i washed a ton of clothes. grabe. andami kong nilabahan. my body's aching like hell. never had to do this much work since heheh...
but seriously, i'm off to ortigas on tuesday for a job interview. wish me luck.

U: There's always that one person
that will always have your heart
You never see it coming cause
you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me,
it's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby, you will always be my boo

A: I don't know about y'all but I
know about us and uhh it's the only way we know how to rock (repeat)

U: Do you remember girl, who was
he one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl who was the one
who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and people screaming your name
Girl I was there and you were my baby

Chorus:
U: It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)
Now another brothers' taken over but its'
still in your eyes (my boo)
Even though we use to argue it's alright
(it's alright girl, that's okay)
And if we haven't seen each other in a while,
but you will always be my boo

A: Now if you loved when we were younger you were mine
And when I see from time to
time I still feel like, (that's my baby)
And if I see you no matter how I try to hide (I can't hide it)
And even though there's another man who's in my life, you will always be my boo

A: Yes I remember boy, cause after we
kissed I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy, the moment
I knew you were the one I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame and people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby

Chorus:
U: It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)
Now another brothers' taken over but its'
still in your eyes (my boo)
Even though we use to argue it's alright
(it's alright girl, that's okay)
And if we haven't seen each other in a while,
but you will always be my boo

Bridge
My ooh my ohh my ohh my ohh my boo (repeat)

Chorus
U: It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)
Now another brothers' taken over but its'
still in your eyes (my boo)
Even though we use to argue it's alright
(it's alright girl, that's okay)
And if we haven't seen each other in a while,
but you will always be my boo

A: I don't know about y'all but I know about us and uhh it's
the only way we know how to rock (repeat)

my boo
usher feat alicia keys

and by the way, campus christi is going great. hey 'tales, listen to us aight? and try to dropby. the kids are asking me about you, and i don't know what to say.
a friend is probably dropping by later, and staying over for the night.

it's almost christmas, and i'm almost out of a job.
hey.

hey, it's been a while.
the old one has been very buzy about a lot of things.

1. i had to take an exam at a call center in libis the other week. took me six hours of waiting before i found out i passed. geez. with that kind of service, i started wondering about the company's efficiency, and decided to not come back for the final interview.

2. i turned down a job offer from ict. 'thought that was the right thing to do. i had three other job offers up for grabs, and these i favored over ict. but you know what, i expected i'd still be part of the school so i turned these down eventually. yup, i was a "no-show" to all three big companies last monday. foolish pig.

3. i did get a teaching load for this second semester. the catch though, was that they kept on dissolving my load. eventually i was left with only 21 units, a far cry from the original 27 units they gave me. i fear i might have to bear another section's vanishing tomorrow. lord knows how much i need this job.

4. i have another job offer this coming tuesday. sykes. i got a friend lending me money so that i could send myself to ortigas. may his tribe increase. geez. poverty has stricken me yet again. i'm just glad i get to blog again.

5. launched new programs this week: BANDISTA, which features batangueño artists; CAMPUS CHRISTI, which plays contemporary christian music; SMALL DAWGS WITH BIG TOYS, a men's program and GIRL TALK, SDWBT's counterpart. listen to the station. please?

i'm kinda in a rush. i'll try to blog again soon. keep in touch aight?
missed you all dearly. hey.

i'm off to manila tomorrow to find work.
me and the gf started talking about letting go today.
we're hanging by a thread. a strong one, i suppose.
wish me luck. can't wait to meet gibb before i go home. might grab coffee before swooshing off to alabang. 'need to be home early.
congratulations to sugar and diet - our new DJs.
love you. hey.