ei there.
i was actually on my way to the ccp to submit
my film, and guess what?
they're closed on mondays. darn it.

***
paolo and i are planning to do a sequel to BUS.
thet was a bit exciting to hear: BUS - after three years of the first encounter.

***
i'm starting to feel like my film wasn't meant to be shown at cinemalaya.
my spirits are dampened. downright wet.

***
i;m meeting nick olanka later at 12nn for a seminar
we're doing on the 16th. sana mag-work out.
haven't had any confirmations from the attendees kasi.
i'm starting to worry.

***
last saturday, i was informed by a close friend
of the rumor mongering that a teachers has started about my department.
seems that the teacher thinks i'm not qualified to be department chair.
and she emphasized that neither are the masscom teachers who have no MAs.
she said, as i was told, that non-MAers were no match for those with an MA degree.
this angered me a bit. for quite some time, i taught without an MA under
my wings. the only reason i finished mine was because i promised my former
department chairman that i would. it had nothing to do with being better than the rest of the faculty.

add this to the bullish attitude of the former DC who has hold over everyone else in the department. can't blame her though since she was one of the pioneers. if only CHED wasn't as strict as they were, she'd still be DC - yes. that's the only reason i became the DC. not because i was better than anyone else. twas because i had an MA.

kinda sucks when you look ay it.

***
grace had a second false expectation.
i cried the forst time we thought we had a kid, tapos nagkaroon siya.
the second time, she cried.
have learned to not have much hope on me having a kid anytime soon.
just on a piggy back on that, i think i'm baog. bwahaha

***
gonna hang out here for a while, then move
my ass to kamuning to meet nick, then got home.
ingats.

kapirasong langit sa piling ng ariang sawit

ilang sambit na impit,
ilang kaluluwang sawit?
ilang awiting nakakahilakbot
ilang pusong nagmamaramot.

anong liwanag mayroon ka
buwan na puno ng diyablong sawi?
kaninong biyaya daratal
kung hindi mananalangin?

ilang pirasong ulap ang kailangan
upang maibsan ang sakit
na dulot ng sinag ng araw?
paanong mabubuhay kung

ang iilang ariyang sawit
ay impit and sambit?
kikilalanin pa b ng maramot na puso
ang dati nitong hibik?

ei there.
it's been a while since i've posted anything here.
got no time. plus, i don't have access to the net now that
i can't go out at night to surf.
pamilyado na eh. well, sorta.

***
a couple of weeks ago, i thought my wife was pregnant.
so i hastened her from eating this, drinking that,
stopped her from drinking beer at the company party; stuff like that.
a day before the date we were supposed to check
whether or not she was pregnant,
she had her menstruation.
i broke into tears.
honestly, i was expecting.

***
she told me that she'd have her last set of hepa B shots
by feb 1. that meant no contact (as if) till then.
i told her i could wait.
"why wait?", she told me last night.
needless to say more bout that.

***
i'm getting the feel that i might not be a great father
after all. do i have the guts?
my dad went to our apartment the other day, helpign me put up the antenna
for the tv i bought a couple of months ago.
after installing the antenna he told me to never dare
climb up and fix it.
at first, he told me i was too fat for the job.
i dismissed his comment. then he said,
i wasn't fit for jobs like that.
then what jobs am i fit for?
that made me start thinking: what am i good at?
i know i'm not the handyman-type of person,
but am i that unadept to housework?

***
ei there.
email me, sms me, keep in touch.
sometimes i get bored...
and too challenged.
be safe ...