THOUGHTS


to be honest, married life isn't turning out as i expected. a after we got married, we started fighting even more. i mean, we fought every now and then. normal right? but lately we've been arguing almost everyday. just this night, for example, she came home late from a meeting with the bosses, tapos she accompanied a friend to robinson's. arriving home, i gave her the cold shoulder, when out of nowhere, she blurted out "sa totoo lang pwede ngang hindi ko sinabing sinamahan ko siya sa robinson's di ba?"

i mean, what the f*** is that? utang na loob ko pa na nagsabi siya? i have all the right to know where she is (i'm her husband, hello?), add the fact that babay venice was unruly and temperemental.

i feel like shit today. i'm planning to not sleep in our house tonight. dunno if that'll work out, because i don't have anywhere to go. f***.

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today is baby carla venice's 2nd month birthday.

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gawad masa is going down the hill. supposedly, we we're going to do the event at the Freedom Hall, but then a goddess contradicted, and claimed that no caterers were to be allowed to set-up at the auditorium. now they'll have to do gawad at the gymnasium - an awards night at 2.30pm. i'm so disappointed. so much that i plan not to attend. besides, there'd been instances before that the dept. chair wouldn't attend gawad. this wouldn't be the first; neither would it beimportant if i attend or not.

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i don't feel as energized and motivated to go to work lately. i feel there's a bigger world outside the school that i could be a part of. i spent ten of my best years at the school. who knows, maybe i'm destined to spent the next 10 years somewhere else...

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still here. barely.