it's been a while.

i never thought that day would come. but it did. it was frightening. my last three days of airing. grr.

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much to my enjoyment, i was recently hailed as the new department chairman for mass communications, after graduating from my masterate at BSU (although the registrar has yet to release my TOR). i start on may 2.

but it wasn't the cabinet cleaning or the turn-over of files that bothered me when i received the text message from arex (the college secretary); i was faced with the fact that i might not air EVER again.

hell froze over. today is my last day of airing.

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thursday and friday, my airings were passé. as if things were going to turn out okay. i had just finished off the last of the bull sessions with the kids, have started planning for the welcome party, and have taken time to go out with friends. all was supposed to be well.

friday everning comes, i had no sweldo. that was the start of it.

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when i got into the station today, it sank in.
today was my last day to air. EVER.

i did the program as usual - campus almusal. a few minor glitches, and some hang-ups but generally the program went on smoothly. four minutes before i said adieu, i thanked everyone who became a part of my life for the past four years at the campus radio - the batches of djs, the listeners, the food house, everyone.

the minute i slid back the channel for my mic, i burst into tears. finally, it sank - deep. i was leaving the radio. for good. i didn't let go of the mic stand for a good three minutes. i just held on to it, crying.

four years working on something where you've put heart and soul, sweat and lotsa time, laughter and even more tears; it all sank in. i cried so hard, the kids (aries, sydney and apollo) started crying as well. i knew i had to be strong for them, but i couldn't stop crying...

i just couldn't.

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for everyone who has become part of my radio career (if there was any) for the past four years of the campus radio, thank you. i bid goodbye with a heavy heart, but with a lot of aspiration, hoping the all will be well... for everyone.

thank you.