pain strengthens; love weakens.
- ja rule

i'm defending my thesis on friday.
dammit.
i just found out tuesday afternoon.
no preparation of any sort.
right after i submitted my questionnaire
and paradigm that very tuesday morning,
my adviser immediately scheduled me
for defense that same day.

Nobody knows
Just why we’re here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall I be

Chorus:

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
‘Coz when nothing seems clear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You’ll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

Chorus:

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything’s unclear
You’ll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You’ll be safe here

When no one understands
I’ll believe
You’ll be safe,
You’ll be safe
You’ll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You’ll be safe here

YOU'LL BE SAFE HERE
rivermaya

to say that i'm nervous is the least
of the emotions rampaging me now.
just last tuesday there was this teacher
who insisted on using the laboratory
that very same afternoon
even if she just reserved it that very day -
the protocol being two days
before you actually use it. dammit.

the gf is going to tanauan
by this friday or early next week
to get her last pay at the school she
used to work for. i'm afraid that
the identically-named dean would
lurk around the corners and
try swooning my girlfriend
away from me again. let him try.
he'll get a piece of my fist.

i got things hurting me everywhere.
i think i got a problem with
my lungs - it's getting harder
to breathe in the morning (gotta quit
smoking); my right side is starting
to hurt (might be the appendix); and
my left side gets cramps every now
and then (there goes my liver).

i dunno if i'll ever feel safe, here or
anywhere else. i just hope i find refuge
somewhere i could be myself
and be loved for what i have become...
arggghh, cramps on my left side. liver.
dammit.

i'm barely here. hey.