i am sorta officially gonna get booted out of work by monday morning. definitely not a day i am looking forward to. although there has been no formal talks yet with the bosses, since i am getting my clearance signed (hopefully) on monday, i might just get some ass-whoopin' too.

***

this morning while i aired, i felt like i was performing my last boardwork. well, i felt i was good. great even. though i stuttered a bit, i guess i did fine. but it felt like it was my last airing kahit na may airing pa din ako bukas at 1pm. people were greeting me all over, calling me MR PEÑA, in a tone that almost meant like it was the last time they were going to see me on campus. either that or i'm uberparanoid.

to be honest, i will feel sad if i leave the school, the radio this coming semester. i've been with the school for four of my best years as a teacher. been with the radio for three years. and i AM going to miss going to work at 4am to do ads, and expecting the house ghosts to be there to welcome me. i'll miss the kids, so say the least. haven't told anybody except darryl. she says i should blurt it out only when the ultimatum is given. monday pa daw kasi. kung kelan naman ako madaming plano para sa radio - i got new programs coming up. i got a concert set february 12. i got a new set of trainee djs. geez.

***

speaking of new programs, here are the new programs i got in mind: SMALL DAWGS WITH BIG TOYS, a men's show talking about guy issues; GIRL TALK, the feminine counterpart of SDWBT; CAMPUS CHRISTI, a bi-weekly program on contemporary Christian music; BANDISTA, a show that features batangueño singers and bands; and CAMPUS ALMUSAL, the earliest campus-based morning show.

i hope everything turns out okay.

i'm trying to stay alive.
hey.