i just had to write.
it's my birthday today.

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i was born around 10 in the morning, sept. 22, 1979.
i was 5.6lbs when i was born.
now i'm 180lbs, 5'10", with a beer belly, and flabby all over.
who ever thought? hehe

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i just finished washing our clothes.
today was boring. got a few greetings on the phone; i was happy at least one of the four guys remembered it was my birthday today.

at school, i took with me a 12"-chiffon pan of graham ref cake and some maja blanca.
they said it tasted great.

i didn't make a big fuss about it. it felt surreal- almost unreal and heartless. i didn't feel at home just yet. it was like i was staying there only because i needed a shed to stay under; it wasn't just about the money. it was about a place to call a home.

after all the things that happened last foundation day celebration, i doubt if i'd feel at home with the blue school, just yet.

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still here. hanging.
hey.