'have been very busy for the past few weeks. busy looking for work.
having been part of the academe for four years leaves a man jittery when he comes out of his scholastic shell, and dive into the work jungle. grabe. ansaya palang maghanap ng trabaho. and i mean that metaphorically. the competition is stiff; i nearly have no edge compared to the millions out there who do.
i have an interview on wednesday at libis; i might dropby the embassies along ayala before i go to QC. i hope things work out well for me.
i might see a few friends as well. para sabay-sabay na't iisang lakaran na. 'am particular excited about meeting gibb.

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mwah!
don't get too mushy with me ok?
g'nyt
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And I thought that what I felt was simple
And I thought that I don't belong
And now that I am leavin
Now I know that I did somethin wrong 'cause I missed you
Yeah yeah, I missed you

...You said that I was naive and I thought that I was strong oh
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave"
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you
Yeah, I missed you

...You said, "you called me 'cause you want me and one day you let me go"
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me
'Cause you know you're just so scared to lose
And you say, "Stay."
You say I only hear what I want to

Stay
by Lisa Loeb

'was talking with gibb for an hour and a half (mobile to mobile - he called. wow.) the other day. tallking about stuff. friendship. lovelives. work (talked about that a lot.), naughty stuff LOL just a lot of things. but something he said left me thinking after the call: he said i might not have been queer after all.

But you are in my head, swimming forever in my head
Tangled in my dreams, swimming forever

So, I listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
And all the songs we used to know (listen to the ...)
So I listen to the radio (listen to the radio)
Remember where we used to go

radio
the corrs

oh, by the way, i still don't know if i'm getting booted out. but better prepared than not, right? i hope i get the job this wednesday.
and not, the thoughts for the day!

can you get to the future if your past is present?
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there are some things that people don't say because they don't sound right.
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urgency overrules propriety.
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silence is the absence of time in intended indifference.
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don't let the fear of striking out hold you back.
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perhaps all we need to know is to not know at all.

i'm still alive. for how long, who cares. as long as i have you to read who i am.
hey.