i don't know how to describe
what i'm feeling right now.
i'm sad.
very, i guess.
i've been eating since this morning
but to no avail.
my body feels so heavy.
i'm dragging myself.
i just want to sink - vanish - somewhere people won't see me.
no air, no light. no love, i guess.
she's going somewhere. without me.
i'm scared. afraid. longing. doubtful?
i don't know.
i'm just plain stupid.
that's what i am.
plain, freakin' stupid.