Ayoko sa iba
Sayoako ay hindi magsasawa
Ano man ang iyong sabihin
Umasa ka ito ay diringgin
Madalas man na parang aso"t pusa
Giliw sa piling mo ako ay masaya
- ALIPIN by SHAMROCK

december 9 2006.
3pm.
one bride's maid; one maid of honor.
one groom's man; one best man.
three pairs of secondary sponsors.
five pairs of principle sponsors.
one nearby resort; 150 guests.
two rings; one vow.

wala nang urungan.
bulungan sa a-otso.
paalam, magpakailanman.

habang may kalsada,
may pag-asa.
- PAG-ASA by crystal dinglasan, abmc3

i've finished shooting my first short film.
it's called BUS. i haven't started editing it yet.
Lord knows, i'd love to have it join cinemalaya 2007.
i just don't know if i'm ready for it.
i'll post pictures for it soon.
just waiting for the power to go back on.
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the fun part about BUS is that all of the actors (just two of them)
are straight.
i wrote, directed and lighted the scenes. i also posed as cameraman.
my other cameraman did the coverages. and posed as an extra in the film.
in all, it's a four-man production shot in a day and a half.
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BUS is a story of chance encounters between luis and jaime.
jaime is a typical introvert- secluded and horny, but reserved.
he has apprehensions about what he wants in his life.
luis is a guy who enjoys groping people in the bus.
his chance encounter with jaime results in a one night stand.
jaime assumes that a relationship may be fostered because of the
physical contact involved, but eventualy realizes that his efforts
of finding love in the arms of luis, are futile.
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i don't know if people will like it.
i hope they do. this is my 15-minute film. not that i'm scared
of showing it in public.
just a bit apprehensive, that's all.
i don't know if they're ready for it.
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milenyo just passed. that darn storm caused a lot of powerlines to short.
lotsa people are wondering if bandista2k6 is gonna push through.
i hope so.

still here. hey

there's nothing sadder than
seeing the one you love walk away
after he/she's left you - watching
the distance between you grow bigger
and bigger,
until nothing's left between you
but just empty space
and a lot of silence.
-SOMEONE LIKE YOU

the speaker from GILAS who was supposed to do a talk on september 25 declined just now. that means i'm still a speaker short for the event. i am soooo dead.
one more. grr.

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on the sidelight, grace says i've changed a bit over the past few weeks.
you know what? maybe i have. or maybe it's the wedding jitters getting the best of me. i don't know.

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three months prior to the wedding, and i got half the budget more to find.
i'm lost in a sea of nothingness: financial nothingness? LOL

sana maayos na lahat ito...
sobra akong kinakabahan na...

it's official;
no turning back.
december.
bells, veils;
ties and knots.
and everything in between.
are you ready for it?
i guess we all have to be
ready for it.

kanino nananahan
ang katahimikang mailap?
sa langit, mga ulap?
o sa putik, lupang marumi't naaagnas?

sa aling lilom ng puno nananaghoy
ang pag-ibig na maramot?
sa dalampasigang marahas?
o sa bubungang lata'ng mapag-imbot?

sa iilang pirasong ulap
na ngayo'y nangagsisilaro,
saang palad mahahanap
ang kaligtasang inaasam nuon pa?

kung ang langit, dalampasigan
lupa't mga palad ay nagdarahop,
may kakikitaan pa bang awa
sa paningin ng mga bituin?

had a long day. really long day.
ingat po palagi ;p

the day started off pretty okay. or so i thought.
the tarpaulin for the mass com and paralegal majors arrived. much to my dismay, the tarp sizes were not right- two were 5x3ft (paralegal) and two were 2x2ft (mass com). dapat kasi tig-isang 5x3ft ang mass com at paralegal. grr.
i had no choice but to settle for what i was given.
my letters for the budget and the materials for the convention were approved anyway.

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before my day was over, the cheerdancers' make-up artist trisha came to school asking for the money the kids owed him/her.
much to my dismay, i was surprised why s/he came knocking at my classroom door. i did not know anything about the arrangement. all i knew was that they agreed to pay him/her around P300, and nothing more. turns out, trisha was asking for P800.
i asked if trisha and ian (the CASE student assistant) if they could consult the dean about the dilemma; they obliged.
at the department, dr. j called up all the students involved. things were eventually settled, and trisha got her money. or so i thought.
late this afternoon, trisha started texting me again, saying that she had been receiving foul-worded SMS; s/he wanted to return the money. i told him/her that it didn't matter. she got paid, and that's it.

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prior to my fetching grace, the communication specialist of IRRI (she is supposed to be one of the speakers for the CALABARZON convention) backed out of the speaking engagement, saying that she had a business trip to vietnam from sept 20-28. my world crumbled like three-day old cookies left out in the sun to dry. top this with my dad's bad joke about my mom leaving the house for good - 'cause apparently they were fighting before i arrived (my dad was out drinking all night, that's why).

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i'm actually scrambling to find a new speaker for the convention within the week. the trip to uplb has been canceled because of complexities in scheduling. this means that the kids have to produce development films without any other added knowledge. darn it.

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wish me luck aight?
holler me up.
mwah.

my dream phone for the midyear hehe

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my checklist for
the end of the year:
church
barong (check)
gown
flowers
caterer
venue (check)
invitations (check)
guestlist (check)
souvenirs (check)
permits and licenses