love doesn't always prevail
but love doesn't always fail either.

THE BEGINNING OF AN END
after a brief meeting on the upcoming radio event this feb16-18, things started to heat up last feb11. words were flung like swords; hearts torn like pieces of japanese paper under the spring rain.

needless to say I hurt some feelings; it cost us big time. robin and phoenix resigned. effective this morning. you simply cannot imagine the awkwardness that i felt while i rode the van to school.

questions like "How'd i greet them?" or "What now?" or "Will I smile or just nod?"
in all honesty, i was uneasy to come to school today. and i wasn't disappointed with the results. when i opened the door to the radio room, phoenix was there. she was explaining something about the scheduling. "SIR" she emphasized. that's my girl. very professional. her words crushed my heart to pieces. i had to hold back the tears. this is how the end begins.

the whole time i was there at school, i felt awkward. i didn't know how to get along with the other mass com peeps. by now, i knew, they'd known of the feb11 incident. i was not welcome anymore...

dr. meñez went in a couple of minutes after, and started talking about the feb11 issue. how could she have known? wow. by then i knew things were turning bad; and i wasn't on the good side now. i was the evil one. i told her of my plans to resign from the station and lose the secret identity altogether of echo apao. she said i shouldn't; but my mind was made up. I HAVE TO. she told me arnie was being groomed to take over. i on the other hand, would become a possible candidate for department chairmanship. i don't know what to think anymore...

it's going to be hard to leave a place i called my real home for the last three years. i've never felt so loved anywhere else (aside when i'm with grace). i'm going to miss everyone. yes, even nympha.

ON THE LIGHTER SIDE...
i'm through with my thesis' final draft, together with the four output that i was required to create - two powerpoint presentations, one brochure on community participation, and a comic magazine on community involvement. i'm having it bound as i write; i'll be submitting the manuscript tomorrow morning.

i hate me.