it's been a while since mi blogged. here are a few from my ninth book in the making entitled: KAWALAN

1
geez
that cat was run over
shrieking, shuddering
when the wheels touched her body
blood everywhere
hearts bleeding to hell
littlest mind squished
at the side of the road
how sad.

geez
that cat was run over
tail caught in the bumper
eues all bloodshot
sad thoughts
flashing before her littlest mind
squished at the side of the road
how sad.

that's gotta hurt.

2
it's me
who should apologize
you're just being nice and sweet
'nothing wrong with that
i can't turn nice and sweet
like you
and i regret that so much.

but i'm not asking you to.
all i want is for you to be true
to me.
and me alone...

3
it's the things we love
that end up killing us

and what's even funnier
is that we let it happen

that we let love throw us around
like rodeo clowns caught in bulls' horns

like birds with wings torn
and still trying to take flight

we let it take over our very soul
and leave us danggling by threads

threads that don't even match our knitwear
and leave us shabby, mundane, scathed.

how pathetic.

4
something bad's gonna happen
'cause i'm feeling
way damn good.

SHOULD I BE TROUBLED?
HELL 'YAH.
EVERYTIME SOMETHING GOOD HAPPENS
TO ME
IT'S LIKE THE TOTAL OPPOSITE
IS ALWAYS BOUND TO HAPPEN

IT'S LIKE I'M CURSED
OR SOMETHING.
(AND FINDING OUT THAT THE VISIONARY AT THE HOSPITAL,
I CAN'T HELP BUT THINK
THAT THIS IS WHAT'S BOUND TO HAPPEN
'CAUSE I FELT SO GOOD THESE PAST FEW DAYS.)

MAYBE I AM CURSED
NOW THAT I START DREAMING OF HOLDING YOUR HEAD
WITH MY BARE HANDS AND
HUGGING YOU CLOSE TO MY CHEST
SILLY PIG.

something bad's gonna happen
'cause i'm feeling
way damn good.

5
hey,
if i don't get
to say this again
i'm saying it now.
i'm sorry.
for everything.

you dont have to
blame yourself
for everything.
most of it was
my mistake too.
my only regret
is we didn't turn out to be
what we expected us to be.
but i'm still glad
because once in our lives
we were friends.
good night.

***

friends out there,
please dropby my house on september 25
at around 8pm.
got a small party for us.
see you there.

***

that'll do for a few more days.
oink still breathing.